there you go
you've decided to take a step into my shed of memories
a place where i voice out my feelings
do leave your footprints behind
Have A Nice Day!
Decent Guy
Alvin Wong Wei Mun
6th March 1989
Pisces
Nanyang JC <0619> St.Gabriel's Secondary <4E2> Ai Tong Primary <6L>
<Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Confusion... Wat is she tinking? How exactly does she feels abt me? All these doubts juz suddenly occur 2 me... N after brooding over them, i'm still totally clueless. All along, i tot tt i'm an analytical person who can more or less read a person's mind. But after analysing her reactions, i still cannot figure out her thoughts... not even d slightest thing tt is in her mind... I'm lost... i'm seriously lost... Self-reflection Truth be told, i'm juz a simple person. I only hope 2 stay healthy n happy throughout my whole life... I dun really hav any big aims in life... I noe tt my priority n main aim 4 now is study, study n study... n seriously tts wat i've been doin all along... I've really put all my concentration into studying all these yrs... n courtship has nv come across my mind... N i tink tts 1 of d reasons y i dint date any gals before... However, d most impt reason y i dint hav a stead before is bcos i haven't really met d gal of my dream. Actually d type of gal tt i'm lookin 4 is very simple... But so far none of my friends tt i noe seems 2 be able 2 meet my criteria... hahaha... sounds like i'm very picky rit? Well... actually i'm not! There's basically only 3 main conditions tt i'm lookin 4! First, which is d most impt condition, is tt d gal muz be very very decent! If a gal dresses or behaves indecently, i'll get extremely put off by tt... Next, n oso very impt, is d gal muz be able 2 click very well wif me... it means tt i can get along very well wif her as well as sharing d same interest as her... Lastly, i like gals who r very cheerful n easygoing... cos i like gals who can cheer me up n be my 开心果! Yup!!! hahaha... Ya... so it's tt simple! Well... i guess tt maybe i'm too serious when it comes 2 love relationship... Cos in my dictionary, 1 stead= 1 wife= 1 lifetime. 4 me, i'll really really choose my stead carefully... I muz be 100% sure tt i really love her very much before i'll take action 2 date her... I will oso tink thru very carefully tt whether she is d one tt i wanna spend my whole life wif... So once i hav a stead, i'm very very sure tt she will be my wife in d future... I'll treat her very well n try my best 2 make her feel tt she is d happiest gal on Earth! Yup! I'll definitely be right by her side when she needed me most... n d one 2 cheer her up when she is feeling down... Uncertained... Now...i'm very sure tt i like 'my one'... But i noe tt it's definitely not love... Cos i tink it's not possible 2 love her if i dun even noe her! Actually i've been tinking it thru for months... i've been asking myself whether i hav a crush on her... Is it infatuation? Or is it tt i like her? Believe it or not... i've been trying 2 figure out d answer since april! hahaha... Cannot believe it rit? Cos i'm really serious when it comes 2 tis kind of thing ma... At tt point of time (in april), i gave myself 3 months 2 be certain of my feelings 4 her... Until 2 months ago (in august), i'm very certain tt i really like her. So since den, i've been tryin 2 make friends wif her... But dunno y there's juz no opportunity... Haiz... Cos everytime i c her she is always wif her friends... n when she's alone, i'm wif my friends... Well... i tink tt maybe we r not fated 2 noe each other ba... Anw, last time whenever i c her, she would always look into my eyes... n i noe tt she noes me in a way... But now, i tink tt she somewat noes tt i like her... n d situation now is rather embarassing... But tts not wat i'm worried most... Cos my best pals always like 2 ga jiao me n say tt i wanna jio her, so i'm worried tt she might get wind of it n misunderstand me n tot tt i really wanna jio her! If tts d case, it will be really embarassing... In any case, i'll wont do anything 4 now... I'll juz let Nature takes its course... If we r destined 2 noe each other, we will surely meet 1 day...