there you go
you've decided to take a step into my shed of memories
a place where i voice out my feelings
do leave your footprints behind
Have A Nice Day!
Decent Guy
Alvin Wong Wei Mun
6th March 1989
Pisces
Nanyang JC <0619> St.Gabriel's Secondary <4E2> Ai Tong Primary <6L>
<Friday, June 29, 2007
Thursday. Demoralised in the morning after taking physics paper 3... gotta say that this was the hardest test so far... but i think paper 1 and 2 will definitely be much easier... so hopefully... overall i should be able to pass my physics test... no worries... Yup!
Met up with ys, huichun, kaiying, chenghong and xianmin after the test to catch Transformer at amk hub! Initially i wasn't expecting much out of this show... but after watching it... i must really say that it's damn nice la! It's very action-packed and the fighting scenes really captivated me for the whole 2 hours... I think it's definitely one of the best movie that i've enjoyed watching so far! Missed my gay partner during some parts of the show! lolz!!!
Chenghong left shortly after the movie... I saw my mum while the rest of us were slacking at subway! Went to talk to her but got reprimanded instead when asked how i fare for physics test...=X... Anyway... after xianmin bid farewell... the 4 of us headed down to orchard... Gotta say that me and ys need to undergo extreme makeover soon! We are kinda worried what our wallets will transform into after the makeover... hahaha!
Went cineleisure... did nothing much except touring around... kaiying lost her blue _____... and was feeling rather heartache... but after that i think the crapping session during dinner did help her get back her mood... The dinner made me realised the 2 of them really have very good blood circulation... transforming from black pepper crabs to chilli crabs within a few seconds! =P
My mind was drifting somewhere while they were crapping... and ya... i'm not dao-ing hor... lolz... After seeing the girls to the bus stop... the gays went to amk hub to have our usual gays talk... As people say " an apple a day keeps a doctor away"... i would say " a guy talk a day keeps emo-ness away"! hahaha... by the way we were not emo-ing... just seriously sorting out some thoughts... yea...
Friday. Woke up at 8.45am to catch my soccer match... lolz... Slacked until afternoon before heading down to sembawang to study with huichun and kaiying... As they were ABIT late... i went to buy a "sweet" birthday card for my mum... hahaha... I didn't pangseh them in the end... Yea! =)
I was very focused on my revision... despite not talking... my face somehow made them um-chior... and their um-chior faces made me feel difficult to concentrate... so we started crapping and laughing... after awhile we stopped... and the whole cycle somehow repeats again... So again... it's my fault... cos my face started it... lolz la! hahaha... Well... still quite enjoyable in the end... =)
After much delaying... my mum pressed me... so i left and joined my mum and sis for dinner... so ya... it's just another crapping session during dinner... I dunno it's the people around me becoming more crappy or i'm become more crappy... lolz... Went home... watched death note anime last episode... i must say it's a nice ending! =)
My mum's birthday on sunday... and my family is watching Transformer! Yea... i'm watching it again... hahaha... After that... dinner at No Signboard Seafood! Oh yea... i'm looking forward to sunday!!! =)
Need assurance to know i'm doing the right thing...
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<Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Midway Through Midyear! I have not been online for the more than a week le! For the past week i've been up to my neck with revision... Well... i didn't really study as hard as i did during block test... i was rather slack... so i supposed this time round i would fare pretty badly...
Anyway... here's the update for the previous tests! Maths paper 1- Quite ok... hopefully i can get my 'A'! Chem paper 3- Insufficent time... guess i'll get 'S' or 'E'... =X Econs- Alright ba... aiming for at least a 'C'!
I've been gaying and hanging out with the girls quite often recently... but somehow i'm always 'targeted' when i eat with them... lolz la... Anyway... now it's during the exam period and yet i do not feel the urge to study... haizzz... physics paper 3 tml... don't feel like revising today... think i'll juz read through my notes to make myself feel more assured ba... Yup! =)
Extreme makeover soon! =X
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7:38 PM
<Friday, June 15, 2007
Wednesday. I went out with mum, sis and zach today to pasir ris... We rented bikes for 2hrs and cycled around pasir ris park... As usual... we crapped while cycling... and i guess that helped to keep my mind off things throughout the whole afternoon... My mum and sis had very poor stamina... as a result we had occasional breaks during our cycling journey... Then me and zach were like "Huh??? Tiring meh?" =P
After 2hrs of cycling... we could hardly walk properly... . and we find our legs were slightly opened when walking... so awkward la! =X... Feeling famished... i suddenly craved for pasta... so we headed down to pastamania at PS for dinner... the dinner was fulfilling... and everyone was feeling rather tired at the end of the day...
