there you go
you've decided to take a step into my shed of memories
a place where i voice out my feelings
do leave your footprints behind
Have A Nice Day!
Decent Guy
Alvin Wong Wei Mun
6th March 1989
Pisces
Nanyang JC <0619> St.Gabriel's Secondary <4E2> Ai Tong Primary <6L>
<Sunday, April 29, 2007
Friday. Mum visited doctor late at night... it's been 3 weeks le... hope she can recover soon...
Saturday. NYJC 30th Anniversary!!! Caught flu the moment i woke up... guess i slept too late the previous night ba... troubled by too many things... Anw i was super late 4 dance... a very big SORRY to dansez-le...
Anw we faced many constraints on stage... n had to remove teik n tyson-michelle duet part... which was kind of a pity... Nevertheless... i think we did perform well... i guess we didn't really let our syf result affect our performance... which i felt is really admirable... thumbs up for dansez-le spirit! =)
After tt... me aloy n gerald played soccer in mpr again as usual... i guess tts the only thing we guys can do during dance to keep our minds off things...
Went down to walk around the school compound... trying 2 soak into the lively atmosphere... Well... i guess there were 3 emo faces in the sea of smiley faces... Haizzz...
After a long wait... we guys finally went to the canteen to get free food... hmm... the food wasn't bad... but the fish tasted stale... =X... "Somethings" happened... n we guys were more emo... Walked towards the bus stop w/o talking to each other... which was very very ususual... Well... we were not quarrelling... we all were in deep thoughts...
Went to my house after tt... i guess my house has become a good place for people to sort out their thinking ba... hahaha... Anw... watched soccer n had guys talk at the same time... I guess we somewhat felt better after the talk... =)
You guys are right... although the bonds outside are weak... the bond within is strong... In times of difficulties/bad karma... buddies are the most important...
Me... After suffering from a blow... I've learnt my lesson... I've grown much stronger now... because of one thing... I must really thank that person for waking me up... Telling me that i cannot cope with both relationship and studies well at the same time... However... things often don't go the way i want... Here i am feeling very troubled... I'm in a big dilemma now... Many problems are still unsolved... yet they just keep surfacing... Guess heaven is playing tricks on me... or should i say... the guys... I'm stuck in this situation... Racking my brain everyday... but still i can't get out... I know i cannot drag anymore... must find a solution soon... But i've still yet to find one... Used to keep everything to myself... But there are simply just too many things happening.... Happening at a rate that i'll go crazy if i bottle everything inside of me... Family... buddies and close friends are my support now... They are the ones i'll confide and share my feelings with... Sorry to those who feel that i'm very dao towards u recently... Or those who feel that my emo-ness has affected u... I'm trying hard not to show it or affect u... but somehow i can't... Sickness... weariness... friendship problems... conspiracies... ... .... What's next??? Guess only my family and buddies understand... Thanks for all the family and guys talks all this while... =) Well... only feeling abit emo lately... I'll cheer up very soon de!!! Yup!!!=)
What should i do??? Please give me a sign...
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11:28 PM
<Friday, April 27, 2007
Complicated... What exactly are u all thinking??? Really wanna possess the ability to read people's mind so as to save the hassle of brooding too much over things...
Things are improving between us... Holding on and holding back at the same time ain't easy...
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11:40 PM
<Thursday, April 26, 2007
Unforgettable Journey... In the blink of an eye... i've joined dance for 4 months le... Time really flies isn't it? From someone who has never tried dancing before to someone who is fit to perform in SYF... i seriously think it's very remarkable le... Looking back... there's no regret in joining dance...
December I made a shocking decision 2 join dance because of a silly reason... I was feeling very shy... partly because i'm not used 2 seeing girls wearing leotards... partly because i'm one of the few guys in dance... Starting 2 know the guys better... n we actually formed a clique...
January Learnt hip hop dance during cca bazaar... had many great n unforgettable times together during trainings... Get 2 know the girls better... realised they are wonderful ppl... Ties wif the guys grew stronger each day... Really start 2 enjoy dancing gradually...
February Dinner after dance trainings wif gang has became a tradition... Managed 2 blend into the whole group... Soccer match after dance has been part of the training... Start 2 feel proud 2 be a part of dansez-le...
March Intensive trainings... All the sweat... hard work n everything everyone has put in... Juz to achieve a goal we share in common... Passion 4 dance growing day by day...
April Problems start 2 surface... Injuries... weariness... stress... internal dispute... All happened juz because of a cause- SYF... We've gotten Silver in the end...
Hmm... considering the amount of time n efforts we all have put into every training... it's rather disappointing... Inevitably... the girls cried... while the guys were utterly disappointed...
Some were blaming themselves 4 not performing up 2 expectations... while some were feeling guilty 4 making mistakes... But i feel tt as long as we've tried our best... there's no regret... Thinking back... we've gained more than what we've lost all this while...
