Decent Guy

2009-06-15T20:12:00.002+08:00

Hectic...
It has been a longggggggg time since i last blogged... In case u're wondering where i've been to recently... well... actually i've been up to neck with vip details... events... duties and outings... To put it simply... i have a hectic schedule in my company... So packed that i don't really feel the difference between weekdays and weekends...

Come to think of it... it may not be a bad thing after all... Because i gained alot of wonderful experience for the past few months... I realised that i've learnt many valuable things after every single vip detail... For example... I learnt how to present myself and talk wisely in front of foreign delegates... In addition... i've struck good rapport with some of the foreign vips! =)

Well... to be involved in the annual Shangri-La Dialogue was indeed a rare opportunity and great experience... Imagine driving foreign minister into the main gate of Istana? Whenever i recalled the scene where traffic police cleared the way for the long chain of cars and onlookers staring with interest... it really felt great... Cos i know it is something that i will only experience once in a lifetime =)

The cycle of details and duties make me feel that time is passing by fast... I can't imagine i've already completed 3/4 of my NS... Looking back... i think i've changed in some ways... i learnt more things and start to look at things in a different way... Perhaps this is part of the growing up process...

Hmm... maybe it's time to look forward and prepare myself for the next phase in life =)

2009-02-22T13:49:00.002+08:00

Catching up...
I've been up to my neck with vip details and events recently... my schedule had been so packed that i suffered from insufficient sleep lately... =X But well... i can finally take a breather for now =) Ok... i guess i need to recall some important events that i've missed out here... lolz...

I can't quite remember any events during january... except that i ate and gambled my CNY away... lolz... i won quite alot and treated my family to a good meal... hahaha... Hmm... the next thing i remember is ys's birthday surprise... he sure was stunned... lolz...Most of us came down early to his church to make the necessary arrangement... i had a good time catching up with my friends there and the food was great... Managed to had a good table tennis match with lincoln after a long time... lolz... the floorball match was also fun-filling... To sum it up... simple celebration... delicious food and great friends =)

Next comes Valentine's day... i have to say the celebration with her was simple and contented =) We practically spend our whole day eating good food around singapore... prata... ice-shave... kenny roger... etc... can't quite remember the others... lolz... the surprises that we gave each other was so stupid... hahaha... we can't help it but to keep laughing... lolz... but then again... it's the thoughts that count =)

Soon after... i was involved in a one week event- Asian Pacific Intelligence Chief Conference... it was held at sheraton hotel and all of my superiors and some of my friends were involved in it... my job was only to help out with the transport and things at the lobby... i must say it's very tedious and tiring... imagine sleeping at 12am and waking up at 3am plus to prepare stuff for next day? =X

But the good thing is... i've been sleeping in hotel room throughout the event =) I get to eat their breakfast/lunch buffet and walk to newton circus and far east plaza to eat whenever i feel like going there... lolz... i think i've been eating good food for 1 whole week la... and the thing is... i never exercise... guess i'll put on some weight already... =X

Anyway... during the event... as i was driving back from newton circus... i scratched my car while trying to park my car back to the basement carpark =( haizzz... i guess i was really too careless... underestimating the narrow turning... but well... what's done cannot be undone... now i just have to wait and see how things go... most probably i'll have to fork out to pay for the re-spraying of paint ba =X

So ya... the past few weeks were very happening for me... both good and bad... Today... when i take a look at the calender... i realised it is just less than 10 months to ORD!!! lolz...

2009-01-02T22:55:00.002+08:00

So near yet so far...
It has been some time since i last blogged... I guess it's because i've been engaging in too many activities for the past few weeks already ba... lolz... Anyway... i had 1 week holiday break during the last week of december! And i must say it was really well spent!

During this period of time... i went for gf... family and clique outings... It has really been a long time since i last had clique outing... Although the outing did not really turn out as what i've planned earlier on... i think it was still quite a success at the end of the day =) At least everyone had a good time hanging out together... YES MAN!!! hahaha... Hope there'll be more of such outings soon!

Also... i've spent quality time with my family... going shopping and played badminton! My muscles were aching the next day... cos i too long didn't play already... But still... it's really fun to exercise and trying to retrieve my skills back... lolz...

Hmm... i realised i've been spending festive seasons together with gf at our houses... lolz... I must say it's really great to be able to spend special occasions with gf and family at the same time... especially on x'mas and new year's eve... Anyway... gf gained quite alot on both occasions lor... Got to eat steamboat and bbq food on both occasions... at the same time picking up some "essential skills" to earn money... hahaha =P

Well... it was my turn to visit her house on new year day... lolz... I can only say that it felt quite different... =X It's like i've been trying to introduce more 'life' into the house... but in the end the sisters were satisfied to stick to their 'toys'... hahaha...

So yea... it's finally year 2009 le! It's really so near yet so far... but at least i know it's the year when i ORD! =) Now... i just hope this year will be a better year and everything can go smoothly... Well... new year... new hope... =)

2008-12-07T14:57:00.003+08:00

Random...
Life is good after i returned to camp... I felt that time passed by real quick recently... especially when i spent my time helping out with paperworks and going on luggage detail with my friend... It's always nice to go out to town and changi airport to chill and breathe the air outside of the camp... lolz...

At night... i played table tennis and basketball with lincoln in camp... it somehow reminded us of the good old days we had when we're still in nyjc... it really does bring back fond memories... And of course... i spent my nights out with gf... most of the outings were always cheeky... lolz...

Well... as my friends covered my duties during my 2 weeks 'holidays'... i have to clear 3 duties this week! =X So here i am... feeling bored in camp... lolz... I've spent my whole morning and afternoon playing mind challenging games... watching tv... listening to music and going online... Guess there's nothing more to do except to sleep now... hahaha... =P

Anyway... my company is having a cohesion day next wednesday... and i heard we're all going to seoul garden for lunch... followed by watching movie! hahaha... I'm quite looking forward to it... And at the end of the month i'm gonna take a long deserving break from x'mas to new year! =) Before i knew it... it's less than one year to ORD lorrr!!! lolz =)

Ok... this is really a very random post... i think i'm just entertaining myself... now i'm gonna find some other things to keep myself entertained until i book out ba... Take care people! =)

2008-12-07T14:16:00.002+08:00

Untitled...
1... 2... 3... 4... ... ... To us... these few seconds just went by unknowingly... Have u ever wonder how many seconds have gone past just by typing or reading this blog? Often... we tend to neglect the importance of time... After every second, an event or incident will occur... We're oblivious to all these changes simply because they do not have direct impact on us... We will only cherish time once the changes affect us in some ways...

Currently... people's mind are so preoccupied with the financial crisis... so much that they overlook the alarming rise of temperature of the Earth's surface... Besides scientists and the environmental groups... i believe most of us are somewhat unconcerned about global warming... No doubt there is increased awareness among us... we still make little efforts to play our part in saving the Earth...

It has just been reported that the arctic ice rocks are melting much faster than previously thought... As there are less reflective surface areas of ice caps... less heat are reflected back into the atmosphere... causing more heat to be trapped in Earth's surface... If the entire greenland and antartica were to melt completely... the sea level will increase by 7m in depth... meaning most countries will be flooded... If only people were selfless and care about the future generations... a concerted effort to reduce the emission of greenhouse gases will definitely make this world a better place to live in...

Go green!

2008-11-24T23:02:00.002+08:00

Deep in thoughts...
So many things have happened during the past week... and yet all of them seemed to have gone past so quickly... I realised whenever i'm keeping track of the time... it will crawl slowly... and when i'm engross in doing something else... time slips away quickly... i really hate that things happen this way... but well... i just have to learn to get used to it... this is life...

Often... we do not get all the things that we want... and whenever we make a decision... we gain something and at the same time lose another thing... The best we can do is to weigh the pros and cons before making a decision... so as to gain more than what we lose... But then again... it is difficult to make the correct decision at times... Depending on the circumstances and our power in influencing the decision... we may be forced to choose something that we do not want...

I guess we just have to learn to adapt quickly to different circumstances and act accordingly... if not we'll lose more than what we gain... When facing setbacks... we have to accept reality and get back on our feet fast... When we succeeded in doing certain things... we have to keep in mind that success does not come by easily... we've worked hard to earn it and we must continue to improve ourselves...

Anyway... this is just a random post... i think it reflects part of my thoughts... it is something important that i have to keep learning in life...

2008-11-18T16:14:00.003+08:00

Recurrence...
Many things are really unpredictable... who would expect me to undergo another operation on sunday night when i was fine the previous day? Well... things were quite different this time round... the patients...nurses and environment around me have changed... and i'm feeling kinda ridiculous and sad that i have to go through everything that i've experienced juz 6 days ago... =(

But again... after the surgeons explained that the wound was infected... i knew i had no choice but to go for the operation... So ya... same procedures and feelings... and soon the operation was over... I have to be put under observation for 2 days... Thankfully... my parents accompany me when i was warded and eased my boredom by bringing me nice food and reading materials... lolz... =)

Finally... there was improvement in my condition and i was discharged today! Gf... cheng and ky came! Really appreciated their effort to make time to visit me even though they are up to their necks making preparations for their upcoming exams =) Although bro can't be there... still thanks for his get well msg... i know he'll definitely be there if he can make it =)

Well... the girls... esp cheng... kept making fun of my wound... and i was feeling kinda awkward and shy at first la... lolz... After that... we had lunch together before the girls went to their respective uni to mug... while it's home sweet home for me... Although the meeting was short... it was of much significance to me... =) I'm really thankful and appreciated the efforts of those who visited me and wished me to get well soon... I hope i can fully recover asap so that i can go for gf/family/clique outings... Really don't wanna keep spending most of the time lying on my bed... =X

Take care people! =)

2008-11-16T01:02:00.004+08:00

Sat...

M-A-D-A-G-A-S-C-A-R
I somehow managed to spell this word correctly (luckily didn't malu myself =P) lolz... Well... i've been rotting in my hse for the past 4 days or so due to my injury... and today i've finally managed to take in some fresh air outside... hahaha...

Anyway... i must say today was quite happening... i and gf coincidentally bumped into bro n ky again... lolz... i guess that only shows that singapore is really small and needs to build more shopping centres... hahaha... After that... the sisters played punk... and i tagged along to help them choose present for their daddy... Apparently... there are so few things that really suit him... and it's best to settle for something practical... I'm wondering what they can buy for him next year... cos we're seriously running out of ideas... lolz...

Soon enough... we walked all the way to ps... with lots of excitements and anticipations along the way... lolz... i must say the sisters are very funny... the one who's not involved appears so enthu... while the other one who's involved appears so nonchalant... hahaha... However... the harder she tries to conceal her excitement... the more obvious it would seemed to others... lolz...

After much walking and time wasting... bryan (dunno if i've spelt correctly =X) finally appeared... and we pasta-ed before catching madagascar 2... There was a 'cloud of suspicion' over us... but we were too captivated by the show to really care about it... lolz... Anyway... it was a surprise to the girls that i managed to click quite well with bryan in such a short time... and they were so curious about the topics that we guys talked about... hahaha... What i wanna say is the difference in age is not an issue... cos some things are better and easier to be shared between guys... =P

So yea... i shall not divulge anymore things here... cos some things are better left unsaid... lolz... Time will show everything eventually =)

Happy Bday to gf's daddy! =)

contented =)

2008-11-11T21:32:00.003+08:00

=O
Here i am... feeling awkward sitting down blogging... i really didn't expect things to get so serious... initially i was telling darling i had difficulties walking and sitting down... and i jokingly said i need to go hospital for operation... Never did i realise my condition was quite severe until i went to see the MO... and he said i need to go for operation! =X What i said really came true la... can't believe it...

So my friend sent me to alexandra hospital... and i was stoning in my ward most of the time... it felt shitty to be put under drip and not eating for long hours... For the 1st time in my life... i know how it feels like before going for an operation.. During the evening... dad n darling visited me... she was so worried la... on the verge of crying... it pains me to see the worrying and helpless look on her face... and i had to reassure her that i'll recover soon...

We waited until about 9pm... and it was time for me to go for my operation... when i was inside the operating theatre... there were at least 10 ppl around me... they chatted with me... but deep down inside my heart i know they're just trying to make me feel relax and slowly put me to unconcious state... Soon... they put a oxygen mask on my mouth and asked me to inhale deeply... The next thing i know... the operation was over... i only vaguely remember that there was a nurse trying to talk to me... and i subconciously asked her if the operation was over... She replied and i was KO again...

When i woke up... i was feeling nauseous and weak... the nurses examined and checked my conditon... luckily... my condition was stable and can be discharged during noon... During my stay in the ward... i've seen the agony and heard patients groaning in pain... i realised that no matter how capable we are... we will still be beaten by illnesses if we do not look after our health... and after this incident... i'll definitely be more concious of my health... i shall maintain a balanced diet... drink more water... and exercise regularly... so as to live a healthy lifestyle...

So to all my dear friends... it's good to start living a healthy lifestyle when we're still young now!

2008-10-27T20:33:00.000+08:00

ORD!
Well... that's what all NSF are looking forward to and talking about these days... lolz... and i've learnt a new technique recently in LTC- PASS-JUTSU! hahaha... seems like it's a trend to keep making fun of people's ord dates... but luckily... mine is in the year 2009.... for some whose ord dates are during the 2010... it's still a long wait... =P but nevertheless... we guys juz have to serve at least 22months before we can finally get back our pink ic... So no matter which camp or vocation we are from... we just have to la la suck thumb and do what a man has got to do... =X

Anyway... it was a wonderful experience to drive to Istana... it was the first time in my life going there... lolz... i guess there'll definitely be more opportunities to visit there again =) At the rate things are going now... i think i'll be able to get my driving bonus by the end of this year! Time really flies huh? I'm gonna be a one-year soldier soon alrd... and it won't be long before it's my turn to use pass-jutsu... lolz...