Reached home... had a good shower... watched channel 55 8pm and 9pm show as usual and then went to sleep... I tried to sleep early as i have to wake up at 6am tml for the NS medical checkup! But still... i tossed and turned in my bed... until it was 2am before i sleep...
Thursday. Woke up at 5.45am... was feeling extremely exhausted after i only barely slept for 3hrs the previous night... Nevertheless... i rushed down to pasir ris mrt station to meet gerald 1st before aloy's dad fetched us to CMPB... Upon reaching there... we realised we were quite early... and we were one of the earliest top 10 to report at the registration counter!
First... it was phototaking... after that we proceeded to have our urine test taken and that was where our one-test-tube of blood was being drawn... =X... Just before our turn... we were crapping... and thought of acting gay by screaming when the doctor poke the needle into our hand! lolz!!! In the end... we are still a real man after all... hahaha...
Next stop... we went to check our teeth before going into a room topless for a X-ray scan... lolz... After that... we went for an eyesight checkup... everything went on very smoothly until it was the hearing checkup... One by one in front of me passed the test... at that time i was feeling bored... so i told them maybe i try acting i got some hearing problem...
Soon... it was my turn... i entered the room and put on the headphone... i was supposed to raise my hand when i hear any sound... initially i can hear the sound... so i just kept raising my hands... and i found it abit stupid at the time... then... suddenly i heard nothing... and the guy controlling the sound kept looking at me with some weird eyes... for a moment i was worried...
I recalled people in front of me only sat in the room for 1min... while i was in the room for 5min... i knew something was wrong... i was really worried... and i caught a glimpse of aloy's smile at that time... after the test was over... the guy said there was something wrong with both of my ears... and i need to go for a 2nd checkup... haizzz... who would have thought i got hearing problem la... aloy and gerald thought i was feigning initially and kept laughing... =.=
Station after station... everything went on quite smoothly... and soon... the whole medical checkup was over... i still can't believe my hearing got problem... aloy and gerald continued their laughings... haizzz... seriously it's quite funny i must say... lolz... who would expect la! =X... So ya... i got PES D at the end of the day...
Anyway... i was feeling abit unwell after that... but we still headed down to cafe cartel at J8 for lunch... laoda joined us as well... we had a nice guys talk before i really cannot take it and went home... Upon reaching home... i got slight fever... so i quickly cover myself in blanket and sleep... Slept for 6hrs before waking up at 8pm to just nice catch the 8pm and 9pm show as usual... Knocked out again after watching the 9pm show...
Friday. Woke up at around 9 in the morning... my fever subsided le... suddenly i felt much better... hmm... actually i've finally sorted out my thinking during the past few days le... i think maybe that's why my mind is feeling much lighter ba... my only worry is my hearing problem... i guess i must have been listening to too much mp3 recently ba... now i somewhat got the phobia of listening to mp3 le... =X
Well... no point worrying so much... at least i can hear people talking can le... now i can only wait for the report of the 2nd medical checkup... Looking at the bright side... if i really got severe hearing problem... at most i'll be entering PES E lor... then i can slack during NS le... lolz...
Things are looking pretty 'optimistic' now... at least i finally know i got hearing problem... but know wat? I totally didn't touch any of my lecture notes for the past few days la! I think i'm the most lag when comes to revision now... i've only revised finished my maths... who can be more slack me? Haizzz... i must really chiong all the way next week... i must force myself to mug at least 10 chapters per day le... no choice... or else i sure cannot complete my revision de... Slog on alvin! =)
Remain optimistic... Things will turn out fine somehow... Because some facts remain unchanged... =)
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<Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Tuesday. I could hardly sleep a wink yesterday... so today i woke at 1pm... but who would expect my sister to wake up later then me la! lolz... Anyway... i was feeling somewhat troubled... so went online for the whole afternoon just to keep myself occupied and keep my thoughts away from all my troubles... well... at least for temporary...
Prepared our 1st meal... hmm... i should call it lunch... at about 2pm... After that... we met up with mum at amk mrt station and headed to toa payoh for dinner at 5pm... As usual... girls just like to shop... so they walked around the central just to look for bags... but at the end of the day they fancy none of the bags they saw...
Upon reaching home... i went online again... i tried to study abit of maths while downloading some videos and songs... but again... i find it unproductive... i only managed to study up till integration... haizzz... i know i'm very lagged behind now... cos somehow i no mood to study these few days... think i will have lots of catching up to do next week...
