there you go
you've decided to take a step into my shed of memories
a place where i voice out my feelings
do leave your footprints behind
Have A Nice Day!
Decent Guy
Alvin Wong Wei Mun
6th March 1989
Pisces
Nanyang JC <0619> St.Gabriel's Secondary <4E2> Ai Tong Primary <6L>
<Tuesday, November 21, 2006
What's tt "thing" !!! Haiz... These few days i felt moody... n i dun really noe y... I juz feel like staying at home d whole day n not doin anything... I tink something is wrong... something is seriously wrong wif me... Haiz... So exactly wat went wrong man... I'm not sick... i'm not troubled by anything... nor i am having some problems... Well... i really juz can't point out wats wrong lor... I only noe tt there's sth tt keeps weighing on my mind... but no matter how hard i try... i juz cannot figure out wats bothering me so much nowadays...
So these few days, not wanting 2 feel bothered, i tried finding things 2 do juz 2 keep myself occupied... i hope by doin so it would keep my mind away from d "thing" tts bothering me... den i won't 胡思乱想... I juz kept watching tv n doin homeworks d whole day... n i dun really noe if i hav spent my time wisely anot... I'm lost... i'm completely lost... I juz simply dun hav a slightest clue of wat i'm doin now...
Being a very decisive, rational n well-planned person i am, tis is really d 1st time tt i'm facing tis... Usually after 打坐... i will be able 2 see d light n resolve any problems tt i encounter... no matter how tough d problems are... But now? Aiyo... i really dunno y lor... cos d problem now is i dun even noe wats bothering me in d 1st place! hahaha... Stupid as it may sound... i tink i really need 2 relax myself n slowly tink thru again... tink thru wat i've been doin during tis yr... Well... i guess i will really need 2 spend some time tinking thru all tis...
Anw, i'm not feelin down or wat k... juz tt i'm feelin kinda frustrated cos i cannot figure out wats bothering me ma... i noe definitely tt there's sth impt tts weighing on my mind... so impt tt it keeps bothering me every sec... Aiyaya... how can i not figure out wats tt "thing" man!!! hahaha... Well... i guess probably it's bcos i'm too eager 2 find out wat is it ba... probably i'm too 心烦气躁... den 一时之间 cannot figure out wat is it... Yup!!! Anw being d 冷静 me, i'm very sure tt i will be able 2 unravel tis knot in my mind very soon de... hahaha =)
Well... looking on d bright side, i tink tis "thing" may not be a bad thing after all! hahaha... cos rit... i've been trying 2 keep myself occupied these few days by doin homeworks ma... although it did not help much 2 stop d "thing" from bothering me! hahaha... But noe wat??? I've completed all my maths n chem tutorials le!!! Hooray!!! hahaha... I'm feelin sooooo happy whenever i tink of tis... hehehe... now i only left wif gp n econs holiday homeworks le... Fast rit! hahaha... So... i tink at d rate which i'm goin now, i shld be able 2 complete all d holiday homeworks at d end of tis week le!!! Yea!!! =)
Hmmm... so 4 d next few days, i shall continue doin my homeworks ba!!! Cos whenever i tink tt i can fully relax n concentrate on dance trainings after i hav finished all my works... it juz spurs me on 2 do my homeworks!!! hahaha... =)
So... after realising tt doin homeworks wont keep tt "thing" from bothering me, i will 打坐 tml again... hahaha... i noe tt it may sound funny ok... but u all dun laugh or 暗笑 hor... tis is a very impt n serious thing 4 me man... hehehe =P... Anw, i will continue tis routine until i found d answer!!!
So everyone... i'm sorry if i dint turn up 4 any outings tis week... cos i really feel rather 烦躁 these few days... being constantly bothered by tt "thing"... n i dun wanna affect ur mood ma... So ya... I really really wanna figure out wats tt "thing" on my mind 1st... cos if i noe wats tt "thing"... i won't feel bothered anymore! Yup!!! So forgive me k... i really wanna spent tis few days at home... juz 2 find an answer 2 tis! hahaha... =) 完。