Having said that much... my immune system has been quite weak recently... i was down with illnesses for the past few days... and i had to refrain from eating alot of food and had to depend on my home medicine to recover... Although my darling couldn't really be there to help me... her care and concern for me can be felt constantly =) Now... i just hope i can recover fully and everything will go smoothly ba...

Still... the stock market and china milk products issue remained as one of our main concerns... and i hope that this recent wave of adversities can come to an end soon...

2008-09-13T00:58:00.003+08:00

Realisation...
My driving course has ended... it's back to stay-in life... and since then... my life has been quite happening... I get to drive different cars each day... and playing table tennis or washing/polishing cars during free time... lolz... As i'm a new driver... i'll be driving around town and the places of interests for the next few days to get familiarised with all the routes in singapore... so currently i've been driving days and nights... and busying filling up all the paperwork... I realised i'm so tired not because of whole day driving... but it's the tonnes of paperworks which are draining me... =X

Well... to side track... i've watched cyborg she twice... this time with gf... this movie is simply out-of-the-world! I felt very emotional after watching the show... and it made me think alot... If there's a superwoman who will be available 24/7 and protect her loved ones at all costs... her man will feel truly blessed =) it made me realise that i should always cherish my loved ones... and not to take them for granted during times when i see them very often... Cos i'll only feel regret if i were to suddenly lose them one day...

Stay in life has made me miss gf more... Thinking back... i dun understand why i did certain things... i regretted for not spending my time more productively... if given a chance... i will erase those mistakes that i have commited... haizzz... if only i realised my mistakes earlier... thing would have been different... but still... it's not too late to realise it =) and there's always time to make amends and change things...

Ling feng no more =)

Next week will be a busy week! =X

Can u feel my heart?

If u wander off too far...
my love will get u home...

2008-08-24T00:17:00.004+08:00

Qualified!
Time really flies... After some 6 weeks... i'm finally a qualified class 4 driver le! lolz... Well... i doubt i'll have the chance to handle any manual vehicles from now on alrd... really miss those good old times when i was having fun playing with free wheeling and clutch... hahaha...

I still remember how scattered my group was on the 1st day of my course... We, newbies from different units, gathered to learn driving together... Little did i imagine that bonds were forged between us during the process... and in a matter of a few weeks time... we'll be returning back to our respective units... not as newbies... but as qualified drivers! =)

The driving course has definitely been very relaxing and enjoyable... i was rewarded 6 days off for passing my driving test on my 1st attempt... hahaha... i guess the thought of spending more time with her gave me motivation to do well for my test... lolz... During my well deserved break... quality time with her was spent consuming good food... roaming from place to place... and doing random stuff... hahaha...

But in a blink of an eye... her school started alrd... and i'm continuing to learn more vehicles... i guess our lives will soon become more hectic in the near future... but nevertheless... i'm remaining optimistic =) Come what may... the continuous mutual support for one another shall pull us through any future obstacles that are ahead of us...

=)

2008-08-10T16:26:00.002+08:00

NINEth!
As requested by SOMEONE... i'm here again to clear all the cobwebs... lolz... Ever since my driving course started... i've experienced various things... I would say that i'm one of the lucky few who can get the opportunity to drive different types of army vehicles... The process of learning is something that i will never forget and be able to apply for the rest of my life...

Time really flies... Just within 6 weeks... i'll be a qualified class 3 & 4 driver alrd... I've enjoyed most of my time learning how to drive as well as crapping with my friends... i think i'll definitely miss those fun times after i passed out from the course... Well... tml is my class 4 driving test alrd... hopefully i can maintain my standard and remain forcus ba... Good luck alvin!

NS life aside... the time that i can spend with her is shortened due to various factors... i really hope everything can go on smoothly all the way after i ord... Despite all the ups and downs... our bond is still growing strong... and i'm really elated that i can finally spend our anniversary together =) I think the whole day was well spent... and i really cherish every moment spent with her... i believe there are infinite moments for us to cherish in the future =) Darling... must remain optimistic throughout the journey k?

2008-06-27T23:50:00.003+08:00

Happening...
When was the last time i blog? I really can't remember... it seems like a million years ago to me... lolz... Well... one-quarter of my ns journey has passed by... In retrospect... my journey so far is quite happening... it really beats me whether time flies or crawls... Cos there were so many twists to my ns life... Even at this point in time i still feel that i'm in my dreamland...

After POP...i've went to 3 different camps... and i must say each camp gave me a very different experience... I've learnt and gained more knowledge in different fields of specialisation... Currently... being a vip driver proved to be the toughest challenge that i will be encountering... cos i have to be alert at all times... especially when i'm fetching high ranking personnels... Imagine next time '3 stars' officer sitting in my car... Stressed up! =X

Well... there's no need for me to fret so much at this point in time... i've yet to go for the driving course... i shall take one step at a time ba... hopefully things will turn out smoothly for me until ord... so that i can get my free civilian licence... hahaha... Ohh by the way... lincoln and javin are currently in my new camp... such a coincidence la! =O

Having said so much... i'm counting down for 121209 to come... How i wish life now can be as enjoyable as those times in jc... so that i can continue to hang out with my friends and most importantly... spending quality time with her... ns made me realised that certain things are not to be taken for granted... if i can turn back time... i could have done alot more...

But then again... there's no point looking back... On my part... i'll try to let her be the happiest girl on Earth n support her in every ways =) That's the best i can do for now i guess... Looking on the bright side... i know one thing is for sure... that is we'll be walking through this tough but sweet journey together... and this will keep us going on in whatever things we do...

Savouring every seconds spent with her...

Mine! =)

2008-04-13T00:38:00.003+08:00

Ambivalence...
I've never realised how slow time can pass by until i enter ns... How i wish the day of my ORD will come in the blink of an eye... During this phase of my life... i have mixed feelings...not knowing what my future may be... There are simply too many uncertainties... But i know certain things will remain for sure =)

Frankly speaking... i'm feeling very tired at this point in time... There are so many things that i wanna do... yet i'm being restricted... so much that i cannot do things for darling anymore... and i'm unable to spend quality time with my family and spend my anniversary with her =( Sometimes i really feel helpless...

But then again... i just have to face reality... Optimistism is the key to last through this period of time... I'll keep believing... keep holding on... cause i know someone is waiting for me at the end of 2 years to continue the journey with me together for eternity =)

2008-03-18T20:14:00.002+08:00

89...
Is the number of days during my BMT phase in tekong... I really doubt i can forget all the things that i've gone through there... I've toughen up myself... made a bunch of funny dudes there and of course... left my footprints there with sweet and bitter memories... At the end of the day... i'm really glad that i have achieved my aims... i've finally passed my IPPT and SOC! =)

POP on 11/3/08 sealed the end of BMT phase... =X

Don't wanna mention too much about A's result... Only can say that my result reflects the amount of effort i've put in during my jc life... I've no complain whatsoever... Congrats to my darling...ky and cheng =) lolz... Now i just hope i can enter the course that i desire ba... =)

Time really flies... now i've alrd gone through BMT... and soon i'm moving on to the next phase in ns... i believe 2 yrs will be over soon... =) And after that... i'll be entering university and of course... delicate more time to her... =)

Growing strongly...=)

2008-01-01T14:17:00.000+08:00

Perservere...
Life's better than expected in tekong... made alot of friends there... able to click well with most of the jc people... When all guys come together... u can expect lots of stupid and hilarious moments... Although the life there is interesting and tiring... something essential always seems to be lacking... yup... it's her...

I really miss her badly... the restrictions and limitations are becoming increasingly obvious...but still... it's something that i'll overcome...hopefully by the end of 2 yrs...we'll continue with the journey again... Harsh the reality is...it's best to remain optimistic and look forward to the future... i'll perservere...

maintaining...

2007-11-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

19...
Is the number of days left before i say goodbye to my long hair... time really flies... in less than 3 weeks time... i'll be entering ns... how i wish my time can crawl... so that this 19 days seem like 19 weeks... ok... i'm dreaming... and there's no time to dream... i must be realistic and plan all my 'remaining days'... not even a day must be spend idling...

So far my past few days were spent productively... and i really enjoy it... but i wonder how it would be like next week... will it be as fun? I really have no idea... my only hope now is to spend each and every minute with her... cos i realised that time is really short... but again... that's not possible... it's just another selfish thinking of mine...

It's true that the amount of time spend together is not equivalent to how strong the bond is... but i just wanna give my all now... just to leave everlasting memories in ur heart...=)

treasuring...

2007-11-20T18:46:00.000+08:00

100%!
"It's 9.30... please stop writing..." seemed to be a statement that sealed the end of 'A' level exams for most of us today... Although i'm not feeling very relieved after my last paper... at least it's still a huge load off my mind... For most of us... finally... we can bid goodbye to the 12 years of rigid education system and move on to the next stage in life! lolz... Meaning? We've grown up and it's time to plan for our own future! =)

Well... some may already have in mind what course they wanna take in university... while some (most of us =P) are still aimless and decided to take one step at a time... Whatever it is... we all still have to wait for the release of 'A' level result next year before making any choices... So... it's best not to fret so much over 'A' level now and it's time to think of how to spend our holidays meaningfully! hahaha...

For me now... it's 100% liberation! Finally i can focus on planning how to spend my 'remaining days' wisefully... this week shall be an enjoyable and unforgettable one... bball... kbox... badminton and more outings!!! hahaha... Of course... there'll be more programmes lined up for me next week... it's time to get high! lolz!

Anyway... had lunch with the usual clique at northpoint before hanging out with blessed girl... went to a place far far away... practically did nothing except flexing our leg muscles... lolz... a change of venue was the best decision ever made... 'buy one get one free' coupons can finally be put to good use before the expiry date... and a lesson learnt as well for being too high... (not convenient to elaborate here ar...=X) Even the most 'dreadful' forfeit become the most meaningful and memorable one! =)

Hmm... at the end of the day... i really enjoy myself... all the crapping sessions... bonding with clique... and of course time spend with her just made my day! I guess my day would not be complete without any one of them... hahaha... i'm really looking forward to more of these days in the future... =)

100% blessed! =)

2007-11-17T20:02:00.000+08:00

Liberation...
Soon! lolz... I haven't been blogging recently due to A's... So far... the exams have stretched on for about 3 weeks... and in a matter of 3 days... it's time when we can finally burn all our lecture notes and say sayonara to the subjects we've been studying dutifully for so many years... Well... lifelong learning is good... so we should still continue learning chemistry... physics... maths... econs and so on... But as far as i'm concerned... who cares!!! hahaha... =P

After A's... i'll spend all my 'remaining days' wisely... not gonna sleep or slack like what i always do back then... it's time to savour every moment and memories that i have with her... and of course to 'settle' certain things that i have to... erm... do i sound like i'm leaving for good? lolz... ok la... actually i'll be back pretty soon i guess... i really wonder how things are like when i returned... i hope everything will turn out for the better... and hopefully some things still remain...

Ok... enough of my 'serious' tone... i think i really can't be serious... i believe all my friends... esp her... will strongly agree with this... hahaha... hmm... maybe i'll be very serious 2 years later? lolz! Aiyo... i think most likely i'll be even more crappy la... and of course... i'll definitely become more MAN!!! hahaha... =)

Anyway... i really hope i can do well for A's... although i don't really have the confidence that i'll perform well given the amount of efforts that i've put in... ABB will be a satisfactory result... anything more will be a joy and anything less will be a disappointment... I don't wanna comment on individual papers here as i don't wanna think about them again... I'm only concern about how to make full use of my time after A's... lolz...

Class/family chalet... badminton/bball outing... and more outings! =)

Hmm... sometimes i seriously wonder if all these wonderful moments will last... After A's... we'll have outings and fun with all our friends... but for how long? In about less than a year's time... some of us will be working... some will be undergoing NS... some will be pursuing further studies or dreams... Each and every one of us somehow will have different path to take... and eventually... there's less chance for us to meet... Although it may be sad... there are still some things called love and bond... and these are the 2 things that can withstand any obstacles... =)

The end of a journey is the beginning of another new journey!

U make a difference in my life...
Because of u...i feel blessed...=)

2007-10-18T14:22:00.000+08:00

Cherish...
Is the word that i must learn from now on... thinking back... i've done alot of things in NY that i will never forget... and there are some memories which i hold dear... However... there are also some things which i hope for a second chance... but well... i cannot turn back time... so i guess what i can really do now is to look forward and treasure everything that's around me...

Soon... we'll all be taking our 'A' level in less than 2 weeks time... and in less than 2 months time... i'll be entering NS... Everything just seems to be happening within a short time frame... but well... this is the journey that every singaporean male has to take... it's just a matter of time when we guys enter NS... Looking on the bright side... i'll be able to escape the clutches of suffering sooner... lolz... I'm sure i'll have more interesting stories to tell after leaving NS... hahaha...

Hmm... as usual... moments spent with her for the past few weeks were memorable... well... i think they always are... hahaha... i will cherish the time spend together more from now on... =) Anyway... i still can't seem to find the motivation to study even though the alarm calling upon people to mug has already been sound... i guess i have to force myself to mug... no choice... so ya people... be careful when u visit my blog next time... cos i believe there'll be cobwebs everywhere! =X

All the best to our upcoming 'A' level ba~!!! =)

soon to be... =)

2007-10-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

Untitled...
How could this happen to me...
I've made my mistake...
Got nowhere to run...
The night goes on as i'm fading away...
I'm sick of this life...
I just wanna scream...
How could this happen to me...

2007-09-23T19:18:00.000+08:00

Love Takes Two
Baby, tell me, are we heading into trouble, yeah
Is it my imagination taking whole
Do I read too much into the way we slay
The way you move away from me
I may feel that you're the one
But when all is said and done

Chorus:
Love takes two
Time after time we've talked it through
Cos baby, I need you
What am I supposed to do
Love takes two

There's a whole lot of things you can do and do without me, yeah
There's a million things I can do and do alone
But the best you can do for yourself
Is sharing with that someone else
No one wants to be alone
It's the one thing that I know

Chorus:
Love takes two
Time after time we've talked it through
Cos baby, I need you
What am I supposed to do

When your words could disguise what you're going through
But they can't fool your heart
Now it's time to decide what you wanna do
I'm telling you
Love takes two

Love takes two
Time after time it's proven true
Cos baby, I need you
What am I supposed to do
Love takes two
Love takes two

2007-09-20T18:12:00.000+08:00

Wane...
The number of days left to 'A' level... the time spent with our friends and my ENERGY are all waning... In a blink of an eye... everything seems to be drawing to a close soon... well... maybe an end marks a new beginning of another journey... What happens in the future is not within our control... but what we know is that time is definitely not on our side... so we should learn how to cherish our friends and everthing we have now... lest we have any regrets in the future...

Whatever it is... prelim is almost over... yet many people are feeling even more stressed instead of relief... I guess that's natural as the end of prelim signifies the start of 'battle' all the way towards 'A' level... but somehow i just don't feel even the slightest stress... i think i'm really weird... NYJCians are now giving in their best shot during this prelim... yet this time round i slacked more than block test and mid year... haizzz... where's my motivation to mug?

Anyway... i just realised that my appetite has become smaller and smaller during the past few weeks... Used to eat 4 to 5 meals a day... now reduced pathetically to 1 to 2 meals each day... i don't know what's the reason... but it's definitely not due to stress... Well... in case you are wondering... my weight has dropped by 3kg! =X

Not only that... my crappiness and radiance are also waning for some reasons... sometimes... i really want to find back my usual self... but it's hard now after i've changed so much... Well... although it's difficult... it is not impossible... for every problem... there'll always be a solution... as long as i do not give up trying... i believe i will be able to find the solution eventually... however... i really need someone to help and support me... it's very tiring to always do things on my own... i need support badly now...

Everything is waning...

it all depends on you...

2007-09-13T18:26:00.000+08:00

Still waters...
So far so good... the papers are surprisingly quite easy... i guess even people who don't study are able to achieve at least a passing grade... With 3 papers down... there are still many more to go... somehow i'm feeling quite drained already... i practically just flip through my lecture notes instead of studying... i just can't find the mood and motivation to study hard for this prelims... i think some of my friends around me are feeling the same way...

Although the papers by far are seemingly easy... who knows the next few might be killer papers? I think i just have to endure 1 more week of test ba... must somehow try my best to score well... so that at least i won't let myself down... Anyway... i think i should be able to do well for the past papers... i'm trying to aim for the best improvement award this time round... but given the amount of effort put in... it's pretty unrealistic... hahaha...

Hmm... for the past few days... i've been hanging out with the usual clique... and as usual... they (esp someone) never fail to find fault in my facial expressions... don't know why they find it funny la... =.=... i know i'm not very serious most the time... but where got funny all the time one? Aiyo... but i guess i'm used to it somewhat... lolz... Anyway recently people around me are giving me stress... not about studies... but about changing my specs! =X... Haizzz... i think i'll change my specs soon... but now with request from her to wear contact lens... erm... erm... we shall see! hahaha... =P

For those who are feeling tired or feel like giving up... just persevere and hang on ba... it's the final lap of the journey in this school... lets give it our best shot ba... only then can we have no regrets! =)

trying =)

2007-08-30T19:20:00.000+08:00

Woot~!
I'm finally back after a few weeks of mugging! lolz... I guess most people are heaving a sign of relief after today's gp paper... but surprisingly... i'm not one of them... the Fantastic Four are feeling the same way too... somehow we were not feeling any stress... it just feels like another normal practice for us... Nevertheless... i hope everyone can perform well ba...

I'm quite confident of my compo this time round... i wrote more than 1 piece of paper! lolz... this is the 1st time that i ever write so much la... good good... at least i'm improving... hope i can maintain this standard until 'A' level... but sadly... i guess my paper 2 will put me down... nvm... no point brooding so much over it...

I spent most of my day slacking with Fantastic Four... i must really say we had great fun crapping and did the craziest thing that we can ever imagine la... hahaha... We ended up doing lots of stupid things in the container... throwing paper balls at each other... singing songs... video filming and photo-taking... etc... I think there are simply too much details to elaborate... i can only say that we want to do well for paper 1... but yet not too well... contradiction? Well... no no... only we know the reason why... lolz... But still... all the best to u nicholas! HAHAHA!!! =P

Hmm... i think that's about it for today... now time to recall abit of what happened during the past few weeks... Night study with lame has been surprisingly productive at times... lolz... i guess we understand more about CLT le... right? hahaha... Anyway... i've been trying to be a physics tutor in front of lame... hope i'm qualified to teach physics ba... lolz... 80% of the time were enjoyable... the rest were like... erm... so-so la... hahaha...

Of course... not forgetting bro... as usual... we spent most of the time gaying together... we had serious talk at times... i can only hope things will turn out well for us ba... Sometimes... the reality can be cruel... and things are simply not within our control... but comes what may... we'll be there for each other man... lolz...

Well... prelims and 'A' level are round the corner... somehow i still don't feel any stress... don't know if it's a good or bad thing... but at least i'm starting my revision for physics... i think i'm pretty confident with maths and physics... but my other subjects still need more practices... From now till 'A' level... i think i may need some help in gp from bro... maybe can find lame for help in chem also... lolz...

So ya everyone... lets gear up for prelims and 'A' level ba! Everything will be over in 2 months time... why not chiong for 2 months in exchange for the good times ahead of us? =)

If that's the decision... i'll respect...
Need time to adjust things...
Abit???

2007-08-17T16:27:00.000+08:00

Realisation.
History has repeated itself... i think just like what my friend has said last time... i got no temper... and don't know how to feel angry... and maybe that's why i've always been undergoing all these... Well... what to do? That's my character... =/

Definitions differ from one person to another... some may find certain things very important while some may think otherwise... and maybe that is what that makes each individual one of a kind... Anyway... i learnt something from a gp passage... which mentioned that "to achieve 'global politics'... one must accept others... regardless of their different set of 'ideals'..." Sometimes... what we can do is to accept... or at the very least... get used to it...

We can only blame ourselves...

Insignificant...

2007-08-05T16:03:00.000+08:00

...
It has been 2 weeks since i last post an entry... i guess time really flies... in a blink of an eye... what we've been working so hard for the past 12 years is coming to an end soon... it's only one more hurdle to go... but this hurdle is the gotta be the hardest of all...

Having come this far... it's really a very remarkable achievement for me... when i was in the 2nd last class in Ai Tong Primary... who would have thought i would enter a catholic school-St. Gabriel's Secondary of all schools? Being in english-speaking school was so not me... but yet i managed to survive for 4 years... On top of that... i made many good friends and did well for my 'O' level... Unpredictable right?

So my miraculous journey goes on in nanyang jc... where i thought i surely would blend into the environment and everything well because most people there are chinese-speaking... but who would expect i didn't manage to cope with my studies well? Who would expect a sporty person like me to join SS and Dance??? Those who know me well may be asking themselves 'what is this world coming to?'...

Sometimes... i really do wonder what have i been doing for the past 2 years in jc... i think i did absolutely nothing... somehow or rather i feel like i've squandered away my 2 years... and it's the most important 2 years in my life... i do regret for not studying hard last time... but again... there is no time to whine or regret... prelims and 'A' level is just round the corner... i guess from next week onwards... it'll be hardcore mugging for me...

Anyway... i've been going for night study for the past few weeks... although i studied with different people... most of the time it's rather productive... only occasionally lame with her... and some serious talk with bro... lolz... One good thing that came out of night study with her is i passed my stats test and improve my AQ... =)

I've also made more friends... especially the 0616 and 0617 people... they are indeed a wonderful but crappy bunch of people... hahaha... Went for film fest on last friday... the first film evoked deep emotions... guess only bro understands... and second film was... scary? lolz... Anyway it's nice to see lincoln and nicholas performing... their performance was somewhat hilarious... nevertheless they did a good job!

To sum it all up... the past few weeks were quite happening... many thoughts going through my mind... hopefully history won't repeat itself...

< neglect...

2007-07-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

Free!
It's such a simple word... yet i can't define it... all i know is at this point in time... i just feel very free! =) I guess i've finally pour out all my feelings le ba... i feel that i'm transparent now... lolz... Words are insufficient to describe how things are progressing now... I guess a graph might show how... If a graph of progression(y-axis) against time(x-axis) were being plotted... a straight line of equation y=x is obtained... =)

Anyway... i'm glad that the weekends are spent rather productively... at least i managed to complete sampling tutorial and chem energetics! Now i feel that i'm quite in time during lectures and tutorials again! Yea... i guess i'll keep this pace going... and of course having some peer tutoring along the way till A level... hahaha...

finetuning...=)

2007-07-20T10:06:00.000+08:00

Accept.
After so many things have happened... i've finally learnt to accept things as they are... Sometimes... no matter how hard u try... nothing comes out of it... but i believe things will improve with the progression of time... Anyway... looking on the bright side... things are pretty optimistic... at least they are improving... =)

I've believe i've done what i could and should have done... now the only thing i could do is to wait... wait until the time ripes... till then... it will be one of the biggest turning point in my life... lolz... Hmm... actually all these are just my thoughts... after learning to accept things are they are... i suddenly felt much "lighter"... maybe because things are clearer to me now...

Anyway... i finally understand what's consistently bothering me for the past few days... my bro understands too today... i realised i'm not emoing... but just feeling... SIAN? lolz...

You are important...
I'll wait...=)

2007-07-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

Crammed.
I've been feeling very bothered for the past few days... and it's really very difficult to pen down all my thoughts... but all these thinking made me realised that sometimes it's better not to think too much... Sounds contradictory?

All of a sudden... i've come to a point where i have to make an important decision... a decision that may just be the turning point in my life... however... it's not one that is easy to make... Having come this far... i really wanna cherish everything i have... but it's a pity things are not within my control...

Nevertheless... i believe things will turn out fine eventually... =)

Hoping to achieve 50-50...

2007-07-13T20:15:00.000+08:00

Dilemma.
I'm so damn screwed for mid year exams... i've never ever score such a devastating result before... i'm really wondering what have i been doing for the past few months... Distracted? Or am i taking the wrong path all this while?

Things often do not go the way we want... as the saying goes... "man proposes, heaven disposes"... we are living in uncertainties... not knowing what's lying ahead of us the next day... and that is why we have to prepare ourselves to face all the UPS AND DOWNS... lest we are unable to pick ourselves up quickly...

The FACTS were out... the music has been faced... it's time to wake up from all the dreams and come back to Earth... Sometimes... it's really difficult to find the center of gravity of a non-uniform SERRATED ruler... when try to balance the ruler on a particular point... it often topples... Time is needed to figure out its center of gravity... however... not easy...

A decision has to be made... but sacrifices may be necessary... it's really a dilemma... If only things turn out the way we want... if only we can control everything... if only it's 50-50... but easier said than done... at the end of the day... we still must face up to the cruel reality... Well... that's the saddest thing in life i guess...

Time to face reality again... i've gotten back all my papers... one word to sum it all up - SUCKS! Maths was the most disappointing... econs was a blow... the rest were way under expectations... I can't imagine letting my mum signing my "A/B/C-less" result slip... I've let my parents down...

Today... it feels great to play bball and sweat it all out after school... i guess it's a good avenue to vent my frustrations... right bro? My heart felt heavy throughout the day... and some PART OF ME seems to be missing... Anyway... i went J8 to join my mum and sis for dinner... dropped my wallet in yoshinoya... but luckily i discovered it quickly after i left... if not... what a way to end friday the 13th...

Thanks mum and sis for always been there for me when i'm down and out... i'm really glad to have an understanding mum who is always very supportive and encouraging despite my poor result... so ya... i'm determined to achieve ABB during prelims... not gonna disappoint her again...

Not gonna let ANYONE down...

That's it man...
H&S???

2007-07-11T22:12:00.000+08:00

=)
Wanted to put a heading to summarise my feelings... but simply there's no word that can be used to describe how i feel for the past few days... Well... i guess a smiley face will do... lolz... Anyway... i'm glad that i initiated the talk... things really turn out fine... =)

It was really my 1st time queuing up an hour plus for donuts... gotta say it's worth my time... and of course not forgetting my gay partner who is always there by my side! lolz! I've been spending my past few evenings out and got teased on many occasions... hahaha... nevertheless... all the crapping... walking and sharing times... they are memorable and really meant something to me... =)
I hope the STARS can continue to increase for as long as infinity... =)

Anyway... got back some of my mid-year exam papers today... must say that this is the worst result i can ever expect for a major exam... after reflection... i think i deserved those lousy grades based on the amount of efforts i've put into revision for the past few months... haizzz... 'A' level is not far away from now... guess it's really time that i switch to my mugging mood le! Jiayou! =)

After so many things have happened during the past few days... i have to say that i'm really happy... i enjoy those good times we spent together... =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUICHUN!!! =)

matching...=)

2007-07-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

???
Why is it those who are trying feeling tired? Now my mind is full of question marks... can anybody tell me why? I think no one can tell me why... maybe i've lost all my senses le ba... that's why i don't know what i'm thinking... can't feel anything... Well... i can only hope for the best ba...
Tired... but not emoing...
=)

飆高音大賽

2007-07-06T15:42:00.001+08:00

Hilarious!

This is my all-time favourite video!!! I still find it very funny despite watching it over and over again... lolz... hmm... i think after mid year exams i'm really too bored le... i got nothing better to do except for watching tv and online video... Nevertheless... enjoy the video!!! hahaha... =)

Although Cao Ge won by a small margin in terms of high pitch (i can hear high pitching! lolz!)... i still like Tank more... i think Tank's songs are nicer... and he has got a good voice too! BOOS for Zayin and Zhang Dong Liang... hahaha... =P... Anyway... it's really funny to see Tank and Cao Ge fighting all out in this video! lolz!

2007-07-05T13:21:00.000+08:00

Sunday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!!
Gave my mum her bday card early in the morning... and she was rather shocked to see what was inside... hahaha... After that... we headed down to crystal jade restaurant at toa payoh to have dim sum for breakfast... i must say i really like to eat dim sum... it's so nice la... lolz...

Went PS later to meet up with dad... we watched Transformers!!! Yea... although this is the 2nd time i'm watching... i still find the show very nice... hmm... i don't mind watching the 3rd time if someone treat me! =P... It was late evening after the movie... and we went no signboard seafood to have dinner... it cost 100 plus at the end... =X

Haizzz... GST has increased... i go anywhere to eat or shop also must spend more... even macdonald's 50 cents ice-cream now cost me 60 cents... Well... at the end of the day... i guess the government do know how to allocate their resources well...

Monday.
Woke up late as usual... rushed to sembawang to study with huichun and kaiying... for the 1st time we were serious studying... it was surprisingly productive i must say... at least i managed to finish revising maths... Met up with mum and sis for our usual crapping session at amk hub foodcourt... i think it's sort of a daily routine for me le...

I was feeling tired at the end of the day...

Tuesday.
Maths paper 2 was no doubt a killer... it is the 1st time i felt that i would fail my maths paper after taking the test... haizzz... after knowing that less than 20 in the whole cohort score a 'A' for paper 1... my hopes of getting an overall 'A' for maths were dashed... guess i juz have to settle for a 'C'... even my most confident subject is screwed up... i doubt this mid year i would score any A's... sad case...

Wednesday.
Finally... my efforts in studying organic chem paid off! Chem paper 1 and 2 today are rather simple... hope that i can score an overall 'B' for chem... hmm... i gotta say that last minute studying during morning assembly was rather effective... maybe i'll skip assembly in the future le... lolz...

Thursday.
Last paper- physics... as expected... paper 1 and 2 are much easier compared to paper 3... i'm rather confident of passing overall in physics... lolz... Skipped morning assembly again... and it was rather effective really... after lunch played bball with gay partner... lincoln and nicholas to ease the itchiness of my hands... lolz... Must say that i was rather off-form today... guess i really too long didn't play le...

Anyway... was feeling very tired and took a break... so now here i am blogging at com lab with gay partner... cya~!

2007-06-29T22:17:00.000+08:00

Thursday.
Demoralised in the morning after taking physics paper 3... gotta say that this was the hardest test so far... but i think paper 1 and 2 will definitely be much easier... so hopefully... overall i should be able to pass my physics test... no worries... Yup!

Met up with ys, huichun, kaiying, chenghong and xianmin after the test to catch Transformer at amk hub! Initially i wasn't expecting much out of this show... but after watching it... i must really say that it's damn nice la! It's very action-packed and the fighting scenes really captivated me for the whole 2 hours... I think it's definitely one of the best movie that i've enjoyed watching so far! Missed my gay partner during some parts of the show! lolz!!!

Chenghong left shortly after the movie... I saw my mum while the rest of us were slacking at subway! Went to talk to her but got reprimanded instead when asked how i fare for physics test...=X... Anyway... after xianmin bid farewell... the 4 of us headed down to orchard... Gotta say that me and ys need to undergo extreme makeover soon! We are kinda worried what our wallets will transform into after the makeover... hahaha!

Went cineleisure... did nothing much except touring around... kaiying lost her blue _____... and was feeling rather heartache... but after that i think the crapping session during dinner did help her get back her mood... The dinner made me realised the 2 of them really have very good blood circulation... transforming from black pepper crabs to chilli crabs within a few seconds! =P

My mind was drifting somewhere while they were crapping... and ya... i'm not dao-ing hor... lolz... After seeing the girls to the bus stop... the gays went to amk hub to have our usual gays talk... As people say " an apple a day keeps a doctor away"... i would say " a guy talk a day keeps emo-ness away"! hahaha... by the way we were not emo-ing... just seriously sorting out some thoughts... yea...

Friday.
Woke up at 8.45am to catch my soccer match... lolz... Slacked until afternoon before heading down to sembawang to study with huichun and kaiying... As they were ABIT late... i went to buy a "sweet" birthday card for my mum... hahaha... I didn't pangseh them in the end... Yea! =)

I was very focused on my revision... despite not talking... my face somehow made them um-chior... and their um-chior faces made me feel difficult to concentrate... so we started crapping and laughing... after awhile we stopped... and the whole cycle somehow repeats again... So again... it's my fault... cos my face started it... lolz la! hahaha... Well... still quite enjoyable in the end... =)

After much delaying... my mum pressed me... so i left and joined my mum and sis for dinner... so ya... it's just another crapping session during dinner... I dunno it's the people around me becoming more crappy or i'm become more crappy... lolz... Went home... watched death note anime last episode... i must say it's a nice ending! =)

My mum's birthday on sunday... and my family is watching Transformer! Yea... i'm watching it again... hahaha... After that... dinner at No Signboard Seafood! Oh yea... i'm looking forward to sunday!!! =)

Need assurance to know i'm doing the right thing...

2007-06-27T19:38:00.000+08:00

Midway Through Midyear!
I have not been online for the more than a week le! For the past week i've been up to my neck with revision... Well... i didn't really study as hard as i did during block test... i was rather slack... so i supposed this time round i would fare pretty badly...

Anyway... here's the update for the previous tests!
Maths paper 1- Quite ok... hopefully i can get my 'A'!
Chem paper 3- Insufficent time... guess i'll get 'S' or 'E'... =X
Econs- Alright ba... aiming for at least a 'C'!

I've been gaying and hanging out with the girls quite often recently... but somehow i'm always 'targeted' when i eat with them... lolz la... Anyway... now it's during the exam period and yet i do not feel the urge to study... haizzz... physics paper 3 tml... don't feel like revising today... think i'll juz read through my notes to make myself feel more assured ba... Yup! =)

Extreme makeover soon! =X

2007-06-15T14:22:00.000+08:00

Wednesday.
I went out with mum, sis and zach today to pasir ris... We rented bikes for 2hrs and cycled around pasir ris park... As usual... we crapped while cycling... and i guess that helped to keep my mind off things throughout the whole afternoon... My mum and sis had very poor stamina... as a result we had occasional breaks during our cycling journey... Then me and zach were like "Huh??? Tiring meh?" =P

After 2hrs of cycling... we could hardly walk properly... . and we find our legs were slightly opened when walking... so awkward la! =X... Feeling famished... i suddenly craved for pasta... so we headed down to pastamania at PS for dinner... the dinner was fulfilling... and everyone was feeling rather tired at the end of the day...

Reached home... had a good shower... watched channel 55 8pm and 9pm show as usual and then went to sleep... I tried to sleep early as i have to wake up at 6am tml for the NS medical checkup! But still... i tossed and turned in my bed... until it was 2am before i sleep...

Thursday.
Woke up at 5.45am... was feeling extremely exhausted after i only barely slept for 3hrs the previous night... Nevertheless... i rushed down to pasir ris mrt station to meet gerald 1st before aloy's dad fetched us to CMPB... Upon reaching there... we realised we were quite early... and we were one of the earliest top 10 to report at the registration counter!

First... it was phototaking... after that we proceeded to have our urine test taken and that was where our one-test-tube of blood was being drawn... =X... Just before our turn... we were crapping... and thought of acting gay by screaming when the doctor poke the needle into our hand! lolz!!! In the end... we are still a real man after all... hahaha...

Next stop... we went to check our teeth before going into a room topless for a X-ray scan... lolz... After that... we went for an eyesight checkup... everything went on very smoothly until it was the hearing checkup... One by one in front of me passed the test... at that time i was feeling bored... so i told them maybe i try acting i got some hearing problem...

Soon... it was my turn... i entered the room and put on the headphone... i was supposed to raise my hand when i hear any sound... initially i can hear the sound... so i just kept raising my hands... and i found it abit stupid at the time... then... suddenly i heard nothing... and the guy controlling the sound kept looking at me with some weird eyes... for a moment i was worried...

I recalled people in front of me only sat in the room for 1min... while i was in the room for 5min... i knew something was wrong... i was really worried... and i caught a glimpse of aloy's smile at that time... after the test was over... the guy said there was something wrong with both of my ears... and i need to go for a 2nd checkup... haizzz... who would have thought i got hearing problem la... aloy and gerald thought i was feigning initially and kept laughing... =.=

Station after station... everything went on quite smoothly... and soon... the whole medical checkup was over... i still can't believe my hearing got problem... aloy and gerald continued their laughings... haizzz... seriously it's quite funny i must say... lolz... who would expect la! =X... So ya... i got PES D at the end of the day...

Anyway... i was feeling abit unwell after that... but we still headed down to cafe cartel at J8 for lunch... laoda joined us as well... we had a nice guys talk before i really cannot take it and went home... Upon reaching home... i got slight fever... so i quickly cover myself in blanket and sleep... Slept for 6hrs before waking up at 8pm to just nice catch the 8pm and 9pm show as usual... Knocked out again after watching the 9pm show...

Friday.
Woke up at around 9 in the morning... my fever subsided le... suddenly i felt much better... hmm... actually i've finally sorted out my thinking during the past few days le... i think maybe that's why my mind is feeling much lighter ba... my only worry is my hearing problem... i guess i must have been listening to too much mp3 recently ba... now i somewhat got the phobia of listening to mp3 le... =X

Well... no point worrying so much... at least i can hear people talking can le... now i can only wait for the report of the 2nd medical checkup... Looking at the bright side... if i really got severe hearing problem... at most i'll be entering PES E lor... then i can slack during NS le... lolz...

Things are looking pretty 'optimistic' now... at least i finally know i got hearing problem... but know wat? I totally didn't touch any of my lecture notes for the past few days la! I think i'm the most lag when comes to revision now... i've only revised finished my maths... who can be more slack me? Haizzz... i must really chiong all the way next week... i must force myself to mug at least 10 chapters per day le... no choice... or else i sure cannot complete my revision de... Slog on alvin! =)

Remain optimistic...
Things will turn out fine somehow...
Because some facts remain unchanged...
=)

2007-06-13T00:50:00.000+08:00

Tuesday.
I could hardly sleep a wink yesterday... so today i woke at 1pm... but who would expect my sister to wake up later then me la! lolz... Anyway... i was feeling somewhat troubled... so went online for the whole afternoon just to keep myself occupied and keep my thoughts away from all my troubles... well... at least for temporary...

Prepared our 1st meal... hmm... i should call it lunch... at about 2pm... After that... we met up with mum at amk mrt station and headed to toa payoh for dinner at 5pm... As usual... girls just like to shop... so they walked around the central just to look for bags... but at the end of the day they fancy none of the bags they saw...

Upon reaching home... i went online again... i tried to study abit of maths while downloading some videos and songs... but again... i find it unproductive... i only managed to study up till integration... haizzz... i know i'm very lagged behind now... cos somehow i no mood to study these few days... think i will have lots of catching up to do next week...

Well... things are improving today... at least one of my troubles is gone le... and i managed to touch on a few topics of maths... i think i should be able to finish my maths revision tml ba... yup! Anyway... i was appearing offline these few days cos i'm really not in the mood to talk... i don't wanna pass my emo bug to u all... guess i just need some time to settle and clear away my troubles before i'm back to the cheerful me again...

Cycling at pasir ris with my mum, sis and zach tml! Hope i'll cheer up more tml ba! =)

I've already done most of the things...
But i guess things just have to turn out this way...
Maybe it's time for me to give up...
I wanna return back to my usual self- the cheerful and optimistic me...

2007-06-12T01:41:00.000+08:00

Monday.
Shalln't let all the troubles and unhappiness bring me down... as usual... i will remain optimistic and continue to update about what happened during the day...

Well... woke up in the late morning again... despite reminding me about our meeting... ys was late again as usual... We had some guys talk at the coffeeshop as per normal... and i was alrd feeling quite down... but the always-be-there bro cheered me up again... Not long after... our talk was disrupted by cheng and kaiying when they walked over to us... 'Someones' happy... but no one shows it... lolz...

Went back to school and found a stuffy classroom to study... We had quite a few missions... some successful and some failure... lolz... Anyway... today is quite a happening day i must say... 1st... we met kaiying and her aep friends at the coffeeshop... later we saw gerald and gang in the library... after that we chanced upon huichun, wanteng, sharon and teikling at the 4th floor... What a coincidence i must say!

Oh well... we still continued to study in our classroom... 2 guys in a classroom may sound abit gay but ya... we are kinda used to it le... lolz... It somehow reminds me of the old times when we study together back in st. gabs... Anyway... both of us could hardly focus... because there were distractions here and there... and we barely studied 1 chapter... so we were like 'heck care la'... and we started some guys talk... After that... huichun and kaiying 'pop' into our classroom... and they joined us to study...

After awhile... i left to join my mum for dinner... so from there on... refer to any of their blogs for more updates about what happened later on ba... lolz... Hmm... went home... deep in thoughts again... emo-ing... then suddenly... something happened... at that moment... i was feeling very helpless and sad... haizzz... shalln't elaborate here... so ya... i doubt i can focus on revision for the next few days... i think i'll be emo-ing for some time ba... but don't worry... i think i will be fine soon... yup!

I want my closed ones to understand how i feel exactly...
But yet i hide my truth feelings from them...
I'm contradicting myself...

When i finally revealed my true feelings...
Things did not turn out better for me...
Did i made the wrong decision?
Should i just keep my feelings to myself?
What should i do? I'm confused...

2007-06-12T00:15:00.000+08:00

精疲力尽
不知为什么，总是一波未平一波又起。我不知为何问题一直不断地涌现出来，弄得我好累哦，累得就快要撑不住了。嗨。。。一直以来，每当我遇到问题时，我总会在被人的面前逞强。就算是我的好友或亲人，我也会装作若无其事。我想这就是我的缺点吧，老喜欢把所有的烦恼闷在心里。也因为如此，我猜没有人能真正了解我的心声。。。

也许冥冥之中自有安排。可能上天觉得我需要更多的磨练，所以一直不断地给我考验。可是，我只是一个平凡人。我的体力与力量是有限的。我不懂得分身术。我一人的力量是非常的渺小，不能再同时间应付家庭，友情，爱情和学业的问题。这样下去我真的会崩溃。。。

嗨。。。我想我埋怨再多也是于事无补。既然问题已经发生了，我就必须勇于面对，尽量解决问题。呼~ 与其一直想着所有的问题让自己更伤心，不如保持乐观，想想解决的方法。我相信所有的问题都会迎刃而解。嗨。。。最近发生一连串的事情实在无法让我专心读书。我想我需要一些时间处理所有的问题再温习考试吧。。。

由于我的心情真得不太好。。。所以这几天我的态度可能会很冷淡。请多原谅。

On the verge of breaking down...

2007-06-11T13:43:00.000+08:00

=/
I've been slacking and practically did nothing for the past few days... but i've sorted out most of my thinking le... I think that it's time to move on and focus on my studies le... Time flies... and in the blink of an eye... so many things have happened... and it's only 2 more weeks left to mid year exam... guess i must really recharge and regain my 'mugging mood' back... or else how to get into honour roll? lolz... ok... i think it's quite unrealistic considering the amount of effort i've put into studying recently... Well... i shall mug hard from now on!!! =)

Hmm... i've been thinking alot recently... and i'm glad that i've sorted out most of the things le... However... there is still some stuffs that linger on my mind... and maybe that's why i was having mood swings quite frequently ba... Anyway... i hope that i'm thinking too much... but this is the feeling i get... i seriously hope i'm not being treated as just another person... Oh well... all these thinkings have drained me... i shalln't think so much anymore... i've let go le... and it's time for me to move on...

Insecurities...
Tired... but still holding on...
No longer expecting anything more i guess...
It's time to move on... =)

2007-06-06T14:35:00.000+08:00

=)
History is repeating itself yet again... i'm wondering how many times can it repeat on different victims... but this vicious cycle never seems to cease with the trouble maker still at large... Hmm... shalln't elaborate more about it... cos it doesn't really bothers me now... Well... i'm in a pretty good mood now after i've more or less sort out my thinking during the past few days... Yup!

Anw... i shall pour out all the random thoughts i have recently... this is gonna be the last entry that i'll write in a subtle way... well... i guess it's pretty obvious... lolz...

How u ever seen a troublemaker who always claims that he is victimised?
I used to think there isn't...
Does a belligerent kid always feel that he is right in whatever he does?
Probably...
In the event when many people (maybe 10 or more) loathe that one person, ain't it obvious there's a serious problem with that person?
Well... up to u all to decide...
Shouldn't that person reflect upon what he has done to others (it'll take one whole day to elaborate here) and face up to the problem instead of ranting and thinking about revenge?
It depends how mature that person is...
Does a person who maligned... badmouthed and hid truth from others deserved the trust of others?
Certainly not...
Are others obliged to tell that person any secrets then?
Of course not...
Is it fair for that person to only think about what others did to him now without thinking how he badly treated them in the past?
It's just unfair...
It is justifiable for that person to condemn others and worst still... their families when he don't really know what's going on?
I leave it for u all to judge...

(PS... sorry if i sounded bias... but what i've said above is true... u all can ask the victims to verify...)

Actually there are many more things i feel like saying here... but somehow some things are not meant to be said no matter what happened... it's meant to be kept between us... we managed to do it... but yet someone broke the trust time and again... he really disappoint and pissed us off... After taking into account what he has done... we don't see any point in telling him what we know because the trust is gone... buddies no more... it's over...

Well... after so many things have happened recently... i shall say that somehow i'm partly to be blamed too... however... no one is always right... it takes two hands to clap... Hmm... who is more right and who is more wrong... the number of good friends and enemies we have now speaks for itself...

This has been dragging for a very long time... i believe those who are involved certainly feel tired... Well... with that... i hope everything will be drawing to a close soon... and from this moment onwards... i will not be bothered by this incident... i shall focus on my studies now! Yup!!! =)

It's all over now...
I'm moving on... =)

2007-06-03T01:48:00.000+08:00

Finale...
After so many things have happened recently... i think i need more time to reconsider things before making a decision... and of course... choosing the path that i'm taking... hmm... even so... i think i more or less know where i should go from here le... just that i need more conviction... to convince myself 100% that i'm making the right choice...

Storytime!
Once upon a time... there was a small kid who has offended many people... however... he always think that he's right and is absolutely clueless about the things he did to those people which made them loathe him so much... After reflection... he still believes that he's in the right... so he insisted to do things his own way... however... little did he know that he continues to offend more people with his actions...

Soon... he happened to find a few good friends whom he can trust and rely on... they were very close since then... however... he treated his good friends exactly the same way as how he treated those people in the past... His good friends were hurt and gradually eschewed away from him... One after another left him... and he was alone... yet he was still oblivious of all the mistakes he has committed...

Feeling indignant... he started to scribble all his anger and frustrations on a wall... he lamented about how badly his good friends had treated him... and slowly his feelings were made known to everyone who passed by the wall and read his scribblings...

However... he tried to make a mountain out of a molehill... and soon all the passerbys who read his scribblings just treat it as reading stories to while away time... Onlookers who feel that his stories were overly exaggerating left their comments on the wall... hoping that he can come up with other interesting stories to entertain them... and most importantly... they hope to see him change for the better...

However... all their efforts were futile... he did not care about their comments and continue to scribble his dissatisfaction on the wall... Day after day... he grew from bad to worse... people soon grew tired of the stories he made up... they feel that he is really hopeless if he continues to be so obstinate...

One day... he was beaten by solitude... and for the first time... he was willing to cast away his ego to find out the reasons why his good friends and other people don't like him... He approached them and apologised profusely to them... Seeing that he was so sincere and was willing to change for the better... they told him his mistakes...

At long last... he knew all the wrong he has done... and was feeling very guilty... Since then... he amended his ways and soon he starts to find more friends again...

Moral of the story?
To err is human... however... each of us must be brave enough to face up and acknowledge our own mistakes... only then can we learn how to improve ourselves and move on to the next stage in life... =)

PS: This is not a true story... =P

2007-06-01T11:31:00.000+08:00

Reflection
I will not be the shadow of other...
Only time will tell everything...
Whatever it is... i've finally made up my mind...
I know the path i'm taking from now on...
That is focusing on my studies...
I believe i've made the right decision...
And think everyone will support me... =)
But somehow... i'm rather tired of this...
I've made myself very clear... but somehow... ... ...
Shalln't think about it anymore from now on...

Hmm... haven't been blogging for the past few days i guess...
There are simply just too many things to update...
Well... i shall briefly mention what happened during the past few days ba...

Monday.
Chemistry spa. I think i did pretty well ba... cos i only focused on kinetics 6 the day before... hahaha... anw... i had to rush to SS meeting straightaway after tt... haizzz... i guess i really missed too many SS meetings le... i felt so lost upon reaching there... so i spent most of my time catching up on what my members were doing...=X

Lunch-ed with huichun and kaiying before setting out to Dragonfly... I've a new awful nickname on the way there... well... shalln't say here... =.=... Hmm... we somehow made our way there after much delay... lolz...

This is the 1st time that i went to this kind of place la... i think i'm really too guai le... =P... hmm... or maybe u can say i'm not sociable ba...=X... Well... everyone was very hyped up there... they were wearing as though they were attending the prom night la... lolz... i think i wore very casually when compared to them... hmm... nvm... u all shall see how i wear on prom night ba! =P

I was soaked into the atmosphere i surprisingly i was feeling rather high! lolz... i think i managed to groove to the music ba... hahaha... but i find myself enjoying more sitting at the bar and refilling free soft drinks! =P... Anw... when to PS and had pastamania with most of the dance ppl... many things happened... shalln't elaborate here... my fault i guess... =X... Went to Ben & Jerry and played the stupid hand slapping game with aloy... my hands were red and swollen at the end of the day... hahaha... nevertheless... i still enjoy the day~! =)

Tuesday.
Woke up early in the morning and rushed to SS meeting... today... we were making the final preparation for the annual Sciesta which is held tml... yet... i'm still so unprepared... i felt abit useless for the 1st time... =(... somehow i don't feel part of the SS family... anw... i spent the 1st half of my day catching up...

As i'm one of the gamemasters... i had to make many preparations... i realised i was very lagged... so ya... eventually i still managed to finish my task and role at the end of the day... guess i'm more or less prepared for tml's Sciesta ba... Despite being not really involved in Sciesta... i was satisfied with my performance during the day for being rather efficient!

Wednesday.
The BIG day for all SS members... Sciesta! Reached school at 7.30am... and had to start making preparations le... =X... Well... spent the 1st 2hrs of the event taking photographs... which i think i got the potential to be a professional photographer... lolz... later i spend the next 2hrs or so to prepare for my game at the chem lab... i worked solo there and i was almost bored to death... but luckily gerald was happened to be in school... so he accompanied me for quite some time...

The refreshments were delicious la! Well... i ate quite alot i guess... hahaha... the buffet lunch was also very fantastic man... i'm loving it... lolz... but there were many leftovers... i guess we ordered too much le... =X... in the end we sort of got reprimanded by mrs queenie wong! haizzz... well... who cares...=P...

Next stop... is the game station... where students of upper sec from various schools would play some games to earn points... group which scores the highest point would emerge victoriously... so ya... chung cheng high scored the highest for my game... but they were rather cocky... st. joseph convent girls were overly friendly... peicai sec was rather quiet... the rest i can't really remember the names of the schools le... paiseh ar... lolz...

At 5pm... the Sciesta was finally drawing to a close le... after some clearing ups... i went to attend the prize presentation... and the cocky group of chung cheng sec got 1st prize... =.=...well... it was a very tiring day... i was really dead beat... went to eat dinner alone before going home...

I need entertainment!

Thursday.
Went for breakfast in the morning with my mum and sis... after that went to study with huichun... well... we spent most of the time crapping instead of studying la... lolz... so ya... i juz realised that i must emo 1st... and then meditate before i can study la! lolz! Saw a noisy bunch of young ah beng... kids nowadays ar... i really dunno what to say... anw... i'm not "orh lu lu" hor!!! hahaha... =P

Hmm... after that i went to meet up with my family at bugis to celebrate my sis's belated birthday! lolz... reached home at 9pm... emo awhile... then meditate... then study... in the end i guess it really works! hahaha... went to sleep after dating with my tv... lolz...

Friday.
Overslept half an hour and rushed to school immediately... i think i did well for physics spa ba... hahaha... luckily i only studied PA3 yesterday... especially the words in black! lolz... hmm... went to collect econs files and a dance disc afterwards... so ya... here i am blogging in com lab... don't feel like joining the bball clan for a game now... just feel like slacking... hahaha... hmm... cya then... start mugging for mid year now ar!!! =P

3hrs later...

I reached home le! lolz... i'm slacking at home now... feeling abit sleepy... guess i'm somewhat affected by the cool weather ba... anw... just as i thought i'll have to spend another day eating alone... i met ys, lincoln and nicholas at the coffeeshop! lolz... i ate while they filled me in on the interesting topics they were discussing for the past 2hrs or so... guess i have some more catching ups to do sia... hahaha...

Well... we had non-stop crapping for about an hour and i tell u it was really very hilarious la... there was one time where we laughed until the whole coffeeshop could hear our laughters~! Yup... it was that loud... lolz... hmm... that's about it i guess... ys and lincoln went back to school to mug while me and nicholas were feeling tired and went off 1st...

Haizzz... feeling abit bored and listless now... blogging to while away time... can't seems to find any better things to keep myself occupied... maybe i'll play some computer games then sleep ba... so ya... i shall complete my SGC online over the weekends... think it's time to show my art of crapping again... lolz... =P... oh ya... i think i will start mugging from next week onwards ba... yup~! =)

The choice has been made...
There's no turning back...
It's over for now...
But no one knows what lies ahead...
Lets leave it to fate...

她还不懂，还是不懂。。。

2007-05-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

Revelation
I dunno if i did the right thing... but at least now i feel less burden...
Thinking back of what i've done... there's no regret... =)
There's no point in hiding... i've decided to be truthful...
Well... it's very true tt we dunno how to define "it" all along...
Maybe even until now...
But at least... i took the 1st step... =)
Hmm... i'm still somewhat unsure of myself...
But i believe what we need now is time...
Will "it" improve further???
I remain optimisitic... =)

i wonder...

2007-05-25T19:26:00.000+08:00

Reflection
All it takes is just one minute to change ur mood completely...
All of a sudden... i was very disappointed...
But then again... what's done cannot be undone...
What is not meant to be is not meant to be...
What is not yours will not be yours...

For the past few days... i was sick... so i spent most of my day lying on my bed... slowly re-organising all my thoughts... finally... i know my stand... i know where i should go from here... i know the road i'm taking...

The higher the hope... the greater the disappointment...
She is perfect...until i come to realise something...
Sometimes... i was really thrown into a state of confusion...
Am i thinking too much??? I doubt so...
I believe in what i see...
Once bitten... twice shy...
I've suffered once... i really don't wanna go through the same agony again...

From this very moment onwards... i shall leave everything to fate...

It's very obvious...
The hints were dropped...
Please try to understand...
Holding back again...

2007-05-25T16:22:00.000+08:00

Convalescence
It has been weeks since i last blogged about my life... Well... to keep you all updated... i've caught a mild emo bug recently... and i fell sick since wednesday... but luckily i was given a 3 days mc and i think that really gave me ample time to rest and take a break from school work... or probably sort out my own thinking...=X

In any case... the good news is that i'm 90% recover le!!! It's time to gain back the 4kg which i've lost during the past few days! =P... hahaha... Anw... i practically did nothing during the past few days except sleeping and watching tv to while away time... During the past 2 days... really have to thank good gal for entertaining me... and of course ys for helping me to keep all my notes and keeping my updated of important stuffs... =)

I missed the crime & punishment lecture today... went out to have breakfast with my mum and sis before going to school to collect my notes from ys... Shortly after chatting with aloy and ys... the gossip club members "invited" me to join them in their sharing session... lolz...

That was when i realised actually i'm oblivious to so many things in my class! Omg... i think i've really been isolating myself from my class for quite some time le ba... well... nvm... it's not too late to catch up i guess... =P... hahaha... it was really fun crapping and gossiping with them la... Now i come to think of it... i sort of missed those times when the gossip club was established...

Happy moments are shortlived... soon after the president went home... one after another went off... leaving me, gwen and lisin to continue with our stories... lisin said me and gwen are living in our own world... lolz! Well... i guess we had exactly the same encounter ba... hahaha... Anw... after gwen went off... i chatted with lisin for awhile before heading home...

A sheer coincidence at J8!
I started to understand more about my class... =)

Happy 17th Birthday Sis!!! =)

2007-05-22T00:41:00.000+08:00

Realisation
Blog may be an avenue to vent ur frustrations...
Blog may be an avenue to reveal ur feelings...
Blog may be an avenue to put down all ur thoughts...
But blog cannot be an avenue to resolve problems...
It will only serve to deepen misunderstanding when expressed in a subtle manner...

在人生的道路上，我们往往会遇到挫折。
不过，我们应该勇于面对，而不是逃避。
我们必须冷静思考问题到底出现在哪里，
而不是钻牛角尖，逼自己到一个死角。

有时候，我们处理事情不能太感情用事。
我们应该要知道事情的来龙去脉与真相才解决问题。
否则，只会两头不到岸，一无所有。

每一个人都会犯错。
但我们必须知道我们在哪里出错，然后悔改。
否则问题只会永远停留在那。。。

Being truth to myself... no longer hiding my feelings...
I ain't holding back... =)

2007-05-21T23:16:00.000+08:00

Fond memories...
I still remember those times when i was contemplating whether to join dance or not... and to everyone's surprise... i chose to join... Ever since then... i've embarked on a new journey... and experienced many things that i could never ever imagine i've gone through...

When i 1st joined dance... it was weird being one of the only 5 guys in dance... Especially seeing so many girls wearing leotards and stockings... =X... lolz... Initially i was not used to doing barwork and floorwork... frankly speaking... i used to find it gayish! hahaha... but after going through so many trainings... i've begun to enjoy them somewhat... especially the times when we guys crapped and helped each other stretch! Well... that was those old good times we had together man...=)

Hmm... many things and accidents happened along the way... and it somewhat led to the formation of A.S.S.!!! hahaha...does it rings a bell??? Well... my flexibility improved after every trainings... and i got to learn a few sets of dance steps!!! Gradually... i evolved from someone who does not know anything about dance to someone who is somewhat capable to showcase his dance talent during SYF~!!! =)

Oh well... i've learnt how to dance hip hop dance too... thanks to the help from the seniors! I was really enjoying myself when we guys were training hip hop dance for our cca bazaar during the holidays... Those craps... jokes and stupid things we all did together! Well... we performed during both cca bazaars!!! I was really feeling ecstatic at that time la... cos it was my 1st exposure to dance and i was able to put up a school performance! =)

After a few months since i joined dance... i started to know the girls better le... and the bond between we guys grew stronger... Soon... me, tyson, aloysius and gerald formed a breakfast/dinner clique with kaiying and huichun... ys would join us occasionally... That was those times man... I can never forget those fun outings we had together as a clique...

In the blink of an eye... it was march... and everything changes... dance trainings were intensified... and we guys started to get more serious during trainings... even to the extent of sacrificing our "manliness" by wearing tights!!! =X... hahaha... but we somewhat were proud of wearing them towards the SYF competition! =)

Trainings were tough... all the tears and sweat we all gave just for the one and only major performance in april- SYF... Injury tolls increased while emotion run high... Nevertheless... our perseverance and strong determination kept us going... training after training... we trained as one... bond was eventually developed between each and everyone of us... The chemistry between the trio... duets and group works grew stronger after every training...

Soon after we were more or less prepared for our performance... we went for the school exchange performances with Juying and Bedok View Secondary School... That's when we gained more experience as well as learnt from our mistakes... I could never forget the performances we've put up in front of the schools...

Just before SYF... problems started to surface... misunderstandings led to the weakening of bond between the guys... Initially... the problem was very trivial... but due to mishandling of matters... it eventually snowballed into a major problem... Haizzz... anyway... we put up a performance during the school 30th anniversary before entering the SYF competition... although the result didn't reflect how much effort we've put in for the past few months... i think we still did well... there was no regret...

Hmm... so ya... finally reached the last part of our journey le... where we put up our last... and the one and only public performance- Dance on the move... I invited my friends and of course my mum and sis to support me... It was the most memorable night ever... and i will always remember it... 19th may... a night to remember...

For the 1st time ever... i had alot of emotions running through me just before we went up to the stage to perform... at that instance where everyone hold hand-in-hand and pray everything went smoothly... all the past memories flashed across my mind... i had many thoughts at that moment... So ya... i must say this was the performance that i can really put all my feelings into... I know what is pure sentiments at last...

Thanks you so much for all the good times we had together... without you people... my life in nyjc will not be so fulfilling... you people really painted my jc life flamboyantly... and yea... i'm referring to the dansez-le!!!

Special Thanks To...
Aloysius, gerald, tyson...
For all the guys talks and fun outings we spent together... It's really fun with the company of you guys man... =)
Huichun, kaiying...
For all the times we spent crapping and the good times we had during outings... not forgetting what you all have done to try and resolve the "problem"... =)
Gwen, wanteng, michelle, peu, teikling, sharon, yimin, shuhui, carine, adeline, shaun and J1 girls...
For all the good times we spent together during trainings... the dance would not be complete without you all... =)

Once a dansez-le... always a dansez-le... =)

2007-05-05T19:32:00.000+08:00

Recovered!
The past 2 days were long and torturing... Irregular sleeps... taking of medicines after every 3hrs and long toilet trips have weakened my body significantly... But guess wat??? I've recovered today le!!! Although i'm still feeling weak after forgoing food for 2 days... my fever and vomiting were all gone le!!! Yea!!! =)

Well... visited a nearby clinic yesterday... after some thorough check-ups... the doctor prescribed me 5 different kinds of medicines! One of which is charcoal pills la!!! =X... This is the 1st time i know charcoal can be consumed la... As claimed by the doctor... it can kill all the impurities in my body... lolz!
(FYI... thankfully it's rather insipid!)

Anw... i felt much better after taking the medicines... maybe it's because the charcoal pills are effective ba... hahaha... So ya... i think i'll be 100% fit on monday le!

Hmm... i tink i'm rather lag nowadays... think i'll start mugging next week ba... anw... take care ppl... don't follow my footstep and fall sick ar... hahaha... =P

2007-05-04T13:19:00.000+08:00

Epidemic...
Haizzz... seems like everyone around me is falling sick... even i oso fell sick yesterday... Felt really terrible last night... juz kept vomiting... and had a fever too... ='(... Haizzz... so ya... skipped school today... took my temperature... it's 37.7 degrees celsius... Didn't vomit today... cos there's nothing left in me to be thrown out... but my head super giddy... and i'm feeling very weak too...

Here i am blogging... still feeling sick... gonna see doctor later... hope tt this 'epidemic' can be over soon... take care everyone!

2007-05-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

Labour Day.
I had a long day... Went out wif my mum n sis to J8 in the morning... After tt went to IMM to buy stuffs... Just then i received a msg from tc regarding movie outing... Since i pangsehed them so many times previously... i know i had to go no matter wat... So ya... i went to bugis village to do abit of shopping before rushing all the way to somerset to meet up wif them...

Upon reaching there... tickets were all sold out... Next stop... we tried our luck at Lido... but outcome still the same... Spent quite some time stoning there before deciding to go to Jubilee... =.=... Reached there le... outcome? Haizzz... guess it's just our luck...

Anw we settled for a simple dinner at Foodfare instead... Many hilarious n scandalous things happened... hmm... dun feel like elaborate... cos there are simply just too many things to say... hahaha... Well... i really had a nice day... Wat i'm most elated about is tt i'm able to make time for both my family n friends in one day!
=)

Deep in thoughts again... what should i do?
The problem is aggravating with every minute passes by...
I know i must do something... or at least come up with a solution fast...
If not i'll be suffering more then i can ever imagine...

Is there really no other way out???
Is giving up the only choice i'm left with???
Please give me an answer...

2007-04-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

Friday.
Mum visited doctor late at night... it's been 3 weeks le... hope she can recover soon...

Saturday.
NYJC 30th Anniversary!!!
Caught flu the moment i woke up... guess i slept too late the previous night ba... troubled by too many things... Anw i was super late 4 dance... a very big SORRY to dansez-le...

Anw we faced many constraints on stage... n had to remove teik n tyson-michelle duet part... which was kind of a pity... Nevertheless... i think we did perform well... i guess we didn't really let our syf result affect our performance... which i felt is really admirable... thumbs up for dansez-le spirit! =)

After tt... me aloy n gerald played soccer in mpr again as usual... i guess tts the only thing we guys can do during dance to keep our minds off things...

Went down to walk around the school compound... trying 2 soak into the lively atmosphere... Well... i guess there were 3 emo faces in the sea of smiley faces... Haizzz...

After a long wait... we guys finally went to the canteen to get free food... hmm... the food wasn't bad... but the fish tasted stale... =X... "Somethings" happened... n we guys were more emo... Walked towards the bus stop w/o talking to each other... which was very very ususual... Well... we were not quarrelling... we all were in deep thoughts...

Went to my house after tt... i guess my house has become a good place for people to sort out their thinking ba... hahaha... Anw... watched soccer n had guys talk at the same time... I guess we somewhat felt better after the talk... =)

You guys are right... although the bonds outside are weak... the bond within is strong... In times of difficulties/bad karma... buddies are the most important...

Me...
After suffering from a blow... I've learnt my lesson...
I've grown much stronger now... because of one thing...
I must really thank that person for waking me up...
Telling me that i cannot cope with both relationship and studies well at the same time...
However... things often don't go the way i want...
Here i am feeling very troubled...
I'm in a big dilemma now...
Many problems are still unsolved... yet they just keep surfacing...
Guess heaven is playing tricks on me... or should i say... the guys...
I'm stuck in this situation...
Racking my brain everyday... but still i can't get out...
I know i cannot drag anymore... must find a solution soon...
But i've still yet to find one...
Used to keep everything to myself...
But there are simply just too many things happening....
Happening at a rate that i'll go crazy if i bottle everything inside of me...
Family... buddies and close friends are my support now...
They are the ones i'll confide and share my feelings with...
Sorry to those who feel that i'm very dao towards u recently...
Or those who feel that my emo-ness has affected u...
I'm trying hard not to show it or affect u... but somehow i can't...
Sickness... weariness... friendship problems... conspiracies... ... ....
What's next???
Guess only my family and buddies understand...
Thanks for all the family and guys talks all this while... =)
Well... only feeling abit emo lately...
I'll cheer up very soon de!!! Yup!!!=)

What should i do???
Please give me a sign...

2007-04-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

Complicated...
What exactly are u all thinking???
Really wanna possess the ability to read people's mind so as to save the hassle of brooding too much over things...

Things are improving between us...
Holding on and holding back at the same time ain't easy...

2007-04-26T23:05:00.000+08:00

Unforgettable Journey...
In the blink of an eye... i've joined dance for 4 months le... Time really flies isn't it? From someone who has never tried dancing before to someone who is fit to perform in SYF... i seriously think it's very remarkable le... Looking back... there's no regret in joining dance...

December
I made a shocking decision 2 join dance because of a silly reason...
I was feeling very shy... partly because i'm not used 2 seeing girls wearing leotards... partly because i'm one of the few guys in dance...
Starting 2 know the guys better... n we actually formed a clique...

January
Learnt hip hop dance during cca bazaar... had many great n unforgettable times together during trainings...
Get 2 know the girls better... realised they are wonderful ppl...
Ties wif the guys grew stronger each day...
Really start 2 enjoy dancing gradually...

February
Dinner after dance trainings wif gang has became a tradition...
Managed 2 blend into the whole group...
Soccer match after dance has been part of the training...
Start 2 feel proud 2 be a part of dansez-le...

March
Intensive trainings...
All the sweat... hard work n everything everyone has put in...
Juz to achieve a goal we share in common...
Passion 4 dance growing day by day...

April
Problems start 2 surface...
Injuries... weariness... stress... internal dispute...
All happened juz because of a cause- SYF...
We've gotten Silver in the end...

Hmm... considering the amount of time n efforts we all have put into every training... it's rather disappointing... Inevitably... the girls cried... while the guys were utterly disappointed...

Some were blaming themselves 4 not performing up 2 expectations... while some were feeling guilty 4 making mistakes... But i feel tt as long as we've tried our best... there's no regret... Thinking back... we've gained more than what we've lost all this while...

The joy we had dancing together... the times we shared n laughed at each others hilarious actions... the team spirit we've built... n most importantly... the bond established between us... All these are something tt cannot be achieved n gained overnight... They are something precious which we've reaped along this arduous journey... A journey tt we've walked through together all this while...

Even after SYF... all these things will still remain... n of course... there's another performance on the 19th May tts awaiting us... Instead of thinking so much abt the outcome of SYF... why not cherish the remaining trainings n time tt we can spend together? Why not get over it n move on n give it our best shot during our last performance?

At the end of the day... we did not let ourselves down... there are no regrets as long as we know deep down in our hearts tt what we've been doing all this while is meaningful... something tt etched on our memories...

3 cheers for dansez-le!!! =)
We rock!!!

DANSEZ-LE... the legacy shall continue...

2007-04-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

旁观者清，当局者迷
Shared everything wif my mum n sis today... together we analysed... n suddenly... everything falls into place... the jigsaw puzzle is finally solved...

After discovering the truth... my 1st reaction was "HAIZZZZZZ"...
Why...? Why...? Why...?
So many "Why's" are going through my mind now...

Well... i shall not disclose anything on my blog 1st... lest more misunderstandings n misinterpretations will arise... If u wanna know... ask me personally... In this way things can't possibly go wrong...

Anw... i've made some reflection... n feel tt maybe i shouldn't blog things in a subtle way anymore... cos it'll cause many misunderstandings... like wat i'm experiencing now...

Why complicate things when things are not complicated in the first place?
Simply don't understand why people wanna sow discord between us...
Why!!!???

2007-04-18T23:47:00.000+08:00

Your efforts have paid off... should we congratulate u???

What can i say? I'm walking off...

2007-04-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

Boiling point.
In pure water... there are H and OH ions as well as water molecules... When it is being heated up in a vacuum flask... a convectional current is set up... It will continue until all the water molecules are heated up... an equilibrium is established...

However... the air above the water in the vacuum flask is also being heated up at the same time... hence it'll keep expanding and expanding and expanding until it finally reaches the point where the pressure within is too immense... and the vacuum flask explodes...

Solutions???
Do not close the cover of the flask... leave it opened... At the most some water is spilled out of the flask when boiled... some are still left within... If exploded... nothing is left behind...

My principle- Do not do to others what u do not want them to do to u...
Others may have their own principles and are different from mine...
But violating this principle is a contradiction...
Imagine...
You've always been put off by certain characters...
But when you look into the mirror... you saw them written across ur forehead...
Contradict isn't it???

When facing problems or challenges...
Embrace not Evade...
Reflect not Rant...
And tts when u know u've move on to the next stage in life...

2007-04-11T23:07:00.000+08:00

Whirling Thoughts...
My mind was preoccupied wif many random thoughts recently... First it was studies... Later it was followed by friendship... There is a whole lot of things tts going through my mind... so many tt it's near impossible 2 sieve out each thought individually and identify each of them clearly...

So ya... i was in deep deep thoughts for the past few days... trying my best 2 identify every single thought tts weighing on my mind... hoping tt it'll stop me from thinking so much... Haizzz... i'm still somewhat feeling troubled at this very moment... very troubled...

I'm completely lost... what i'm doing now is simply contradictory... Sometimes i wonder if i have made the correct choice and decision... I hope i've made the right decision... certainly hope so...

Anw... this is not an emo entry... it's juz all the random thoughts tt i'm having right now... Juz feel tt i shouldn't be thinking so much again... lest i really become emo... Hmm... let nature takes its course ba...

Well... still muz wish kaiying and chenghong HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! =)
Hope there'll be more rangers outings in the future ya! =)

一人分饰两个角色？？？

2007-04-08T00:41:00.000+08:00

“己所不欲，勿施于人”
Meaning: Do not do on others what you do not want them to do on you.

Think... Juz think...

If u hate the feeling of being backstabbed... do u enjoy backstabbing ppl?
If u want ppl to share secrets wif u... would u share ur secrets wif others as well?
If u enjoy playing jokes on ppl... would u like it when ppl play jokes on u?
If u detest attention-seeker... would u choose to be one?
If u loathe hypocrite... do u like play-acting?

Many a times... we do things without thinking much and are fallible in our judgements... It is often we realised tt actually what we've done so far can be contradictory after some reflections...

Sometimes... our actions can be very different from our thinkings... we may subconciously do to others the things we do not want them to do to us...

Sometimes... we rant when we are being treated badly by ppl... but think again... do we treat them well in the 1st place??? For every cause... there's an effect...

Somebody told me this... ' Each and everyone of us has an invisible mirror in front of us... what u do to the person will be what u get from the person... If u treat the person well... the person will treat u equally well...'

It is of paramount importance to acknowledge the fact tt we are capable of making mistakes n we are not always right... however... it is equally vital tt we must know our mistakes n rectify them in time... The 'willing to change' attitude is welcome by all... n a quality revere by all...

Think. Think. Think.
We may be oblivious of what went wrong for us...
But the only solution is to confront the problem bravely and find the root of the problem...
Only then can the problem be totally resolved...

Where should i go from here?
Keep holding back?
Or just let nature takes its course?
Deep in thoughts...

2007-04-05T23:42:00.000+08:00

I've been either too preoccupied or too tired 2 blog recently... Hmm... i shall try 2 recall the important events tt happened the past few days ba...

Monday.
Had breakfast wif the usual clique in the morning... it becomes part of monday's routine i guess... hahaha... Had 4 consecutive lectures later... was kinda shagged after tt... Worse still... we had pe at the end of the day... Supposedly had NAPFA test de... but cos i failed screening test... so no need 2 take... Haizzz... tink i'll need 2 train my 2.4km running n pull-ups soon le...

Tuesday.
Slackest day in the whole week... school ends at 1.30pm... somemore ms agnes was absent... so i had a free period during gp!!! hahaha... Anw... the decent trio went 2 sumo house at amk central after school! Wa... honestly speaking... this is my 1st time ever eating japanese food since primary school la... cos last time i got traumatised by a japanese dish! =X

Well... can't remember the name of the meal i ate... only know tt it's fried rice wif breaded chicken... Hmm... tasted abit funny... got the 'japanese favour'... maybe is i xin li zuo yong ba... hahaha... Tried wasabi for the 1st time... Wa... i must say tt i will ONLY eat it when i got blocked nose! Lolz... =P

Refilled the green tea over n over again... had guys talk as usual... Went 2 amk hub 2 slack after tt... Many interesting things happened! Hope there's be more of decent trio outings!!! hahaha... =)

Wednesday.
Lessons n lectures as per normal... Failed my gp badly... I've got a U grade... which was so unexpected...=(... Anw... attended SS meeting after school... n it turned out 2 be quite interesting! We made colourful leaves as souvenirs for Sciesta!!! Shalln't elaborate about how 2 make colourful leaves... hahaha...

Headed straight 2 dance after SS... Didn't have proper warm up... but still went ahead 2 have the 1st run... Must say tt i really gave my all... n i was really tired after the run... i think maybe it's due 2 inadequate warm up ba...

Had a long n tiring day... so went home straight after dance...

Thursday.
Boring day... had physics n chemistry practicals... well... shalln't elaborate... Moving on to the more interesting part... i played bball after school all the way till 7.45pm la!!! hahaha... i tink i abit high today ba... Tc got suaned by hong qing during the games... it was so hilarious la... he juz simply got owned by hong qing!

Reflection.
Post Block Test...
Maths A
Physics B
Chemistry C
Economics C
General Paper U

Haizzz... these grades were much lower than what i aimed... must say i didn't perform up 2 expectation this time round... After reflection... i think i'm really slacking too much le... Hmm... i think mainly is because my studying time is greatly cut down due 2 dance n SS...

These 2 ccas really require lots of time n energy... n they somehow really affected my studies adversely... But of course... i only put in abt 20% in this block test! So considering the amount of effort i've put in... this result is somewhat reasonable ba... =X

Just as i feel tt i cannot cope wif both studies n ccas... the teachers-in-charged of both ccas really gave me lots of encouragements... So ya... i shall perservere till the end... i believe if i can manage my time even better... i can do well in both academics n ccas de!!! Yup!!! =)

2007-04-02T00:02:00.000+08:00

Happy April Fool!!!
Spent my day at marina square n northpoint wif mum n sis... Bought a new shoes! It's cheap n nice... i find it kinda cool... My wound bled again... Sux sia... dunno why the blood dry le then bleed again... this bloody cycle juz keeps going on and on and on... Doubt it'll cease in the next few days... =.=

Took off my socks n realised the wound worsened... plaster was of no use... a small part of my sock was stained wif blood... Sian... nowadays walking is uneasy... Have 2 control my walking so as to prevent too much friction between my wound n my shoe... Wanted to wear slippers instead... but somehow it doesn't help much...

Went home n managed to complete my maths tutorial 14c at long last... i guess i am really very behind time ba... Looking back... i've been slacking since the last day of blog test... last week i pratically did nothing... only spent my week dancing... resting... sleeping... n nothing else... So ya... think i shall start turning on my 'engine' again next week ba...

Homeworks are piling up now... n i've yet 2 receive my gp papers... Hmm... i'm expecting more events 2 happen next week ba... Hope everything will turn out fine... n of course... hope my wound can recover asap!!!

Oh ya... i've yet to collect econs files n money for econs notes which are supposed 2 be due last week! =X... Ok... enough slacking... gtg do my econs homework now!!!

April Fool's Day!!! =)

2007-03-31T22:01:00.000+08:00

Sports Carnival @ Bedok Reservoir.
Woke up at 5.45am to have breakfast wif my dad before taking bus 22 together wif him... Sat at the top storey of the bus... n saw many nyjcians... The bus was soon flooded wif nyjcians even before reaching serangoon central...

Saw gerald boarded the bus at serangoon central while peering of the window!!! After my dad alighted at ubi ave 2 work... gerald went up n find me... gong wei-ed on the way 2 our destination...

Finally reached bedok reservoir... but we were late for 10min... chiong-ed to the toilet first before making preparations for our 1st game station- dragonboat! After much delay... it was my class n 0616's turn le... The showdown between the male dancers... me n tc against aloy n gerald... hahaha... =P

Practised awhile before the competition commenced... came in second... aloy n gerald's class came in third! Lolz... so ya... our class won 0616!!! =P... Up next was running... as my left leg was injured... i was left out of the competition... Waited for abt 45min before it was our class's turn 2 run... we came in 2nd again i think... Ky's class came in 1st for both... =.=

Our class gathered n trained 4 frisbee shortly after running... 0616 joined us later for training... so ya... we had a friendly spar... Result? 0619 won 0616 again!!! hahaha... Anw... the match was fun n most importantly... it was a fair play! =)

Supposed 2 play frisbee... but i asked for a substitution cos of my leg injury... nevertheless my class still won!!! hahaha... After tt met up wif aloy n gerald n slack throughout... gong wei n sand-throwing each other!!!

Tc, aloy n gerald went off 1st for some church activities... while me n ys took bus 2 toa payoh 2 have budget lunch together... Headed 2 library 2 slack after tt... Managed 2 keep each other updated of what's going on... Had a nice guys talk before parting ways at 4pm...

Reached home n slacked... changed a new blogskin at long last!!! Still... haven't touch any of my tutorials yet... think i'll try 2 regain my mood of doing hw tml ba! Cya~!!! =)

2007-03-31T00:11:00.000+08:00

Thursday.
Rehearsal at UCC early in the morning... we guys received our new custumes... it was Sexy!!! Went through a few runs... n realised actually i wasn't sure of the countings of the trio part!!! =X... I muz really buck up n be sure of the countings next time!!!

2hrs of almost non-stop dancing was draining... i tink every dancers felt the same way... It was the last time tt we are going 2 perform on this actual stage... so it'll definitely be some time before we set foot into this wonderful stage again! Somewhat miss the stage n the lightings...

Anw... i tink overall we've made some improvements in terms of spacing n timing... but there are still room for improvement though... I believe we'll improve n dance well... Gold wif honour for SYF ya??? =)

Dance performance at NYJC during lunchtime concert after tt... Was feeling abit paiseh wif so many familiar faces around... But nevertheless... after Bedok View n Ju Ying Sec have performed... I knew i had 2 put on my best performance... can't afford to make any mistakes this time round...

In the end... the opening segment... the liftings... dancing... n everything juz went very smoothly 4 me!!! Yea... there's every reason for me 2 celebrate cos i've really made marked improvement from the 1st day i entered dance... But i feel tt i still need 2 improve in many areas... especially my stage confidence!!! =X

Overall... i felt tt we did well!!! hahaha... this shall be the 1st step towards winning gold wif honour for SYF ba... Yup!!! Anw... had abit of refreshment after the performance... n went 4 chemistry tutorial later on...

After chemistry... we guys met up n went 2 J8 library 2 have guys talk... But in the end tc n gerald were very tired n dozed off... so left me n aloy... we shared many things... n gained many new insights!!! B-rank missions ar??? hahaha... =P

Friday.
Slept at 7pm yesterday!!! Can't believe it sia... guess i muz really be too tired last night after dance le... Woke up at 6.30pm n quickly packed my bag n chiong-ed 2 school...

Maths lecture was boring wif lousy maths lecturer... hahaha... PE after tt... ran 1.6km in 8min 20sec... which was kinda slow... tink i really needa work on my stamina n pull-ups le! =X

Physics after break was rather slack... copied ys's electromagnetic lecture note while mr.sim was going through block test answers... hahaha... Econs even more slack... mrs. tay went through the note so fast la... faster than my highlighting speed! =X

Took off shoes during econs cos left foot bleeding... muz be because of the running during PE which made my wound bleed ba... Tried taking off my socks... which the process was painful... cos socks sticked 2 the dried blood... Since then... walking around school bare-footed... cos i want the blood 2 dry... n most importantly... it's really painful ar...

Anw... GP was the most slack... went 20min late... then went in n watched movie only... hahaha... Hotel Rwanda was very nice la... but to be continued the week after... which was kinda anti-climax... =.=

Went 4 dance after math tutorial... today dance juz watched videos... which i find it quite useful... cos at least i finally get 2 understand what went wrong 4 me... I now then realised my running was quite screw up sia!!! Wa... somemore the opening i used 2 tink i did quite well... but today danny say until like i very gay lor... Carried kaiying wif 'scissors legs' too... =.=

Anw... i managed 2 learn something from watching these videos... tink i will continue 2 work on my weaknesses... i believe i can improve by the time SYF comes!!! =)

Late for meet-the-parents session! Quickly met up wif my mum before chionging to LT4... missed 20min of the talk... Saw nicholas n lincoln a few rows in front of me... Received a msg from ys n realised he was juz one row in front of me!!! Lolz... didn't see him sia...

The talk was the same old thing i tink... maybe i attended too many of this talk le ba... hahaha... Went 2 amk central 2 eat before going home... Tired...

Many tutorials still left untouched!!!
Lots of catching up 2 do!!!

2007-03-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

SCREW UP.
Went 2 bedok view secondary school 2 perform today...
I accidentally slipped n made kaiying fell...
I'm really really sorry... hope tt she's alright...
My left leg got burnt quite badly n my knee was badly injured as a result...
Nevertheless we managed 2 continue wif the dance... muz say kaiying did really well...

Reached school and had dance training...
I muz say tt i was really off-form today...
I didn't dance well... didn't lift the girls well... nothing goes right for me...
A very big SORRY to all the dancers who are affected... especially michelle n kaiying in particular...

Hope tml i won't screw up again... if not i can't even forgive myself...
At the end of the day... i was really tired... tired... n tired...
Haizzz... jiayou ba alvin...

It doesn't pay off to think so much...
It's best not to think of anything...
Thinking so much will only suck my energy out...
I'm exhausted... both mentally n physically...
Weariness n guilt are eating me away...

2007-03-27T21:46:00.000+08:00

UCC Hall.
Reached school early at 7am... did some warm-ups for abt an hour before we set off 2 the UCC Hall! During the bus journey i was kinda tired... so tried 2 sleep... but in the end crapped wif aloy instead... hahaha... I used Byakugan while aloy used Sharingan! =P

Reached UCC Hall at last... the place was very empty... Each of us took a tag... which the guys went toilet n tried different 'diao' ways of wearing the tag! hahaha... it was hilarious la... but i tink it looked dumb instead of diao on us! =X

After awhile... danny n shouyi joined us! Me n aloy were kinda high at tt time... hahaha... Anw... we guys went 2 the toilet 2 'lose some weights' before entering the hall... which tc's toenail came off after a failed attempt 2 climb into aloy's cubicle! =X

Went into the actual hall after much delay... Muz say tt the hall was smaller then wat i expected... but the lightings n audience seats n everything are very impressive... I like the way the lights is being controlled manually... it's like very song la... Just 'click click click'... n then a beautiful image comes out... Muz say shouyi did quite a good job in controlling the lights! hahaha...

I finally realised tt it's really not easy 2 dance when the lightings n everything came in... The silent part was not easy... especially standing at the right position and trying 2 dance in the light wif everything around u pitch black... the feeling is totally different... Anw... the 1s run was kinda screw up... I tink everyone still not used 2 the spacing at tt time ba...

As the practice went on... i realised the trio group work wif kaiying n shaun was even more difficult... cos now the guys had 2 lift the gals up n travel in a longer distance... but i tink the toughest part is 2 carry the gals all the way into the side curtains... cos we tend 2 touch the side curtains or worse still... bang into the side lights... Hmm... i tink we really need more practices...

Danny was very frustrated today... kept asking us to redo certain segments... Seriously ar... i tink he has good intention... as in he really wants us 2 do well 4 SYF... tts y he has been pushing us hard n trying extremely hard 2 refine our steps n movements 4 the past few months...

But i tink sometimes he's expectation is way too high le... Like the V-shaped formation tt segment where everyone is supposed 2 run into n out of the curtains followed by 2 lines cutting across each other... i tink it's of extreme difficulty 2 be able 2 reach our last position on time...

I tink it's mainly bcos there's a limit 2 the running speed of gals ba... danny should understand this... i feel tt it should be more of dance n not physical fitness test... although i agree tt stamina n fitness are important in dance... but until this stage where we are nearing SYF... it's abit too late 2 train n improve our speed much... refining our spacings n steps are of greater important... Maybe he can give us a few more pai zi during tt segment?

Well... was asked 2 remove my spectacles... which i hated... cos i 600 degrees ar... Then it's very bei-cheh when cannot see anything la... I feel like a blind man on stage... During the opening i could only see 3 lights- red green n blue... Other then tt i cannot see le... juz purely rely on my feelings...

Got strong colourful lights at the sides of the stage to guide me... so dancing wasn't so much of a problem... At least i know where i am when i'm dancing... But i really got problems recognising ppl around me... especially the part where i'm supposed 2 stand beside cheng qi... i can't even see her face lor... have 2 keep calling out 4 her la! =X... hahaha... other then tt i tink ok le ba... Hmm... have to go to yunnan 4 hair treatment soon after the ending part! hahaha... =P

Anw... mrs huang lost the keys n tried 2 look for it la! It was sooo funny lor... i guess it's the 1st time i see her so panic ba... =P... Soon it was 12pm le... no time 4 the last run... n we took the coach n return back 2 school...

On the way received a msg from ys... n realised i got 59 for physics test! Wa... tot can get B sia... in the end only 1 mark away from B! =(... Haizzz... Anw... we reached school n parted ways... some went 4 lessons while my class lesson almost ended... Then... gwen received a msg n know she got 17/30 for econs test! She was like so happy lor... =.=... Juz then i received a msg... i got 17/30 oso!!! Oh no... how can i draw wif gwen! hahaha... anw... got a C for econs test... ok ba i guess...

Received gp essay after econs lesson... i failed... which was kinda expected... haizzz... pray i can do well for my compre ba! =X... Went wif the guys w/o ys to J8 for lunch... once again ys pangseh-ed us... =.=... Ate KFC... n had guys talk after tt... Used Byakugan n Sharingan again... hahaha... =P

Anw... i went home after tt... while the guys went back 2 school i tink... Did abit of reflection... So far my i've gotten ACCC for my 4 subjects... Hmm... not impressive though... most importantly i'm not satisfied wif my overall results given the time i spent studying ba... I aim for AABC for the 4 subjects de... Haizzz... guess i shalln't slack so much le... i tink i'll put in more effort into studying next time n find the correct study method de...

Well... juz treat this as a lesson ba... n most importantly is to learn from my mistakes... Muz make sure i won't commit those mistakes again!!!

Ehh... i juz added this part after posting... i need 2 make a major correction... tts is i juz realised tt the gp essay is not my block test!!! =X... Wa... i dunno whether it's a good or bad thing sia... cos seriously i tink i didn't score tt bad 4 the paper la... i dun mind getting the result i've gotten 4 this essay... Now i scared i may score worse 4 my block test sia... Haizzz...

Hope can score well for compre tml!
Dance performance at Bedok View Sec tml!
Jiayou~!!! =)

2007-03-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Pa!!!
Supposed 2 meet up wif the guys, huichun, chenghong n xianmin 4 breakfast at 8am de... but reached there 30min later instead after much delay by the heavy downpour... Upon reaching... the table was quite crammed... so had 2 sit at an awkward position in between the guys... hahaha... =X

1st lesson... physics lecture...
Today... a lecturer from UK conducted a lecture on composite materials... which i find it very boring... i believe those who attended the lecture would agree wif me... hahaha... Wanted 2 sleep on several occasions... but mrs heng's constant strolling along the aisle disrupted my attempts... =X

After the lecture my class went 2 the benches outside LT4 to collect our chemistry papers! I got 58... which is a C... Hmm... rather disappointed though... cos i expected 2 get a B... Realised i made a few careless mistakes which caused me my B!

Haizzz... nvm... consider the amount of effort i put into this test... the result was somewhat reasonable... hahaha... Gerda still said the dancers did well... taking the amount of time we spent dancing into account...

Gwen got 57... n was very bu fu!!! =P... As 4 tc... gerda asked me 2 help him!!! As his buddy... of course i will help him la... but most importantly is he muz help himself ma... So ya... really hope he can xiang tong n start studying soon!

Had gp lecture after tt... lecture as per normal... Proceeded to LT4 for maths lecture straightaway after gp... Received maths papers immediately... I was very confident of getting an A initially... but after passing down scripts of C, D n E to my classmates... i was demoralised...

Finally got my papers after much delay... I got 69.5!!! Wa... 0.5 to an A!!! Asked mrs lim... n realised there'll be moderation! hahaha... so ya... i taiko-ly got an A for maths!!! =)

Went 4 a short game of bball after maths... then went 4 lunch wif the guys at central macs... Aloy n ys had 2 go off 1st... so me,tc n gerald went 2 AMK Kbox!!! This time round... tc gay-ed wif gerald... tc childish la... kept using the mic n poke gerald's ... ahem... nvm... hahaha... =P

I was off form today... cos got abit of sore throat... hmm... i usually sure run out of tune de... so i tink u all can more or less expect the standard of my singing today ba... =X... Sang quite a few songs... then went off earlier 2 meet up wif my mum n sis 4 dinner... Supposed 2 have celebration wif dad... but he was held up... so i went wif my mum n sis 2 Carl's Jr. @ Vivocity instead...

Bought a new dvd player... n as the only guy... i had 2 carry it home... It was rather bulky... so took taxi home... On the way the taxi driver wanted 2 take the longer road... but luckily i know the shorter route n we reached home earlier instead instead! hahaha... i tink it's always better 2 have a guy around... cos guys have better sense of direction! =)

Hope my friends n i can do well 4 gp, econs n physics ba!!! =)
Dance at UCC Hall tml!!!
No need 2 attend lectures n tutorials!!! =)

2007-03-25T23:55:00.000+08:00

Was feeling kinda bored... so went 2 tis website (http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi?) which tc recommended n found many interesting slogans! Some are quite interesting... while some are quite lame... hahaha... Anw... i realised tt it's rather repetitive upon comparing wif wat tc has found 4 his name...

In any case... here's Alvin Slogans! Enjoy!!! =)

Show Me The Alvin!
Make Someone Happy With an Alvin
I Like the Alvin in You
Think Alvin
Don’t Get Mad, Get Alvin
All Alvin, All The Time
An Alvin Works Wonders
Your Flexible Alvin
Say It With Alvin
It’s a New Alvin Every Day
Do The Alvin
Be Young, Have Fun, Drink Alvin
Wouldn’t You Like To Be An Alvin Too?
When You’ve Got Alvin, Flaunt It.
Make Alvin Yours.
The Alvin of Champions.
Get Alvin or Get Out.
Nothing Works Better Than an Alvin
So Easy, No Wonder Alvin is #1.
Challenge Alvin.
We’re With the Alvin.
Super Alvin is Almost Here.
If You Can’t Beat Alvin, Join Alvin.
Everything We Do Is Driven By Alvin.
Every Alvin Helps.
The Alvin Effect.
I Like the Alvin in You.
There’s First Love, and There’s Alvin Love.
I Can’t Believe It’s Not Alvin.
We’re Serious About Alvin.
Make Room for the Alvin.
Wouldn’t You Rather Be Alvin?
Alvin- The Freshmaker!
Don’t Be Vague. Ask for Alvin.
You Can Be Sure of Alvin.
Double the Pleasure, Double the Alvin.
I Scream, You Scream, We All Scream for Alvin.
I Think, Therefore Alvin.
Pure Alvin.
The Alvin That Likes To Say Yes.
Think Once, Think Twice, Think Alvin.
I’m Only Here For The Alvin.
Aaahh, Alvin!
Behold the Power of Alvin.
See The Face You Love Light Up With Alvin.
Have A Break, Have an Alvin.
Good Honest Alvin Since 1896
Smart. Beautiful. Alvin.
There’s Only One Alvin.
Hope It’s Alvin, It’s Alvin, We Hope It’s Alvin…
You Deserve An Alvin Today.
All You Need Is an Alvin and a Dream.
I Wish They All Could Be Alvin Girls.
Got an Alvin? You’re in Luck.
Nobody Better Lays a Finger on my Alvin.
Pride of the Alvin For Over a Hundred Years.
The Curiously Strong Alvin.
The Alvin of Confidence.
Do You Have The Alvin Inside?
Every Kiss Begins With Alvin.
You Too Can Have An Alvin Like Mine.
Have an Alvin and Smile.
Life Should Taste As Good As Alvin.
When The Going Gets Tough, The Tough Gets Alvin.
An Alvin A Day Helps You Work, Rest And Play.
Just One Alvin- Give It To Me!
If You Want To Get Ahead, Get An Alvin.
Welcome To Alvin Country.
A Day Without Alvin is Like a Day Without Sunshine.
Nobody Does It Like Alvin.
Time for a Sharp Alvin.
Only Alvin Has The Answer.
Where Do You Want Alvin To Go Today?
Alvin Wanted.
Is Alvin In You?
Don’t Forget The Alvin, