my diary of DREAMS.

<Tuesday, January 30, 2007

I Wish...

I've been up to my neck wif studies n ccas 4 d past few weeks... so preoccupied tt i almost couldn't breathe...

I've been sleeping 4 less den 5hrs each day... n my energy level is really waning le... i really dunno how much i can hold on...

How i wish tt life was as simple as last time... when i was as innocent as a primary sch kid back den in Ai Tong... where i can find real joy n friends everyday...

How i wish i can live in a place w/o worries n frustration... how i wish i can be as free as when i was in St. Gabs... where nth seems 2 be able 2 trouble me...

But i guess tts all in d past... n there's no way tt i can turn back d time... haizzz... so wat? Look forward lor...

Haizzz... since d very 1st day tt i stepped into ny... which was on my birthday... life is no longer d same...

Last time... when ppl ask me 2 describe my life... i would say fulfilling... fun... trouble-free...

Now... i would use words like stress... busy n so on...

How i wish i can turn back time... so tt i can remake my choice... if tts d case... many things would hav been different... i may not be in ny...

I was in cj 1st 3 months... n wanted 2 stay there cos life was free n fun... But i guess heaven was playin tricks on me again... I taiko-ly got 10 pts 4 my 'O' level... n tt gave me tots of joining a better cj... cos i felt tt 10pts go cj abit lang fei...

After much deliberation... i ended up choosing ny... partly cos of my parents... n partly cos my best buddy is goin into ny...

In any case... no pt whining abt it... i shld be looking forward since im alrd in ny for abt 1 yr le...

In ny... life was much much more stressful... I'm used 2 being 1 of d tops in St.Gabs... but now i feel tt im so insignificant...

When i scored 80... ppl score 90... n when i score 90... ppl score 100...

I believe tt i can score much better den them... if only i hav more motivation n time 2 study...

Well... looking at things now... i tink it's not possible...

1st... during 1st 3 months cj taught very slow... n i've problems catchin up ny's pace... so... my foundation was weak 2 start wif...

2nd... im still not used 2 d lecture system... i feel tt most of d time i cannot 100% understand d whole lecture... at most is 90% only... so... i hav many doubts in each topic 4 every subject...

3rd... sch ended much later in jc n in sec sch... n somemore wif cca... schedule is more packed... which means less study time...

So ya... d only way 2 do well is 2 start mugging hard everyday now... but im really dead beat... no strength 2 mug... somemore i got no motivation oso...

Anw... sidetrack from studies... i got 2 noe one good friend in ny... someone tt i can call bro... Now... i got 2 brothers le... n tt lead 2 d formation of d decent trio... Well... i guess tts only d thing tt makes me feel tt i'm making d right choice 2 stay in ny...

Apart from tt... my class is not very bonded... there r distinct cliques... which i tink is due 2 wat had happened during d 1st 3 months n d recent blog war...

Cca-wise... i felt tt i've made d right choice in choosing ss... although most of my friends suan me 4 choosing tis cca... i really dun regret it... i kinda enjoy staying there cos there i'm free 2 make choices...

As 4 dance... many implication arises since i joined dance...

1st... i joined dance cos of 'sgc'... dunno if i've made d right choice but i chose 2 join...

2nd... n most imptly... studies affected adversely... i tried very hard 2 manage my time well... n i somehow did... but den i much more tired den wat i've expected... in the end my daily routine changed... last time reach home i'll study... now reach home??? Sleep w/o fail...

3rd... spending less time wif my family...cos i always reach home late... n im oso askin 4 extra allowances... Now... my mum is pissed wif me...

4th... n of course... making a bunch of new friends... some of which i feel lucky 2 noe them... some of which i wish i do not noe them...

Knowing tis new group of friends => dansez-le... made me further feel tt i've made d right choice in choosing ny... i felt tt life was more fun in ny wif them arnd... thank you ppl...

On d other hand there r some who destroy my good impression 4 ny... So wat if they hav high IQ when their EQ is low!!!

Truth be told... i've known a few friends who i really hate them... n their presence really cause alot of unhappiness 4 me...

Haizzz... some r juz plain arrogant n always show d 'look-down-on-u' face...

Some really noe how 2 take advantage of d situation...

Some are hypocrites...

They can really act well... so well u tot they r somebody tt can be trusted...

They exposed ur secrets after gaining ur trust... n before u can react or do anything... u've learnt a good lesson of not 2 be too trusting...

They smile in front of u... den backstab u in ur back... tts d 'best offensive move' i'll say... cos there's no room or any signs of warning 2 defend urself against it...

These kind of ppl r d most difficult 2 deal wif... cos they can juz deceive whoeva they like wif their 'natural ability'...

They gain ppl trust easily wif their facade... toying their feelings...

Haizzz... well... i can only hav myself 2 blame 4 being too trusting... i tot all my friends r trustable but im wrong... i tink maybe my mentally is still stuck in primary sch...

Now... d decent trio has got a taste of it... so i only hope we'll be d last 'victim'... n tt there'll be no more 'victims' from now on...

My advice... take a good look at d ppl arnd u... u may well be d next target unknowingly...

Haizzz... toking so much abt how much i hate hypocrite n ppl who resort 2 backstabbing... here i am bloggin w/o mentioning their names... n i tink there's oso no difference from backstabbing ba... maybe it's call 'indirect backstabbing'???

Den again... maybe im a hypocrite too... cos no one can tell how i feel...

When im angry... i kept in within myself... dun show it 2 others... sometimes even my brothers oso dunno...

When im sad... i bottle up my feelings... dun show it 2 others... lest affect their feelings/moods...

When im happy... i'll show it... cos i like d feeling of bringing joy 2 d ppl arnd me...

Sometimes even when im sad or angry... i'll still smile n crack jokes... i look so normal tt no one can tell im not happy...

So ya... i look d same most of d times... n most of d times i look happy... no one can really tell whether im feeling sad, angry or happy at tis moment... so i tink im fake in a way too...

Hu~~~ feeling better after pouring everything now... hey brothers... i tink i've nv told u all these rit... actually sometimes i hide things from u all... really very sorry ar...

And i tink there may be less outing next time le... cos i wanna spend more time wif my family... now they r pissed wif me... n im oso feelin bad... cos i've changed... somemore i noe tt im really not showing them any result... n all i do is go home late n sleep... so ya... hope u can understand...

Anw... i've been tinking of all these stuffs lately... n always ended up sleeping late... so here i am bloggin at 3am... couldn't sleep well... juz feel d sudden urge 2 pour out d feelings i've bottled up so long...

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<Saturday, January 27, 2007

The Realisation

Episode 7

1 week later...

While Alan, Terence, Jonathan, Alex and Glenn were still trying to expose Charlie,
Charlie moved on to Katherine.
They were really very put off by his behaviour.

They had many discussions,
Just to find a solution to this as fast as possible.
They really don't want to see more and more girls falling for his facade,
Lest the girls really like him and got deceived by him.

Day after day, they were slowly making some progress.
Will their persistence ever paid off at the end of the day???
Or will Charlie's true self be concealed forever???

The saga goes on...

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The Realisation

Episode 6

Terence continued to try every means to know that girl even better.
Not long after, he managed to get closer to her with the help of Alan and Jonathan.
He was feeling very happy.

Just at this moment, Charlie came into the picture again.
He behaved closely with that girl again,
Leaving Terence with not many chances to know her better.
Terence was feeling very very pissed.
He was feeling what Alan was going through last time.

Since then, both Alan and Terence hate Charlie to the core.
How they wish they can expose Charlie's facade in front of all the girls,
So that they take a good look at the girls' shocking reaction.
Of course, they wish they can really tear down his mask and show the world how ugly he really look like.

However, they know that it is very difficult.
No matter how hard Alan, Terence, Jonathan, Alex and Glenn racked their witty brains,
There is nothing much they can do to unmask him.

Charlie has gained all the girls trust as well as admiration.
It is extremely difficult to expose his true self as long as he do not show it in front of the girls.
Any reckless attempts to expose him will only made the girls lose trust in them.
Worst still, the girls' trust in him will grow more.

"Haizzz..." is the thing that is going through their minds whatever they think of how incompetent they were in exposing Charlie's true self.

Looking at how Charlie moves on from one girl to another,
they were really feeling very angry,
and helpless...

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The Realisation

Episode 5

1 month later...

Alan, Jonathan and Terence have sorted out their thinkings.
They have finally totally gave up on the ones they like.
Now, studies is their main priority.

Just at the moment when they have made this choice,
Heaven is playing tricks on them again.
The 3 of them realised that they found a girl who is quite good.
They all considered seriously about that girl.

In the end, Alan and Jonathan were unsure of their feelings.
So Terence decided to made a move to chase the girl.
They made a pact among themselves.
That is not to snatch the girl each fancies away from each other.

However, Terence was very clouded by love.
He changed and gradually forsaked Alan and Jonathan.
He was drifting away from them...
Slowly, yet unknowingly...

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The Realisation

Episode 4

Terence, Alex and Glenn's hearts went out to Alan.
They felt that Charlie is a bastard.
They slowly put on their guards against him.

However, Charlie's good acting skills earned every girl's admiration.
In the eyes of the girls, he is very impressive.
In the eyes of the guys, he is nothing but a faker.

In front of the girls, he is refined.
He is always humorous and brings joys to the girls.
An aura of charm is palpable.

In front of the guys, he is very crude.
Vulgarities were seen on his teeth once he opened his mouth.
He pang-sehed them for girls without fail whenever they went out for an outing together.
The aura of hypocrisy sent wave signals to their nervous systems,
Creating an uncontrollable force to imprint their fist marks on his face.

Meanwhile, the feelings of Alan, Jonathan and Terence for the ones they like were waning...

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The Realisation

Episode 3

Life goes on.
Their bonds remain strong. Unshaken in the event of troubles.
However, they still can't quite give up on the ones they like.

One day, Terence and Alan got to know Alex and Glenn in their cca.
And they realised that they shared many things in common.
They soon became close to each other...

They had lots of fun together.
They went for clique outings and even camp.
And then they got to know Charlie and Sebastian at the same time.

Soon, they shared their secrets with one another and got to know each other better.
The bonds between them soon strengthened...

However, despite knowing who Alan likes, Charlie chose to behave intimately with Wednesday.
He even exposed Alan's deep secret.
Alan was totally put off and was very angry with Charlie.
He felt very betrayed and think that his trust was misplaced.

At the same time, Jonathan faced the same situation.
His friend Lebron, who knows his secret, actually behaved quite closely with Katherine.
He was feeling down.
He was feeling betrayed.

Since then, Alan and Jonathan have learnt their lessons...

Lesson Learnt:
"知人知面不知心，劝你交友要小心。如果你不听，以后别伤心。"

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The Realisation

Episode 2

The 3 of them decided to pursue the girls they like.
As Terence happened to know Wednesday and Katherine, he decided to help Alan and Jonathan.
And indeed, his help did catalyst the progress between Alan and Wednesday as well as Jonathan and Katherine.
But poor Terence, he realised that Geraldine actually has a stead.
He was feeling devastated...

At the same time, Alan and Jonathan were still trying hard 2 know the girls they like better.
However, for some reasons, both their secrets were leaked out.
Feeling that it was the right time, Jonathan made his feelings known to Katherine.
The response was unclear, and since then they slowly drifted further and further away.

Then, Alan felt that it was unfair to let Wednesday be the last person to know about his feelings.
So, he made his confession to her.
In the end, she only wanna be friends with him.

The 3 of them suffered a massive blow.
They felt that they were failures.
Feeling very depressed, they made a choice.
That is to slowly give up on the ones they like...

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The Realisation

Episode 1

Alan is an all-time hardworking student.
He is the role model of his secondary school,
And he has a good pal call Jonathan whom he has known since secondary 1.
One day, his effort was finally paid off when he entered a junior college.
He was deliriously happy upon knowing that Jonathan was in the same class as him in the junior college.

He felt that life in junior college was about the same as secondary school with Jonathan around.
They continued 2 study, play and hang out together.
Not long after, they got to know Terence, who shares the similar thinking with them.
Since then, the 3 of them become good buddies, and little did they know that the formation of their friendship brought about drastic changes in their lives...

They are like triplets, as they would always walk around the school together.
Nothing in this world seems to be able to separate them, or overcome the strong bonds between them.

One day, Terence shared with Alan and Jonathan that he has a major crush on Geraldine, a girl whom he do not know.
Ever since then, he tried very hard to chase her.
He even went to a far extent to get her hp no as well as her msn address.

At the same time, Alan feel that he has taken a liking on Wednesday, while Jonathan feel that he has grew fond of Katherine.
The 3 of them found the girls they each desire at the same time.
However, they faced the same difficulty.
That is they did not really know the girl whom they like.

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Sunday
Went out wif my mum n sis in d morning 4 breakfast as usual...
After tt i headed 2 d yck cc at 4.30pm to receive d merit bursary award...
Not bad though... i received a $300 cheque as well as a free kfc meal there!

Hmm... i saw someone familiar there... dint really noe who until her name was announced when she was goin up d stage... it's none other den my bro's ex-flame!!! hahaha... =P

Monday
Vague memory of wat happened... only can recall tt i flopped my maclaurin's test... n had social dance 4 afternoon pe!!! =X

Tuesday
Sch ended earlier at 12.30pm as i shifted d econs tutorial 1hr earlier! Hooray!!! hahaha...

Anw... d decent trio went 2 J8 2 hav lunch as well as studyin in d library there... as expected... we spent more time walking arnd J8 den studying in d library...

Wanted 2 go watch death note 2 again... but tc was pressing 4 time as he was eager 2 rush back 2 sch 4 night study... hahaha... y suddenly so enthu in study ar??? =P

We crapped alot in d library instead of studyin... IN THE END... we only did a few tutorial qns 4 abt 2hrs... =.=

After tt... tc bought dinner 4 kaiying n huichun before goin off 4 night study in sch... Wa... u good la... pang-sehed ur buddies once again 4 gals... haizzz... nvm la... we still forgive u... =P

Wednesday
Dance training from 4.30-7.30pm...

Noe wat??? We guys finally "梦寐以求" n got 2 wear tights!!! =X
Eheeewww... so gao wei la... n we guys were really put off by d tights lor... cos it is so tight-fitting tt our ahem is abit obvious la... den we were really feelin very 不自在...

So ya... we kept adjusting our tights when doin barwork... =X

Anw... during d "最后一次" dance... i went all out cos it was d last time tt we would be dancing in d day le... or shld i say in d night! =X

Den... there was one part of d dance where d dsa gal (paiseh... can't rmb her name) accidentally kicked my left hand... n i sprained my index finger IN THE END... Wa... damn pain sia... but i endured all d way until d whole dance was over...

Woot~~ I tink d most painful part was when i lift michelle up wif my sprained finger!!! =X

Couldn't bend my finger 4 d whole night... so asked my dad help me rub... IN THE END... it did help alot... but d swell was still very big... =(

Thursday
Chem lecture test... n i was very unprepared cos i was really very exhausted... both mentally n physically...

Somemore... i could hardly write cos of my left index finger... n it hurts alot when i was doin d test la... So ya... i was doin quite slowly n dint really manage 2 finish d paper... But one thing is 4 sure... i'm finished!!! =X... I've no confidence of passing tis test man... Haizzz...

Friday
My finger still havent recover yet... but was feelin much better... not so painful... except tt there is blood clot in my finger... =.=

PE in d morning... dint do pull-ups n dint really play bball cos of my injured finger... i dun wanna d condition of my finger 2 worsen...

Econs test in d afternoon... n it was rather simple... hmm... i tink i shld be able 2 do well 4 tis test ba... hopefully la... hahaha... =P

Maths re-test after sch outside LT4... i scored only 4.5 in d previous maclaurin's test... so tis time round muz do well... IN THE END... d paper was so much more easy la... i tink i can even can full mark man... hahaha...

Dance training from 5.30-8.30pm...

A.S.S. members were all late 4 dance... tc was late cos of The One audition... while me aloy n gerald were pretty suay 2 meet a siao za bo at d central... n we had 2 settle d matter in d police station... =.=

Today's training focused more on refining all our steps n movements... n i seriously tink tt tis time round d guys did improve in d group work... i tink we were more familiar wif d timings now le! Yup!!! =)

Teik got injured again during training... but tis time round quite serious... cos i tink she sort of momentarily losing conciousness... So ya... dansez-le... 拼归拼... but dun over-exert urselves ok... u all muz rmb tt health is more impt den any thing else~!!! Do take care of urselves! Jia You!!! =)

So ya... after all d liftings... d condition of my finger aggravated again le... After training we guys played abit of ball game... n tc accidentally slipped his hand n hit my left leg wif his metal water bottle...

Wa... it was damn pain sia...

After tt d A.S.S. members together wif d 2 seniors, kaiying n huichun went 4 supper at central macs...

Chatted awhile until abt 11.15pm before we all went home! =X

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<Sunday, January 21, 2007

Day At The Zoo
Today... i went out wif d members of A.S.S., kaiying, huichun, lao da n chee kian 2 Zoo!!! Oh yea man... i tink tis was d 1st time i went Zoo since sec 1 ba... hahaha... =) So ya... i was pretty much looking forward 2 it!

Anw... we all met at amk mos burger 1st before setting off 2 Zoo... we were supposed 2 meet at 12pm de... but due 2 RAIN... we had 2 delay abit n ended up setting off at 2pm!!! Wa!!! Siao liao... d Zoo close at 6pm... n we reached there at arnd 3pm la! Wasted sia... =.=

Btw... d founders of A.S.S. members (me, tc, aloy n gerald) all wear black shirt la!!! WA... i tink there r really telepathy between us man... maybe it's bcos we all share d same ideals ba... hahaha... =P

Upon reaching there... many things looked very different compared 2 d last time i went there... well... i guess i was abit sua-gu ar... hahaha... =X... Anw... i realised tt d ticket costs $15 la!!! Wa!!! So ex sia... i tot only at most $12 nia... N after approaching d customer services... we realised tt d ticket would cost only $7.50 if we hav a sch letter... =.=

WA... we all really felt very cheated la... If only we knew earlier we would hav ask mr. kwek 2 give us a letter alrd lor... Haizzz... no choice grumbling here... we still bought d ticket at $15 lor... got ripped... =(... So ya... ppl... next time muz rmb 2 bring a sch letter wif u 2 buy d ticket at student price hor!!!

After taking some photos... we finally enter d Zoo... Due 2 time constraint... d A.S.S. members stepped up our pace a little... n in d end we were separated from d 4 of them...

Fun!!!
As usual... d A.S.S. members nv fail 2 carry out hilarious acts!!! I tink maybe tts wat u can expect when 5 humourous ppl stick together ba! hahaha... =P...

1st... we took random photos... n all our poses were either very diao... cool... or funny de!!! hahaha... but it's a pity tt i can't show u all d pictures taken here cos i need more time 2 upload them... so ya... will show u all d much anticipated pics next time de... 敬请期待!!! =P

After awhile... we finally gather together as a group again le! We walked together 2 see kangaroos... Oh ya... we caught them eating n shitting at d same time in action la!!! Eheeew... disgusting sia... =X

Kaiying said a small kid anyhow hold her hand... it reminded me of sth n den i said d wrong thing! Almost kena seh by her!!! hahaha... paiseh ar... juz a slip of my tongue! =P

Went 2 watch penguins after tt!!! Oh yea man... penguin is my fave animal man... Woot~ i love penguin! It's such a cute n obedient animal!!! Wa... abit high ar... hahaha... Anw... i took some solo photos wif penguins!!! =)

Next... we rested awhile... n d A.S.S. members took some very nice pictures sia! We took 4 official photos in total...

1st... we posed "U" (pointing at d camera)
2nd... we posed "Touch" (squessing sth... looked abit sick... =P)
3rd... we posed "We" (pointing at ourselves)
4th... needless 2 say... of course is "SEH" la! (showing punching fists!)

After tt... if i rmb correctly... we went 2 reptile park... We saw various kind of snakes as well as komodo dragons... n there is a python tt is extremely huge la! =X

Smart Move!
Well... here comes d funniest part of our journey...i dunno if it's a smart move or cheapskate move sia... hahaha... =P

In between d journey we find somewhere n rest... n wheneva we saw d vending machines... we will hav sth up our sleeves! hahaha...

At 1st... we went 2 a air-con pavilion a rest awhile... n there is a vending machine... den tc, aloy n gerald said they can got 3 bottles of drinks by paying d amt of a bottle of drink!

At 1st i was lost... dunno how they did it... so being curious... i observed... when no one was around in d pavilion... they inserted $2.90 coins into d vending machine... den press a code no. of d drink...

Next... d drink dropped onto a latch n roll out... Juz den... tc stuck his hand in d hole (where d drink is supposed 2 come out) n stopped d drink from coming out... den... it really landed on d latch... n d machine refunded us back d money!!! lolz!!! hahaha... they continued doin tis for 3 consecutive times n IN THE END... they got 3 bottles 4 juz $2.90!!!

WA... we tried tis on 3 occasions la... 1st n 2nd time was quite a success... d 3rd one was a complete failure la!!! hahaha... cos aloy pressed d code no. where d drink was sold out!!! WA... he dint c den juz anyhow press a no... IN THE END he really paid $2.90 4 one drink la!!! N after tt he really felt very heart pain... HAHAHA...

Aloy... dun be sad... juz treat tis as a lesson learnt man... "Failure is the mother of success... u shld pick urself up from where u fall... n most imptly... never try 2 outwit a vending machine!!!" HAHAHA... =P

So ya... during our 2nd try a few foreigners were arnd... n i tink tt we've exposed d ugly side of Singaporeans 2 them le! =X

Time flies n it was 6pm le!!! While making our way back... we wanted 2 watch d polar bears... cos it kinda resembles aloy ma... hahaha... =P... Anw he oso admited himself lor... n we say d feeding time is at 5pm... so muz go feed him... But IN THE END we were late... n d polar bears were all shifted 2 Night Safari le... Sux sia... =.=

In any case... i still got gave him some biscuits at arnd 5pm la... so still consider got feed him! Juz tt i nv pay him d $5 for d feeding fees!!! hahaha... =P

So ya... we walked all d way back until we finally reached d souvenir shop le... As expected... d items sold there were very nice... so is d price... hahaha... I like d soft penguin toy there la... but d price was ahem... u all noe la...