The joy we had dancing together... the times we shared n laughed at each others hilarious actions... the team spirit we've built... n most importantly... the bond established between us... All these are something tt cannot be achieved n gained overnight... They are something precious which we've reaped along this arduous journey... A journey tt we've walked through together all this while...
Even after SYF... all these things will still remain... n of course... there's another performance on the 19th May tts awaiting us... Instead of thinking so much abt the outcome of SYF... why not cherish the remaining trainings n time tt we can spend together? Why not get over it n move on n give it our best shot during our last performance?
At the end of the day... we did not let ourselves down... there are no regrets as long as we know deep down in our hearts tt what we've been doing all this while is meaningful... something tt etched on our memories...
3 cheers for dansez-le!!! =) We rock!!!
DANSEZ-LE... the legacy shall continue...
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11:05 PM
<Sunday, April 22, 2007
旁观者清,当局者迷 Shared everything wif my mum n sis today... together we analysed... n suddenly... everything falls into place... the jigsaw puzzle is finally solved...
After discovering the truth... my 1st reaction was "HAIZZZZZZ"... Why...? Why...? Why...? So many "Why's" are going through my mind now...
Well... i shall not disclose anything on my blog 1st... lest more misunderstandings n misinterpretations will arise... If u wanna know... ask me personally... In this way things can't possibly go wrong...
Anw... i've made some reflection... n feel tt maybe i shouldn't blog things in a subtle way anymore... cos it'll cause many misunderstandings... like wat i'm experiencing now...
Why complicate things when things are not complicated in the first place? Simply don't understand why people wanna sow discord between us... Why!!!???
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12:14 AM
<Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Your efforts have paid off... should we congratulate u???
What can i say? I'm walking off...
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11:47 PM
<Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Boiling point. In pure water... there are H and OH ions as well as water molecules... When it is being heated up in a vacuum flask... a convectional current is set up... It will continue until all the water molecules are heated up... an equilibrium is established...
However... the air above the water in the vacuum flask is also being heated up at the same time... hence it'll keep expanding and expanding and expanding until it finally reaches the point where the pressure within is too immense... and the vacuum flask explodes...
Solutions??? Do not close the cover of the flask... leave it opened... At the most some water is spilled out of the flask when boiled... some are still left within... If exploded... nothing is left behind...
My principle- Do not do to others what u do not want them to do to u... Others may have their own principles and are different from mine... But violating this principle is a contradiction... Imagine... You've always been put off by certain characters... But when you look into the mirror... you saw them written across ur forehead... Contradict isn't it???
When facing problems or challenges... Embrace not Evade... Reflect not Rant... And tts when u know u've move on to the next stage in life...
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11:18 PM
<Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Whirling Thoughts... My mind was preoccupied wif many random thoughts recently... First it was studies... Later it was followed by friendship... There is a whole lot of things tts going through my mind... so many tt it's near impossible 2 sieve out each thought individually and identify each of them clearly...
So ya... i was in deep deep thoughts for the past few days... trying my best 2 identify every single thought tts weighing on my mind... hoping tt it'll stop me from thinking so much... Haizzz... i'm still somewhat feeling troubled at this very moment... very troubled...
I'm completely lost... what i'm doing now is simply contradictory... Sometimes i wonder if i have made the correct choice and decision... I hope i've made the right decision... certainly hope so...
Anw... this is not an emo entry... it's juz all the random thoughts tt i'm having right now... Juz feel tt i shouldn't be thinking so much again... lest i really become emo... Hmm... let nature takes its course ba...
Well... still muz wish kaiying and chenghongHAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! =) Hope there'll be more rangers outings in the future ya! =)
一人分饰两个角色???
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11:07 PM
<Sunday, April 08, 2007
“己所不欲,勿施于人” Meaning: Do not do on others what you do not want them to do on you.
Think... Juz think...
If u hate the feeling of being backstabbed... do u enjoy backstabbing ppl? If u want ppl to share secrets wif u... would u share ur secrets wif others as well? If u enjoy playing jokes on ppl... would u like it when ppl play jokes on u? If u detest attention-seeker... would u choose to be one? If u loathe hypocrite... do u like play-acting?
Many a times... we do things without thinking much and are fallible in our judgements... It is often we realised tt actually what we've done so far can be contradictory after some reflections...
Sometimes... our actions can be very different from our thinkings... we may subconciously do to others the things we do not want them to do to us...
Sometimes... we rant when we are being treated badly by ppl... but think again... do we treat them well in the 1st place??? For every cause... there's an effect...
Somebody told me this... ' Each and everyone of us has an invisible mirror in front of us... what u do to the person will be what u get from the person... If u treat the person well... the person will treat u equally well...'