Well... things are improving today... at least one of my troubles is gone le... and i managed to touch on a few topics of maths... i think i should be able to finish my maths revision tml ba... yup! Anyway... i was appearing offline these few days cos i'm really not in the mood to talk... i don't wanna pass my emo bug to u all... guess i just need some time to settle and clear away my troubles before i'm back to the cheerful me again...
Cycling at pasir ris with my mum, sis and zach tml! Hope i'll cheer up more tml ba! =)
I've already done most of the things... But i guess things just have to turn out this way... Maybe it's time for me to give up... I wanna return back to my usual self- the cheerful and optimistic me...
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<Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Monday. Shalln't let all the troubles and unhappiness bring me down... as usual... i will remain optimistic and continue to update about what happened during the day...
Well... woke up in the late morning again... despite reminding me about our meeting... ys was late again as usual... We had some guys talk at the coffeeshop as per normal... and i was alrd feeling quite down... but the always-be-there bro cheered me up again... Not long after... our talk was disrupted by cheng and kaiying when they walked over to us... 'Someones' happy... but no one shows it... lolz...
Went back to school and found a stuffy classroom to study... We had quite a few missions... some successful and some failure... lolz... Anyway... today is quite a happening day i must say... 1st... we met kaiying and her aep friends at the coffeeshop... later we saw gerald and gang in the library... after that we chanced upon huichun, wanteng, sharon and teikling at the 4th floor... What a coincidence i must say!
Oh well... we still continued to study in our classroom... 2 guys in a classroom may sound abit gay but ya... we are kinda used to it le... lolz... It somehow reminds me of the old times when we study together back in st. gabs... Anyway... both of us could hardly focus... because there were distractions here and there... and we barely studied 1 chapter... so we were like 'heck care la'... and we started some guys talk... After that... huichun and kaiying 'pop' into our classroom... and they joined us to study...
After awhile... i left to join my mum for dinner... so from there on... refer to any of their blogs for more updates about what happened later on ba... lolz... Hmm... went home... deep in thoughts again... emo-ing... then suddenly... something happened... at that moment... i was feeling very helpless and sad... haizzz... shalln't elaborate here... so ya... i doubt i can focus on revision for the next few days... i think i'll be emo-ing for some time ba... but don't worry... i think i will be fine soon... yup!
I want my closed ones to understand how i feel exactly... But yet i hide my truth feelings from them... I'm contradicting myself...
When i finally revealed my true feelings... Things did not turn out better for me... Did i made the wrong decision? Should i just keep my feelings to myself? What should i do? I'm confused...
=/ I've been slacking and practically did nothing for the past few days... but i've sorted out most of my thinking le... I think that it's time to move on and focus on my studies le... Time flies... and in the blink of an eye... so many things have happened... and it's only 2 more weeks left to mid year exam... guess i must really recharge and regain my 'mugging mood' back... or else how to get into honour roll? lolz... ok... i think it's quite unrealistic considering the amount of effort i've put into studying recently... Well... i shall mug hard from now on!!! =)
Hmm... i've been thinking alot recently... and i'm glad that i've sorted out most of the things le... However... there is still some stuffs that linger on my mind... and maybe that's why i was having mood swings quite frequently ba... Anyway... i hope that i'm thinking too much... but this is the feeling i get... i seriously hope i'm not being treated as just another person... Oh well... all these thinkings have drained me... i shalln't think so much anymore... i've let go le... and it's time for me to move on...
Insecurities... Tired... but still holding on... No longer expecting anything more i guess... It's time to move on... =)
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<Wednesday, June 06, 2007
=) History is repeating itself yet again... i'm wondering how many times can it repeat on different victims... but this vicious cycle never seems to cease with the trouble maker still at large... Hmm... shalln't elaborate more about it... cos it doesn't really bothers me now... Well... i'm in a pretty good mood now after i've more or less sort out my thinking during the past few days... Yup!
Anw... i shall pour out all the random thoughts i have recently... this is gonna be the last entry that i'll write in a subtle way... well... i guess it's pretty obvious... lolz...
How u ever seen a troublemaker who always claims that he is victimised? I used to think there isn't... Does a belligerent kid always feel that he is right in whatever he does? Probably... In the event when many people (maybe 10 or more) loathe that one person, ain't it obvious there's a serious problem with that person? Well... up to u all to decide... Shouldn't that person reflect upon what he has done to others (it'll take one whole day to elaborate here) and face up to the problem instead of ranting and thinking about revenge? It depends how mature that person is... Does a person who maligned... badmouthed and hid truth from others deserved the trust of others? Certainly not... Are others obliged to tell that person any secrets then? Of course not... Is it fair for that person to only think about what others did to him now without thinking how he badly treated them in the past? It's just unfair... It is justifiable for that person to condemn others and worst still... their families when he don't really know what's going on? I leave it for u all to judge...
(PS... sorry if i sounded bias... but what i've said above is true... u all can ask the victims to verify...)
Actually there are many more things i feel like saying here... but somehow some things are not meant to be said no matter what happened... it's meant to be kept between us... we managed to do it... but yet someone broke the trust time and again... he really disappoint and pissed us off... After taking into account what he has done... we don't see any point in telling him what we know because the trust is gone... buddies no more... it's over...
Well... after so many things have happened recently... i shall say that somehow i'm partly to be blamed too... however... no one is always right... it takes two hands to clap... Hmm... who is more right and who is more wrong... the number of good friends and enemies we have now speaks for itself...
This has been dragging for a very long time... i believe those who are involved certainly feel tired... Well... with that... i hope everything will be drawing to a close soon... and from this moment onwards... i will not be bothered by this incident... i shall focus on my studies now! Yup!!! =)
It's all over now... I'm moving on... =)
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<Sunday, June 03, 2007
Finale... After so many things have happened recently... i think i need more time to reconsider things before making a decision... and of course... choosing the path that i'm taking... hmm... even so... i think i more or less know where i should go from here le... just that i need more conviction... to convince myself 100% that i'm making the right choice...
Storytime! Once upon a time... there was a small kid who has offended many people... however... he always think that he's right and is absolutely clueless about the things he did to those people which made them loathe him so much... After reflection... he still believes that he's in the right... so he insisted to do things his own way... however... little did he know that he continues to offend more people with his actions...
Soon... he happened to find a few good friends whom he can trust and rely on... they were very close since then... however... he treated his good friends exactly the same way as how he treated those people in the past... His good friends were hurt and gradually eschewed away from him... One after another left him... and he was alone... yet he was still oblivious of all the mistakes he has committed...
Feeling indignant... he started to scribble all his anger and frustrations on a wall... he lamented about how badly his good friends had treated him... and slowly his feelings were made known to everyone who passed by the wall and read his scribblings...
However... he tried to make a mountain out of a molehill... and soon all the passerbys who read his scribblings just treat it as reading stories to while away time... Onlookers who feel that his stories were overly exaggerating left their comments on the wall... hoping that he can come up with other interesting stories to entertain them... and most importantly... they hope to see him change for the better...
However... all their efforts were futile... he did not care about their comments and continue to scribble his dissatisfaction on the wall... Day after day... he grew from bad to worse... people soon grew tired of the stories he made up... they feel that he is really hopeless if he continues to be so obstinate...
One day... he was beaten by solitude... and for the first time... he was willing to cast away his ego to find out the reasons why his good friends and other people don't like him... He approached them and apologised profusely to them... Seeing that he was so sincere and was willing to change for the better... they told him his mistakes...
At long last... he knew all the wrong he has done... and was feeling very guilty... Since then... he amended his ways and soon he starts to find more friends again...
Moral of the story? To err is human... however... each of us must be brave enough to face up and acknowledge our own mistakes... only then can we learn how to improve ourselves and move on to the next stage in life... =)
PS: This is not a true story... =P
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<Friday, June 01, 2007
Reflection I will not be the shadow of other... Only time will tell everything... Whatever it is... i've finally made up my mind... I know the path i'm taking from now on... That is focusing on my studies... I believe i've made the right decision... And think everyone will support me... =) But somehow... i'm rather tired of this... I've made myself very clear... but somehow... ... ... Shalln't think about it anymore from now on...
Hmm... haven't been blogging for the past few days i guess... There are simply just too many things to update... Well... i shall briefly mention what happened during the past few days ba...
Monday. Chemistry spa. I think i did pretty well ba... cos i only focused on kinetics 6 the day before... hahaha... anw... i had to rush to SS meeting straightaway after tt... haizzz... i guess i really missed too many SS meetings le... i felt so lost upon reaching there... so i spent most of my time catching up on what my members were doing...=X
Lunch-ed with huichun and kaiying before setting out to Dragonfly... I've a new awful nickname on the way there... well... shalln't say here... =.=... Hmm... we somehow made our way there after much delay... lolz...