Anw... we walked arnd d shop... n started playin wif some items n toys...

After tt... kaiying had 2 go off 1st 2 celebrate her bro birthday... while d rest went off 2 take bus 138 to amk central 2 hav KFC 4 dinner... Me n ys ga jiao huichun a little bit... n she was so shy tt her face turned red... hahaha...=P

D decent trio n huichun sat together at 1 table... so we had a good chat... n understand more abt each others' friends as well as our individual situations... hahaha...

Soccer Time!
So ya... we lost track of d time until i realised tt it was 8.45pm le! Ohh... siao liao la... d match between Liverpool n Chelsea started le!!! So me, aloy n gerald being d ardent soccer fans... can't afford 2 miss d clash of titans between d 2 giants man...

IN THE END... they went 2 my hse 2 watch cos my hse is only a 5min walk away from amk central... So ya... we watched n bullshit at d same time... it was very fun sia... During d break... we had abit of guys talk...

Finally... d match ended wif Liverpool winning 2-0... n aloy made d right prediction n won money la!!! Hey congrats man... n rmb Seoul Garden... steady ar!!! hahaha...

Had a little abit more of guys talk until abt 11.30pm... n they went home le...

So ya... i'm feeling very tired now le after goin out 4 one whole day... i tink i gtg slp early today le... cos i hav yet 2 complete my chem n maths tutorials... as well as revising 4 d math lecture test on monday! Wa... somemore i tml still need 2 go 2 d yck cc n collect d merit bursary award la... i doubt i'll hav time 2 complete my hw alrd sia... I muz really chiong my hw tml le... so cya ba~!!! =)

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<Saturday, January 20, 2007

Friday

PE...
Had bball during pe in d morning... n d decent trio was so 'lucky' tt we played against ass's team!

WA!!! D tot of it made my blood boils sia... actually our team can thrashed ass's team de... but cos our team only we 3 can play well... so IN THE END we drew wif them... =.=

During d game ass was damn gay... ppl pushed him abit den he kept shouting "wtf man... foul la foul la..."... Actually it wasn't a foul lor... but nvm la... guys muz handicap gals wat... muz be more gentleman... so we juz considered it as a foul lor... =.=

Nth much happened during d remaining lessons of d day... juz tt i was feeling extremely tired towards d last few lessons n i nearly felt asleep again... =X

Dance Training
Bought some breads n biscuits juz before dance cos i was really famished... n i bought some 4 d founders of A.S.S. too!!!

Anw... as usual... barwork--> stretching --> choreography

Me n aloy saw RAINbow when doin barwork... but we see see den dun really care le... But dunno y when d gals see they were like so fascinated la... like it's a 1st time they c RAINbow in their lives! hahaha... =P

Now comes d choreography part... n it's time tt d A.S.S. carried out their 1st ever mission le... tt is 2 prevent 'accidents' from happening...

Initially everything was fine... until our client complained 2 us sth... n at tt moment we had 2 uphold our motto... but we were held back by her... cos she wanna drop d case... Wa!!! Count tt person lucky man... if not we seh him alrd le...

So ya... 1 of our founders n 1 of d honourable members tried 2 settle it in a peaceful manner... but IN THE END d person denied everything... well... i guess A.S.S. really got no choice but 2 really uphold our motto next time le!

Btw... dance training was abit hiong though... n i accidently injured my left knee! WA!!! Last time was shoulder... den hipbone... den wrist... den now knee... i wonder which part of d body will i injured next sia... =X

After dance d members of A.S.S. together wif kaiying n huichun went 2 amk mos burger 4 supper... As usual... we chatted quite alot... n tc showed a 'magic glance'!!! hahaha... =P

Anw... had a little bit of guys talk wif aloy n gerald after eating... n it was really nice man... hope there'll be more of tis talk in d future man... hahaha...

PS: Hey aloy... dun tink so much le... n cheer up ya??? U hav d support of RAINASS dun forget!!! hahaha... =P

RAINASS Rocks man!!! =)

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<Thursday, January 18, 2007

A.S.S.

A.S.S. was founded on 1st december 2006
Our founders--> Tyson, Aloysius, Alvin & Gerald
Honourable members--> Yong Shun & Lao Da
Members--> Some other ppl
Clients--> Confidential
How to join--> Those who have the same ideals as us

Motto
"You Touch, We SEH"

Our Pledge
We, the members of A.S.S.
Pledge 2 seh any person
Who tries 2 create accidents
For his own benefits
On purpose
We will not tolerate any excuses
And nonsense from this person
Cause he is a stupid pimp
We will follow the path of light
And will always be right

Sponsors
Rain Productions

Affiliations
Rain Productions

Dear members of A.S.S... pls learn d pledge as well as d motto of our organisation... Interested parties pls feel free 2 approach any of our founders... =)

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Long Day...
Haizzz... thursday again... sian sia... n once again... all d chem n phy practicals as well as tutorials in a day... Hmm... anw...i reached sch early at 6.45am...

1st period was phy lecture... n i really dun understand d topic on oscillation la... i tink tt tis is perhaps d 1st time tt i'm so lost in a lecture lor... =X

After phy practical was chem lecture... well... still can comprehend d lecture... so not too bad... I was feeling very sleepy today... n i almost felt asleep on some of d occasions... but luckily i've got some sweets 2 sustain me throughout d lectures!

Anw... some guys from 0617 challenged me, tc, ys, aloy n gerald... d A.S.S. members... 2 a bball game after chem lect... n of course... we took up d challenge! IN THE END... we thrashed them man... as expected... hahaha... =P

Chem practical next... n as usual... 2 hrs juz passed away quickly...

After econs tutorial... my class stayed back awhile 2 discuss abt d class jersey... n as expected... we couldn't really come 2 a conclusion on which design we want... =.=

Met up wif aloy, gerald, lao da, kaiying n huichun... d other members of A.S.S. after tt... hahaha... WA!!! A.S.S. is growing now sia... n i tink tt A.S.S. will definitely be a great force 2 be reckon wif in d future man... HAHAHA... =P

So ya... aloy n kaiying were doin their gp essays... while d rest were chattin...

Many hilarious things happened at tt time...

1st... aloy said a 'magic word' which made me laugh like mad la... HAHAHA... =P... Nice one la aloy...

2nd... lao da took his phone n tried 2 do a 'last ride' position... i dunno y oso leh... =P... but it was damn funny la! HAHAHA...

3rd... tc n lao da tried gaying wif each other... i oso dunno y leh... i tink they wanna do sth ar... hahaha... =P

Next... tis was d nice part... cos me, aloy n gerald were too bored... n we decided 2 do sth 4 A.S.S.!!!

We tot of d motto... d pledge n everything 4 A.S.S. le!!! hahaha... it was really damn funny la... we even tot of making a jersey 4 tis organisation! =P

FYI...

A.S.S. is a legally established organisation tt prevents 'accidents' from happening... It aims 2 provide necessary assistance 4 those who need help... n will take severe actions against anyone who attempts 2 create these 'accidents' intentionally...

Note: Anyone caught shall face dire consequences... n d organisation is not held responsible shld any untowards happened 2 d person...

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<Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Due 2 time constraint... i shall make my blog short n sweet...

Sunday

I've juz been noticed tt i've been awarded d Merit Bursary Award! hahaha... really can't believe tt i'm d top 25% in NY despite not doin well 4 my promos! Maybe tts wat u call taiko ba... =X

Anw... as im in a good mood... i decided 2 give my mum n sis a treat! So IN THE END... i treated them Carl's Jr. @ PS! hahaha... so now im *chi-ching*... not much money left wif me... But im gonna receive d award next sunday... so next week i'll hav extra allowances le! Yea!!! =)

Monday

Met up wif d decents, aloy, gerald, kaiying n huichun 4 breakfast at d usual coffeeshop... Prata 4 me as usual... hahaha...