It is of paramount importance to acknowledge the fact tt we are capable of making mistakes n we are not always right... however... it is equally vital tt we must know our mistakes n rectify them in time... The 'willing to change' attitude is welcome by all... n a quality revere by all...
Think. Think. Think. We may be oblivious of what went wrong for us... But the only solution is to confront the problem bravely and find the root of the problem... Only then can the problem be totally resolved...
Where should i go from here? Keep holding back? Or just let nature takes its course? Deep in thoughts...
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12:41 AM
<Thursday, April 05, 2007
I've been either too preoccupied or too tired 2 blog recently... Hmm... i shall try 2 recall the important events tt happened the past few days ba...
Monday. Had breakfast wif the usual clique in the morning... it becomes part of monday's routine i guess... hahaha... Had 4 consecutive lectures later... was kinda shagged after tt... Worse still... we had pe at the end of the day... Supposedly had NAPFA test de... but cos i failed screening test... so no need 2 take... Haizzz... tink i'll need 2 train my 2.4km running n pull-ups soon le...
Tuesday. Slackest day in the whole week... school ends at 1.30pm... somemore ms agnes was absent... so i had a free period during gp!!! hahaha... Anw... the decent trio went 2 sumo house at amk central after school! Wa... honestly speaking... this is my 1st time ever eating japanese food since primary school la... cos last time i got traumatised by a japanese dish! =X
Well... can't remember the name of the meal i ate... only know tt it's fried rice wif breaded chicken... Hmm... tasted abit funny... got the 'japanese favour'... maybe is i xin li zuo yong ba... hahaha... Tried wasabi for the 1st time... Wa... i must say tt i will ONLY eat it when i got blocked nose! Lolz... =P
Refilled the green tea over n over again... had guys talk as usual... Went 2 amk hub 2 slack after tt... Many interesting things happened! Hope there's be more of decent trio outings!!! hahaha... =)
Wednesday. Lessons n lectures as per normal... Failed my gp badly... I've got a U grade... which was so unexpected...=(... Anw... attended SS meeting after school... n it turned out 2 be quite interesting! We made colourful leaves as souvenirs for Sciesta!!! Shalln't elaborate about how 2 make colourful leaves... hahaha...
Headed straight 2 dance after SS... Didn't have proper warm up... but still went ahead 2 have the 1st run... Must say tt i really gave my all... n i was really tired after the run... i think maybe it's due 2 inadequate warm up ba...
Had a long n tiring day... so went home straight after dance...
Thursday. Boring day... had physics n chemistry practicals... well... shalln't elaborate... Moving on to the more interesting part... i played bball after school all the way till 7.45pm la!!! hahaha... i tink i abit high today ba... Tc got suaned by hong qing during the games... it was so hilarious la... he juz simply got owned by hong qing!
Reflection. Post Block Test... Maths A Physics B Chemistry C Economics C General Paper U
Haizzz... these grades were much lower than what i aimed... must say i didn't perform up 2 expectation this time round... After reflection... i think i'm really slacking too much le... Hmm... i think mainly is because my studying time is greatly cut down due 2 dance n SS...
These 2 ccas really require lots of time n energy... n they somehow really affected my studies adversely... But of course... i only put in abt 20% in this block test! So considering the amount of effort i've put in... this result is somewhat reasonable ba... =X
Just as i feel tt i cannot cope wif both studies n ccas... the teachers-in-charged of both ccas really gave me lots of encouragements... So ya... i shall perservere till the end... i believe if i can manage my time even better... i can do well in both academics n ccas de!!! Yup!!! =)
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11:42 PM
<Monday, April 02, 2007
Happy April Fool!!! Spent my day at marina square n northpoint wif mum n sis... Bought a new shoes! It's cheap n nice... i find it kinda cool... My wound bled again... Sux sia... dunno why the blood dry le then bleed again... this bloody cycle juz keeps going on and on and on... Doubt it'll cease in the next few days... =.=
Took off my socks n realised the wound worsened... plaster was of no use... a small part of my sock was stained wif blood... Sian... nowadays walking is uneasy... Have 2 control my walking so as to prevent too much friction between my wound n my shoe... Wanted to wear slippers instead... but somehow it doesn't help much...
Went home n managed to complete my maths tutorial 14c at long last... i guess i am really very behind time ba... Looking back... i've been slacking since the last day of blog test... last week i pratically did nothing... only spent my week dancing... resting... sleeping... n nothing else... So ya... think i shall start turning on my 'engine' again next week ba...
Homeworks are piling up now... n i've yet 2 receive my gp papers... Hmm... i'm expecting more events 2 happen next week ba... Hope everything will turn out fine... n of course... hope my wound can recover asap!!!
Oh ya... i've yet to collect econs files n money for econs notes which are supposed 2 be due last week! =X... Ok... enough slacking... gtg do my econs homework now!!!