This is the 1st time that i went to this kind of place la... i think i'm really too guai le... =P... hmm... or maybe u can say i'm not sociable ba...=X... Well... everyone was very hyped up there... they were wearing as though they were attending the prom night la... lolz... i think i wore very casually when compared to them... hmm... nvm... u all shall see how i wear on prom night ba! =P
I was soaked into the atmosphere i surprisingly i was feeling rather high! lolz... i think i managed to groove to the music ba... hahaha... but i find myself enjoying more sitting at the bar and refilling free soft drinks! =P... Anw... when to PS and had pastamania with most of the dance ppl... many things happened... shalln't elaborate here... my fault i guess... =X... Went to Ben & Jerry and played the stupid hand slapping game with aloy... my hands were red and swollen at the end of the day... hahaha... nevertheless... i still enjoy the day~! =)
Tuesday. Woke up early in the morning and rushed to SS meeting... today... we were making the final preparation for the annual Sciesta which is held tml... yet... i'm still so unprepared... i felt abit useless for the 1st time... =(... somehow i don't feel part of the SS family... anw... i spent the 1st half of my day catching up...
As i'm one of the gamemasters... i had to make many preparations... i realised i was very lagged... so ya... eventually i still managed to finish my task and role at the end of the day... guess i'm more or less prepared for tml's Sciesta ba... Despite being not really involved in Sciesta... i was satisfied with my performance during the day for being rather efficient!
Wednesday. The BIG day for all SS members... Sciesta! Reached school at 7.30am... and had to start making preparations le... =X... Well... spent the 1st 2hrs of the event taking photographs... which i think i got the potential to be a professional photographer... lolz... later i spend the next 2hrs or so to prepare for my game at the chem lab... i worked solo there and i was almost bored to death... but luckily gerald was happened to be in school... so he accompanied me for quite some time...
The refreshments were delicious la! Well... i ate quite alot i guess... hahaha... the buffet lunch was also very fantastic man... i'm loving it... lolz... but there were many leftovers... i guess we ordered too much le... =X... in the end we sort of got reprimanded by mrs queenie wong! haizzz... well... who cares...=P...
Next stop... is the game station... where students of upper sec from various schools would play some games to earn points... group which scores the highest point would emerge victoriously... so ya... chung cheng high scored the highest for my game... but they were rather cocky... st. joseph convent girls were overly friendly... peicai sec was rather quiet... the rest i can't really remember the names of the schools le... paiseh ar... lolz...
At 5pm... the Sciesta was finally drawing to a close le... after some clearing ups... i went to attend the prize presentation... and the cocky group of chung cheng sec got 1st prize... =.=...well... it was a very tiring day... i was really dead beat... went to eat dinner alone before going home...
I need entertainment!
Thursday. Went for breakfast in the morning with my mum and sis... after that went to study with huichun... well... we spent most of the time crapping instead of studying la... lolz... so ya... i juz realised that i must emo 1st... and then meditate before i can study la! lolz! Saw a noisy bunch of young ah beng... kids nowadays ar... i really dunno what to say... anw... i'm not "orh lu lu" hor!!! hahaha... =P
Hmm... after that i went to meet up with my family at bugis to celebrate my sis's belated birthday! lolz... reached home at 9pm... emo awhile... then meditate... then study... in the end i guess it really works! hahaha... went to sleep after dating with my tv... lolz...
Friday. Overslept half an hour and rushed to school immediately... i think i did well for physics spa ba... hahaha... luckily i only studied PA3 yesterday... especially the words in black! lolz... hmm... went to collect econs files and a dance disc afterwards... so ya... here i am blogging in com lab... don't feel like joining the bball clan for a game now... just feel like slacking... hahaha... hmm... cya then... start mugging for mid year now ar!!! =P
3hrs later... I reached home le! lolz... i'm slacking at home now... feeling abit sleepy... guess i'm somewhat affected by the cool weather ba... anw... just as i thought i'll have to spend another day eating alone... i met ys, lincoln and nicholas at the coffeeshop! lolz... i ate while they filled me in on the interesting topics they were discussing for the past 2hrs or so... guess i have some more catching ups to do sia... hahaha...
Well... we had non-stop crapping for about an hour and i tell u it was really very hilarious la... there was one time where we laughed until the whole coffeeshop could hear our laughters~! Yup... it was that loud... lolz... hmm... that's about it i guess... ys and lincoln went back to school to mug while me and nicholas were feeling tired and went off 1st...
Haizzz... feeling abit bored and listless now... blogging to while away time... can't seems to find any better things to keep myself occupied... maybe i'll play some computer games then sleep ba... so ya... i shall complete my SGC online over the weekends... think it's time to show my art of crapping again... lolz... =P... oh ya... i think i will start mugging from next week onwards ba... yup~! =)
The choice has been made... There's no turning back... It's over for now... But no one knows what lies ahead... Lets leave it to fate...