Lessons as per normal... n nth funny particular happened... except tt tc wore his own brown pants 2 sch! hahaha... i tink tt was d joke of d day ba... it was so obvious sia... n he got caught by a teacher... =P

Tuesday

A short day 4 me... cos d sch ends at 12.30pm 4 my class... Yea!!! Anw... d decent trio... together wif lincoln, nicholas n dexter... went 2 textile centre somewhere near lavender 2 make our class jersey! Wa... a class jersey at long last man!

IN THE END... we decided 2 choose a jersey wif collar zip de! It was really very cool la... I tink our class will definitely stand out from d rest of d classes de! hehehe... =P

Cheng went 2 national library... so we joined her shortly after tt... n tc was very caring sia... bought sth nice 4 her... sooo warm~~~!!! =P... cheeky ar tc... nv see u treat d decents before leh... =P

Cheng need 2 return back 2 sch 4 soccer... so as members of rangers... we accompanied her 2 sch... On d way... dunno y tc n her always walked together sia... n me n ys always lost track of them... hahaha... =P

IN THE END... they reached sch 1st w/o us la... n poor us had 2 jog all d way 2 sch 2 catch up wif them... WA! tc... u good la... pang-sehed us... but nvm la... being understanding... n d fact tt we r brothers... we forgive u in d end... hahaha...=P

Wednesday

Reached sch at 6.50am... had abit of guys talk in d canteen...

Lessons were boring... n i fell asleep during GP tutorial! Well... failed my gp compre... n maybe tts my retribution 4 sleeping ba... =X

After sch... rushed 2 SS meeting at 3pm... being part of d exco... i feel a sense of responsibility towards tis CCA... so i decided 2 help SS-ians out in d J1 orientation...

IN THE END... i tio-ed scolded n suan-ed by my SS teacher-in-charge... WA!!! I was damn pissed la... i've alrd told d president tt i joined dance on d very day tt i've decided 2 join dance... n i tot she got tell d teachers la...

Now... d teachers tink i am very irresponsible... tink i had d intention 2 hide it from them... tink i wanna quit tis CCA... =.=... I was really very very disappointed when he said tt... Worst still... he said i shld hav 分寸... said i shldn't join dance when d training dates clash wif d SS meeting...

HU~~~ actually there r no clashes one lor... but cos of d longer training time it clashes wif d meeting... Haizzz... nvm... i shall prove him wrong... i shall let him noe tt even though i only attend d meeting 4 a short while... i'll still do sth 2 contribute 2 tis CCA de... i'll play my part as promised de!!!

So ya... i'll really hav 2 work out on my time management well le... cos i tink it's seriously not easy 2 cope wif both ccas n my studies well at d same time... I can do it de!!! Jia you alvin!!!

Dance training after sch...

Danny has made some changes 2 d part where d 2 guys r supposed 2 lift d gal... so ya... now me, aloy n gerald feel tt d syf dance was more hiong le... =X

Anw... it was really tiring lifting d gals so many times... n cos of tt... sth bad happened... which i dun wanna elaborate here... lest those victims dun feel well...

I only can say tt it is understandable or unavoidable tt there may be some 'accidents' happening when dancing... but i feel tt too much 'accidents' is no longer accidentally... it's deliberately...

So ya... i hope those who understand wat i mean can be more careful in d future trainings... muz voice out if u really feel uncomfortable... cos i really tink tt tis kind of thing cannot take it lightly... even i oso feel very uncomfortable seeing 'accidents' happening on my friends...

So ya... i really feel d need 2 do sth d prevent 'accidents' from happening again... Feel free 2 approach d A.S.S. members 4 help n support! hahaha...

*A.S.S. is proudly sponsored by RAIN Production... founded by... d RAIN Production of course la... hahaha... =P

Anw... my energy is really waning 4 d past few weeks... i tink i really need ample of rest now le... *Yawns*... I muz start making plans le... i muz do well both in my studies n ccas!!! So ya... i shall kick start wif reading my lect notes now... Cya ba~!!! =)

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<Monday, January 15, 2007

Sometimes...

Hoping for

Is to be optimistic

Holding on

Is never a solution

Giving up

Is the easiest way out

Sometimes

It's best to let go

I'm kinda preoccupied recently wif tonnes of schoolworks as well as CCAs... So ya... I'll blog less often in d future le... Gonna spend more time studying instead of bloggin now le... hahaha... =)

想通了。。。

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11:52 PM

<Friday, January 12, 2007

Wednesday

CCA Bazaar
Lessons as usual... but it ended at 2pm cos of cca bazaar...

After mr. kwek's talk... i went 2 settle some SS admin stuffs before gathering wif d dancers...

All d guys wore black tee shirt n jeans...

Upon reaching there... i realised tt i forgot 2 bring bling-bling! =X

After tt... d dancers went 2 mpr 2 rehearse d 1 last time... d gals busying putting on their make-ups while d guys practising our hiphop dance...

Me n tc purposely skipped lunch... cos we tot wanteng got buy lunch 4 d dancers... so wanna keep our stomach empty...n we were very hungry at d mpr... But noe wat??? We realised tt we only got breads 4 lunch! =X

Time flies... n it was 4pm! It's time 4 us 2 perform at LT4 le!!! =X

Our performance was after choir...

So after aloy n gerald gave an introduction 2 our performance... d music started n we guys were ready 2 walk out 2 d stage n perform!!!

But noe wat??? D music was so soft la... i couldn't hear d pai zi clearly la... n all d guys ended up slowing a few pai zi when we dance...

Cos of d superrr soft music... i tink we guys dint perform well... i would put it across bluntly tt we dance quite badly...

After d guys dance was d gals dance... n i tink d gals dance pretty well... cos the coorditions were quite qi...

After performance... we all went back 2 mpr n rested... preparing 4 d next performance at 5.15pm...

Tis time round... i was very confident... dunno y... i juz had d 'feel' 2 dance! =)

So ya... *ding ding ding*... n it was 2nd round...

D music was louder tis time round... so we guys danced pretty well... as in our timings were quite accurate...

So... i'm very satisfied wif our overall performances!!!

WELL DONE DANSEZ-LE!!!
*clap clap clap*

Dance training immediately after cca bazaar...

Haizzz... sian... so 扫兴... tot we can celebrate more de... somemore i was very not used 2 switching immediately from 'hiphop mode' 2 contemporary mode' la...

So ya... i screwed up during barworks n some parts of d choreography...

Anw... after dance training... it was abt 9pm le!!! =X

I informed my mum beforehand tt i'll be late home... tts y i can go out after tt 4 late dinner... or shld i say... supper!

Went together wif d guys, huichun n kaiying 2 prata house at thomson road...

I ate 4 pratas!!! Cos i was really famished man... hahaha...

So ya... d guys took d bus 132 after tt... while d gals took another bus home...

Thursday

Yawn...
I reached home around 11pm ytd... n was really exhausted from d whole day activities ytd... n noe wat??? I woke up at 7am!!! Siao liao la... i quickly chiong 2 sch... n managed 2 reach there juz on time... Wa... heng ar!!! =)

Here's d timetable 4 d day...
1st- physics lecture
2nd- physics practical
3rd- chem lecture
4th- chem practical
5th- econs tutorial
Lesson ended at 5pm...

