there you go
you've decided to take a step into my shed of memories
a place where i voice out my feelings
do leave your footprints behind
Have A Nice Day!
Decent Guy
Alvin Wong Wei Mun
6th March 1989
Pisces
Nanyang JC <0619> St.Gabriel's Secondary <4E2> Ai Tong Primary <6L>
<Saturday, May 26, 2007
Revelation I dunno if i did the right thing... but at least now i feel less burden... Thinking back of what i've done... there's no regret... =) There's no point in hiding... i've decided to be truthful... Well... it's very true tt we dunno how to define "it" all along... Maybe even until now... But at least... i took the 1st step... =) Hmm... i'm still somewhat unsure of myself... But i believe what we need now is time... Will "it" improve further??? I remain optimisitic... =)
i wonder...
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8:16 PM
<Friday, May 25, 2007
Reflection All it takes is just one minute to change ur mood completely... All of a sudden... i was very disappointed... But then again... what's done cannot be undone... What is not meant to be is not meant to be... What is not yours will not be yours...
For the past few days... i was sick... so i spent most of my day lying on my bed... slowly re-organising all my thoughts... finally... i know my stand... i know where i should go from here... i know the road i'm taking...
The higher the hope... the greater the disappointment... She is perfect...until i come to realise something... Sometimes... i was really thrown into a state of confusion... Am i thinking too much??? I doubt so... I believe in what i see... Once bitten... twice shy... I've suffered once... i really don't wanna go through the same agony again...
From this very moment onwards... i shall leave everything to fate...
It's very obvious... The hints were dropped... Please try to understand... Holding back again...
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7:26 PM
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Convalescence It has been weeks since i last blogged about my life... Well... to keep you all updated... i've caught a mild emo bug recently... and i fell sick since wednesday... but luckily i was given a 3 days mc and i think that really gave me ample time to rest and take a break from school work... or probably sort out my own thinking...=X
In any case... the good news is that i'm 90% recover le!!! It's time to gain back the 4kg which i've lost during the past few days! =P... hahaha... Anw... i practically did nothing during the past few days except sleeping and watching tv to while away time... During the past 2 days... really have to thank good gal for entertaining me... and of course ys for helping me to keep all my notes and keeping my updated of important stuffs... =)
I missed the crime & punishment lecture today... went out to have breakfast with my mum and sis before going to school to collect my notes from ys... Shortly after chatting with aloy and ys... the gossip club members "invited" me to join them in their sharing session... lolz...
That was when i realised actually i'm oblivious to so many things in my class! Omg... i think i've really been isolating myself from my class for quite some time le ba... well... nvm... it's not too late to catch up i guess... =P... hahaha... it was really fun crapping and gossiping with them la... Now i come to think of it... i sort of missed those times when the gossip club was established...
Happy moments are shortlived... soon after the president went home... one after another went off... leaving me, gwen and lisin to continue with our stories... lisin said me and gwen are living in our own world... lolz! Well... i guess we had exactly the same encounter ba... hahaha... Anw... after gwen went off... i chatted with lisin for awhile before heading home...
A sheer coincidence at J8! I started to understand more about my class... =)
Happy 17th Birthday Sis!!! =)
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4:22 PM
<Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Realisation Blog may be an avenue to vent ur frustrations... Blog may be an avenue to reveal ur feelings... Blog may be an avenue to put down all ur thoughts... But blog cannot be an avenue to resolve problems... It will only serve to deepen misunderstanding when expressed in a subtle manner...
Being truth to myself... no longer hiding my feelings... I ain't holding back... =)
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12:41 AM
<Monday, May 21, 2007
Fond memories... I still remember those times when i was contemplating whether to join dance or not... and to everyone's surprise... i chose to join... Ever since then... i've embarked on a new journey... and experienced many things that i could never ever imagine i've gone through...
When i 1st joined dance... it was weird being one of the only 5 guys in dance... Especially seeing so many girls wearing leotards and stockings... =X... lolz... Initially i was not used to doing barwork and floorwork... frankly speaking... i used to find it gayish! hahaha... but after going through so many trainings... i've begun to enjoy them somewhat... especially the times when we guys crapped and helped each other stretch! Well... that was those old good times we had together man...=)
Hmm... many things and accidents happened along the way... and it somewhat led to the formation of A.S.S.!!! hahaha...does it rings a bell??? Well... my flexibility improved after every trainings... and i got to learn a few sets of dance steps!!! Gradually... i evolved from someone who does not know anything about dance to someone who is somewhat capable to showcase his dance talent during SYF~!!! =)
Oh well... i've learnt how to dance hip hop dance too... thanks to the help from the seniors! I was really enjoying myself when we guys were training hip hop dance for our cca bazaar during the holidays... Those craps... jokes and stupid things we all did together! Well... we performed during both cca bazaars!!! I was really feeling ecstatic at that time la... cos it was my 1st exposure to dance and i was able to put up a school performance! =)
After a few months since i joined dance... i started to know the girls better le... and the bond between we guys grew stronger... Soon... me, tyson, aloysius and gerald formed a breakfast/dinner clique with kaiying and huichun... ys would join us occasionally... That was those times man... I can never forget those fun outings we had together as a clique...
In the blink of an eye... it was march... and everything changes... dance trainings were intensified... and we guys started to get more serious during trainings... even to the extent of sacrificing our "manliness" by wearing tights!!! =X... hahaha... but we somewhat were proud of wearing them towards the SYF competition! =)
Trainings were tough... all the tears and sweat we all gave just for the one and only major performance in april- SYF... Injury tolls increased while emotion run high... Nevertheless... our perseverance and strong determination kept us going... training after training... we trained as one... bond was eventually developed between each and everyone of us... The chemistry between the trio... duets and group works grew stronger after every training...
Soon after we were more or less prepared for our performance... we went for the school exchange performances with Juying and Bedok View Secondary School... That's when we gained more experience as well as learnt from our mistakes... I could never forget the performances we've put up in front of the schools...
Just before SYF... problems started to surface... misunderstandings led to the weakening of bond between the guys... Initially... the problem was very trivial... but due to mishandling of matters... it eventually snowballed into a major problem... Haizzz... anyway... we put up a performance during the school 30th anniversary before entering the SYF competition... although the result didn't reflect how much effort we've put in for the past few months... i think we still did well... there was no regret...
Hmm... so ya... finally reached the last part of our journey le... where we put up our last... and the one and only public performance- Dance on the move... I invited my friends and of course my mum and sis to support me... It was the most memorable night ever... and i will always remember it... 19th may... a night to remember...
For the 1st time ever... i had alot of emotions running through me just before we went up to the stage to perform... at that instance where everyone hold hand-in-hand and pray everything went smoothly... all the past memories flashed across my mind... i had many thoughts at that moment... So ya... i must say this was the performance that i can really put all my feelings into... I know what is pure sentiments at last...
Thanks you so much for all the good times we had together... without you people... my life in nyjc will not be so fulfilling... you people really painted my jc life flamboyantly... and yea... i'm referring to the dansez-le!!!
Special Thanks To... Aloysius, gerald, tyson... For all the guys talks and fun outings we spent together... It's really fun with the company of you guys man... =) Huichun, kaiying... For all the times we spent crapping and the good times we had during outings... not forgetting what you all have done to try and resolve the "problem"... =) Gwen, wanteng, michelle, peu, teikling, sharon, yimin, shuhui, carine, adeline, shaun and J1 girls... For all the good times we spent together during trainings... the dance would not be complete without you all... =)
Once a dansez-le... always a dansez-le... =)
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11:16 PM
<Saturday, May 05, 2007
Recovered! The past 2 days were long and torturing... Irregular sleeps... taking of medicines after every 3hrs and long toilet trips have weakened my body significantly... But guess wat??? I've recovered today le!!! Although i'm still feeling weak after forgoing food for 2 days... my fever and vomiting were all gone le!!! Yea!!! =)
Well... visited a nearby clinic yesterday... after some thorough check-ups... the doctor prescribed me 5 different kinds of medicines! One of which is charcoal pills la!!! =X... This is the 1st time i know charcoal can be consumed la... As claimed by the doctor... it can kill all the impurities in my body... lolz! (FYI... thankfully it's rather insipid!)
Anw... i felt much better after taking the medicines... maybe it's because the charcoal pills are effective ba... hahaha... So ya... i think i'll be 100% fit on monday le!
Hmm... i tink i'm rather lag nowadays... think i'll start mugging next week ba... anw... take care ppl... don't follow my footstep and fall sick ar... hahaha... =P
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7:32 PM
<Friday, May 04, 2007
Epidemic... Haizzz... seems like everyone around me is falling sick... even i oso fell sick yesterday... Felt really terrible last night... juz kept vomiting... and had a fever too... ='(... Haizzz... so ya... skipped school today... took my temperature... it's 37.7 degrees celsius... Didn't vomit today... cos there's nothing left in me to be thrown out... but my head super giddy... and i'm feeling very weak too...
Here i am blogging... still feeling sick... gonna see doctor later... hope tt this 'epidemic' can be over soon... take care everyone!
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1:19 PM
<Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Labour Day. I had a long day... Went out wif my mum n sis to J8 in the morning... After tt went to IMM to buy stuffs... Just then i received a msg from tc regarding movie outing... Since i pangsehed them so many times previously... i know i had to go no matter wat... So ya... i went to bugis village to do abit of shopping before rushing all the way to somerset to meet up wif them...
Upon reaching there... tickets were all sold out... Next stop... we tried our luck at Lido... but outcome still the same... Spent quite some time stoning there before deciding to go to Jubilee... =.=... Reached there le... outcome? Haizzz... guess it's just our luck...
Anw we settled for a simple dinner at Foodfare instead... Many hilarious n scandalous things happened... hmm... dun feel like elaborate... cos there are simply just too many things to say... hahaha... Well... i really had a nice day... Wat i'm most elated about is tt i'm able to make time for both my family n friends in one day! =)
Deep in thoughts again... what should i do? The problem is aggravating with every minute passes by... I know i must do something... or at least come up with a solution fast... If not i'll be suffering more then i can ever imagine...
Is there really no other way out??? Is giving up the only choice i'm left with??? Please give me an answer...