Wa!!! Pls spare me d agony man!!! It was such a boring day la... somemore i was feeling so damn tired la... tts y i tink it was d 1st time tt i was KO during both lectures!!! =X

Anw... juz before chem practical... i met up wif tc, huichun n yimin shortly 2 c their progress of d noticeboard decoration... =P

After sch... i stayed back awhile 2 c they all decorating d noticeboard again...

Me n ys went off shortly after tt n went 2 train pull-ups... but heaven cried 4 us... n we can't continue practising pull-ups...

So ya... we parted ways n went home after tt...

Actually i wanted 2 complete my physics n maths tutorials upon reaching home de... but den i was too tired... so took a nap... n woke up at 10pm! =X... Oh no man... i quickly attempted 7 qns of physics tutorial n called it a day...

Friday

Pre-occupied...
Morning pe juz after maths lecture... n i trained my pull-ups...

Haizzz... sian... dunno when can i reach my target of doin 8 times of pull-ups... cos now i feel tt d target seems so distant... I only can do abt 1 or 2 pull-ups only la!!! Sux man... =(

Took gp compo during d last lesson...

4 d 1st time... i managed 2 finish it so fast la... i've got 20min left when i finished it la!!! hahaha... i tink i got some inspiration when writing ba... Yup!!!

PS: Hope i can pass my GP common test!!!

After lunch-ing wif d decents... we went 2 play bball in d rain!!! Oh... did i juz mention RAIN??? hahaha... =P

Anw... 2 cut d long story short... we played wif some J1 n J2 bball schoolteam players...

D result is confirm we lost la... but den we dint get thrashed!!! I still managed 2 score quite n few times... hahaha... cos i went 80% out... i was abit serious tis time round... or shld i say... i played seriously when playing wif outsiders...

Dance training after tt...

Again... we guys were late 4 training... but we were like only 10min late n danny started d barwork alrd la!!! Wth man... i tot he'll wait a little while 4 us de... hahaha... =P... In any case... still very paiseh tt we were late again...=X... Nevertheless... we joined d gals midway thru d barwork...

Well... danny modified our guys hiphop dance today... WA!!! Tell u all ar... it's abit gay-ish ar! (hope danny dun c tis...=X)... I seriously dun really like d way he changed our steps la... =(

Anw... my specs was abit spoilt... all thanks 2 tc... n i had 2 go on n dance w/o wearing specs la!!! Wa... in d end ar... my head was very giddy la... cos i strained my eyes too much le... tts y during some parts of d dance i looked unwell... =X

In d end... i really cannot take it le... it was juz too unbearable... cos i tink it was too xin ku seeing everything blur blur de... FYI... my eyesight is 600 degrees la!!! =X

So ya... i dun care so much... heck care liao... juz wear my specs... in d end i really felt less giddy...

Halfway thru d training... siew mai got asthma while aloy got injured... Hey... u all muz take care k... dun push urself too hard... juz try ur best can le... Yup!!! =)

After training... me, aloy, gerald, lao da, huichun n wanteng went 4 supper i supposed... at d coffeeshop ourside sch...

We had a good chat... especially d guys... tryin 2 include some hints in their words... which i tink was quite fun... but abit lame... =P... I tink tts wat we call... "白痴造句法" ba!!! hahaha...

So ya... at abt 10.30pm... we went off le... me n huichun took d same bus home... while tc, aloy, gerald n wanteng took another bus together home...

Had a good chat wif huichun on d bus... n realised sth!!! =X

领悟。

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11:57 PM

<Monday, January 08, 2007

Reflection
There has been many unhappy things revolving around me recently...

1st... major family dispute...

2nd... relationship problem...

3rd... had my 1st ever enemy...

1st... my family dispute has finally been settled at long last le... Hu~~~ After being troubled greatly cos of tis issue... i really broke down... but i bounced back fast... n managed 2 play a part in solving d dispute... Yea!!! =)

2nd... relationship problem... haizzz... nth much 2 tok abt... only can blame myself 4 being too reckless... i tink i wasn't in d right mind ba... cos usually i'm quite calm n patient de... but tis time round it was my recklessness which caused my failure... Well... i've gotten over it after reflecting 4 some days le... so ya... back 2 my usual self le! Yup!!!

3rd... new enemy... well... i dun need 2 elaborate here le... my previous posts explain everything... Anw... after tinking it through... i realised tt 4 d past few days maybe i let anger overwhelmed me ba... tts y i was rather irrational...

After reading thru my previous post again... i tink tt i was abit too harsh n exaggerated wif my tone... my apologies everyone... cos i tink i was really in d fit of pique ytd n so i was very biased against tt person...

So ya... actually i dint really hav d thoughts of seh-ing tt person... it was only juz tt i cannot stand d way tt person behaves in front of different ppl... Well... maybe tts d person's character ba...

I'm calm now le... juz like wat i'm always do... n i tink maybe tt person offended me unknowingly ba... like wat i've said... tts how d person usually behave n tts d person's character... so ya... if tts really d case... den i'll choose 2 forgive n forget ba... but still... i dun like tis character... so in any case i'll still dun like tt person... but not hating tt person anymore...

So yup!!! All d problems r no longer consider problems le!!! After having all these bad happenings recently... i realised tt there is always a solution 2 every problem... No difficulties r insurmountable de...

It's juz d way how u look at d problem... n d approach u take... We muz look at d bright side n keep a cool mind when encountering a problem... We muz face d problem bravely... n not eschewing away from it...

So ya... i tink all d problems tt i've faced recently has really enlightened me... i feel tt i've advanced 2 d next stage of life le... i'm seriously feeling more mature now le...

I've finally passed d mo lian heaven gave me le!!! Yea~!!! =)

So yup! I'm more focused now... i've finally had a sense of direction of d path tt i'm supposed 2 take le... n i hav clear aims now le...

Aims for 2007
(1) Do well 4 'A' level
(2) Achieving Gold wif honour 4 Dance SYF
(3) Doin 8 pull-ups at d end of d year
(4) Obtaining at least silver 4 NAPFA
(5) Maintaining good relationships wif all my friends
(6) Strengthening family bonds
(7) Live my life 2 d fullest!

So ya... i've finally tink it thru le... these are my goals 4 tis year... n i hav confidence tt i can achieve them!!!

Last year... i was distracted n not focused on my studies... i tink got distracted by gals ba... hahaha... =P... i oso spent too much time playin bball after sch wif my friends... n ended up playin too much... =X

So now... i've mind up my mind le... i've decided 2 focus on my studies fully tis year... i've learnt a lesson from last year... n i'm not goin 2 be affected or distracted by any gals anymore le... i will no longer harbour thoughts of goin into relationship wif anyone le...

So yup! I tink i'm gonna consider finding a stead in university ba... hahaha... well... i'm still young... so got da ba de shi jian!!! =P

From tml onwards... u shall c a different me... or shld i say... d real me... d me tt i'm supposed 2 be!!! So ya... a cheerful... optimisitic... attentive... focused... n decent ME tml~!!! =)

找回自我！！！

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11:28 PM

<Sunday, January 07, 2007

Angry
I was freaking pissed off ytd... well... i guess d guys will understand y... actually ytd i wanted 2 blog more de... but i was really exhausted... so drifted 2 my comfy bed n sleep...

So ya... today shall be d continuation of my previous blog...

Anw... i juz read tc n aloysius's blogs n realised tt they were as equally angry as me... Hu~~~ actually i'm supposed 2 be d angriest one sia... cos d person offended me directly... n i'm really really damn put off by d person's action... dun wanna reveal d person's name here...

In any case... d guys will truely understand how i felt exactly... n i tink they really 替我不值... so ya... thanks guys... especially tc, aloysius n gerald 4 understand n supporting me... n tryin 2 calm me down... if not i seriously tink i may really seh tt person...

Juz like aloysius... i dun really hate a person... FYI... i dint even had a enemy since d day i was born... i'm those very easy-going n forgiving person... once a person apologise... i'll forgive n forget... n tts it... we r friends again...

But tis time round... i really cannot take it... 人的忍耐是有限度的... No matter how good my temper is... i couldn't hold back my emotions under tt kind of circumstances...

Can u take it if a person backstab u? Can u take it if u entrust ur secret 2 d person n he/she purposely spills it out? Can u take it if d person did sth u hate in front of u... be it purposely or unknowingly... n acted 若无其事 in front of everyone?

If u can take it... den good... ur temper is much better den mine... But sorry... i really cannot take it... cos i really hate hypocrites... they r juz too fake pls... i agree wif wat aloysius had said... they shld be norminated 4 d Oscar Award... i'm sure they will win de... cos they can behave so differently in front of different ppl w/o gettin paid 4...

I mean... y spill d secret ppl entrust 2 u? Like wat tc said... juz 2 讨好 others??? Worst still... y purposely did sth which u noe i hate 2 see in front of me??? Y muz u be so despicable???

HU~~~ I tink i'm seriously angry tis time round... cos i dun use words like 'despicable' on a person... but after considering all d person's actions... i really can't tink of any other better words tt can fit tt person nicely!!!

HEY U... CAN STOP WEARING UR MASK IN FRONT OF ANYONE!!!

At times i really wanna punch u... so tt my punches can tear down ur facade... n let everyone c ur true ugly self behind it...

HU~~~ I muz remain 冷静... cannot let anger overwhelm me... If i really 一气之下 punch tt person... den it'll only appear 2 others tt i'm at fault... cos they dunno 事情的来龙去脉... so ya... relax alvin relax...

I will endure de... i muz keep my cool at all times... cannot let d person 乘虚而入... So ya... tc, aloysius n gerald... i noe tt i 间接 make u all hate tt person... cos i tink u all 替我感到 abit 不值... but i hope it really dun affect u all much... cos it's mainly between d two of us...

In any case... i hope u all can dun ask or probe abt tis incident... cos i defintely will not reveal who's tt person de... i really dun wanna affect everyone... i'll settle tis myself de...

Outing @ Suntec City
Well... lets put aside tis unhappy issue... today i went out wif my mum n sis 2 suntec city... As usual... we went 4 lunch n shopping after tt...

We went 2 Carrefour... n i realised d cd-r only cost $14!!! WA!!! I tink ytd those ppl who went 2 buy cd-r at orchard got ripped sia! Somemore it's exactly d same la... Well... tink tt we'll need 2 claim more from dance funds le... =X

After tt... went 2 walk walk... n suddenly we saw a large crowd... Being kpo... i went 2 check... in d end i still dunno wats d occasion... i tink it's some church thingy ba... not too sure... But noe wat??? I saw Jamie Yeo!!! She was juz in front of me la... but cos i dun really like her... so i juz see awhile n walked off 2 join my mum n sis...

Hmm... if it's Misa ar... den i'll confirm get her autograph n take some photos wif her de!!! hahaha...

Anw... we went home after tt... crapped alot on our way home...

恨之入骨。。。

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<Saturday, January 06, 2007

Friday

Long Day...
School as per normal during d day...

Nth much in particular happened... except tt i fell asleep during d GP common test!!! In d end i dint manage 2 finish it on time... =X... siao liao... i tink i will fail badly 4 sure de...

After school, played bball wif tc, ys, zhiyi, kuei hsien n a few other outsiders despite injuries... hahaha... cos i felt d itch 2 touch a ball after dint play ball games 4 such a long time ma... tts y i die die oso went 2 play bball...=P... Anw... i dint really jump or run much throughout d game lest d condition of my injuries worsen...

So ya... dance training after tt at 5.30pm...

As i still haven't go 2 see a sinseh yet... i told danny tt i wanna rest one day cos i dun wanna my injuries 2 get more jialut... N noe wat??? Gwen, aloysius n gerald oso injured la... n there were 4 casualties in total... =X...

So... we rested while d rest of d dancers were doin barwork... I felt abit weird though... cos i'm really not used 2 juz watchin them stretching n doin nth... i was feeling quite bad at tt time... i felt tt i dint do enough...

So after we had dinner... we went 2 mpr 2 train...

When choreography was abt 2 start... i told danny tt i can dance... cos i really dun wanna affect d choreography juz bcos of me... i'll feel damn bad...

So ya... i joined them during d choreography le... yea... hahaha... Anw... danny made some changes 2 d 1st part of d choreography... where me, tc, michelle n shaun had a group work... n towards d end of d training... i felt tt we have improved on our movements n hav learnt some new steps... so it was worthwhile 4 me 2 endure d pain d dance!!! =)

Anw... after all d rehearsing of cca bazaar dance n settling of admin stuffs... it was very late le... N noe wat??? I forgot 2 inform my mum tt i'll be late 4 dinner! Die liao... she cooked my dinner alrd sia... so i quickly rushed home...

I met wanteng n shuhui on my way home... chatted abit... n den chiong 2 take my bus... When i reached home... it was 9.59pm!!! Hu~~~ Heng ar... i've made it juz in time sia... cos i told my mum i'll reach home lastest by 10pm sharp de... so if i'm later den tt ar... i'm screwed man... hahaha... =P...

Watched tv awhile n slept after tt...

Saturday

全身酸痛
Woke up at 7.45am... n realised tt my whole body was aching like mad la... WA... it was really very painful sia... especially my stomach n chest muscles... Haizzz... i tink it was bcos of PE ytd ba... muz be i did too much sit-ups n push-ups w/o doin warm-ups... So ya... i applied Yoko Yoko again le... n rested awhile before goin off 2 meet tc, aloysius, gerald, lao da, kaiying, huichun n shuhui 4 breakfast... In d end... i reached there late... paiseh ar ppl... =X

After eating, me, tc, aloysius n gerald saw a volleyball upon reaching school... den our hands felt itchy all of a sudden again... we exchanged glances... n den... heck care la... we juz played!!! =P... hahaha

We played until we 'lost track of time'... it was really fun man... me n aloysius great combi sia... we made quite alot of good passes n i tink we played better den tc n gerald... =P... hahaha... i tink they no 默契... so ya... muz play again next time k!!! Challenge again!!!

Anw.. we went off 2 mpr 4 dance after tt...

Today... no barwork... training started wif floorwork...

After tt was choreography till d end of training... once again... some changes were made 2 d group work between me, tc, michelle n shaun...

Tell u all ar... actually i sprained my left wrist while playin volleyball la... but i put on a strong front again... acted like only my hip bone hurts... So... during d practice i had 2 keep holding michelle over n over n over again using my left hand... n i was like WOOHOO!!! Cos it really hurts alot... =X

Anw... i choose not 2 tell her cos i dun wanna her 2 lose confidence... n i was pretty sure tt i won't let her fall de... n oso i cannot my injury which was caused by playin 2 affect d progress of d choreography... So ya... in d end everything went very smoothly... n i seriously tink tt we did really really well man... Good job ppl... n michelle u muz jiayou oso k!!!

After training... we painted d banner... but den ran out of paint... so dint manage 2 complete painting d banner...

Feeling kinda bored after tt... so me, tc, aloysius, gerald, lao da n chee kian played soccer using floorball again!!! =P... It was very fun lor... but it was rather rough... especially tc... who anyhow tackle ppl de... n he ended up clashing his foot wif aloysius's foot la!!! Ohhh... tt gotta hurt man... =X

Anw... after tt... me, tc, aloysius, gerald, lao da, chee kian, kaiying n huichun went off 2 orchard 2 buy d paint as well as d cd-r which is meant 4 d cca bazaar gifts...

We went 2 eat at Burger King at Far East Plaza... Me, tc, aloysius n gerald sat together in a table n we chatted alot... n from which we realised we share a common enemy!!! Hmm... actually shld be me n aloysius who really wanna punch tt person ba... hahaha... We kept sayin we wanna seh tt person... n tinking of tt person really makes our blood boil sia... Arrr...

So... we went 2 Taka after eating 2 buy d paint... but while walking towards Taka tt time... we suddenly lost track of chee kian, kaiying n huichun la... they walked superrr fast sia... Anw... in d end we still managed 2 find them in 1 art shop which i can't rmb d name...

Den... we lost sight of them again... WA... i tink they were drifting instead of walking sia... hahaha... So ya... we all were rather beh cheh... n we decided not 2 waste time... we wanna 分工合作... so we decided 2 go 2 Popular 2 buy cd-r...

In d end... they finally managed 2 catch up wif us... n we bought d cd-r in d end... Me n aloysius had 2 go home n eat so we went off shortly after tt... leaving d rest 2 do d painting... paiseh 4 pang seh-ing u all ar...

Anw... me n aloysius tok abt d person we wanna seh throughout our whole journey on mrt train as well as on bus... n we realised tt we were really pissed wheneva we tink of tt person... WA... now d tot of tt person again makes me wanna seh d person again sia...

Hu~~~ Anw... met up wif my family 4 dinner after tt n we went home n played daidi... I won more den $10 in d end man... Woo~~~... hahaha... i've got extra pocket money le... Hell yea man... =)

有种想揍人的感觉。。。

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11:24 PM

<Thursday, January 04, 2007

Wednesday

School Reopen
Dragged my feet 2 sch early in d morning...

I was feeling very tired throughout d whole day n was still in d holiday mood as usual...

Dance training after sch... n i had 2 skip SS meeting...

Was late 4 training cos we guys were eating... paiseh ar... =X

Anw... d stage of LT4 is really small sia... we all had no place 2 do barwork... n ended up some doin 'wallwork' n some doin barwork along d stage...

Danny praised me... cos i can stretch very well... n said i'm his 偶像!!! hahaha... i was soooooo paiseh at tt moment la... =X

Here is d funny part... n all of d guys laughed until we were almost out of breath!!! =P... Lao da helped shaun stretch... n it was really funny sia... lao da n shaun's facial expressions really made us laugh like siao la... hope lao da can help shaun stretch more in d future trainings! =P

Well... as usual... there were casualties... namely... gwen (dislocated toe), teikling (too tired... slept 4 barely a hr last night) , aloysius (back injuries), me (hip bone injury) n sharon (out of breath)...

Haizzz... nth much 2 say... only hope tt dansez-le can take good care of themselves!!!

Dansez-le... take care k... cca bazaar is juz next week n SYF is juz a few more months only! So dun injure urselves k!!! =)

Thursday...

Boring
Woke up late n reached sch juz in time... Hu~~~

Today's lessons was damn boring sia... 1st was physics lecture... den physics practical... den followed by chem lecture... n lastly chem practical...

Wa!!! Give me a break from sciences man...

After tt... d decent trio decided 2 go watch Death Note 2!!! hahaha... at long last man... we r finally having an outing!

Anw... my mum n sis went along oso as they wanna catch Death Note too!

Death Note 2 @ VivoCity
We went Vivocity GV... decent trio reached there on time... while mum n sis were late as tis outing was decided rather last min... so forgivable... =P

Luckily we were still in time 2 catch d movie...

Overall... d whole movie was sooooo nice sia... it was full of suspense... n kept me tinking throughout d whole show!

I shalln't elaborate much on d details of d movie so as not 2 spoil d mood of those who haven't watch... Well... i can only say tt i really admire d wits of L... he was superrr cool la... L... u rocks man!!! =)

So ya... go catch Death Note 2 now if u haven't watch!!! It's really a muz watch movie!!! Trust me!!!

Anw... we joined lao da... aloysius... gerald... kaiying n huichun at Kopitiam after d movie...

However... we sat separately from d group cos we tot there wasn't any seats near their table...

The 5 of us chatted alot... or strictly speaking... tc n my mum crapped alot!!! =X

After eating... aloysius... kaiying n huichun joined us after tt... n we took d mrt together...

On d train... many funny things happened which i dun wanna elaborate here... hehehe... =P

Anw... we alighted at dhoby ghout n kaiying n huichun went off 1st...

So... we took another train n dropped at amk...

We walked 2 d bus stop n as usual... we crapped alot along d way...

My bus came n me, my mum n sis went off 1st... it was 9.15pm when we reached home... =X

It was really fun hanging out wif d decents n d dance ppl... hope there'll be more of such times in d future!!! Yup!!! =)

精疲力尽。

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10:20 PM

<Monday, January 01, 2007

一波未平，一波又起

人人常常说：“新的一年，新的开始。新的一年，有新的希望。”

我一向来都很乐观，相信明天将会是更好的一天。就算天塌下来，我也把它当被子盖。不过，在这新的一年里，乐观的我，突然失去了我灿烂的微笑。你说奇怪不奇怪？？？

哼。。。我想大概是上天想捉弄我吧。从小到大，我有一个非常良好的家庭。我一家四口非常地团结，令许多人羡慕。无论是在家庭，学业，朋友，或者是其他方面，我都没有遇到任何解决不了的问题。嗨。。。也许我应该说，我未曾遇到过真正的问题吧。

我想可能我在人生道路上没遇到真正挫折吧，所以老天爷想在这时候磨练磨练我，要我成长。。。

不过，我觉得老天爷也太过残忍了。为何要在新年的第一天就教训我呢？？？

我又没做过什么伤天害理的事，你为何要狠狠的教训我呢？？？

这些年来，我都安分守己，做好我自己的本分。我常常听父母亲的话，认为用功读书就是孝顺父母亲最好的方法。结果，我真的在中四"O"水准考到全校第四名。

我到底做错了什么呢？请告诉我吧。。。

昨天还好好的，一家人去BBQ，一起到数，迎接新的一年。我真的以为事情就从此解决了。。。

我一直跟自己讲：“今天是新的一年了，以前有什么不愉快就把它抛在后头吧，不要再想了。我要坚强，要爬起来，要往前看。我要把以前所有的挫折当作一种磨练。加油！！！”

不过，我今天醒来就感冒了，一整天感觉不舒服。我跟我自己说：“这只是小事，我明天一定会好起来的。”

到了傍晚，我的家人不知为何有了争执。事情闹得非常大，一发不可收拾。事情的来龙去脉，我也不想多说了。。。

我真的很累了，我已经不能再撑下去了。这几天我一直逞强，不想在朋友面前绷着脸，引响他们的心情。所以我一直装作若无其事。

现在，我真的崩溃了。。。

虽然如此，我也不会放弃的。我一定要振作起来，勇于面对，解决眼前的问题。因为我是男人，我将来要赚钱养我家人，所以我更应该要坚强！

呼~~~目前我觉得这里是我发泄情绪最好的管道。如果引响了你们的心情，真得很抱歉。。。

呼！！！现在舒服得多了！我一定会振作起来的，所以你们不用操心哦。
无论如何，还是要祝贺你们。。。

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

在新的一年里，希望你们能天天开心，心想事成！！！

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10:35 PM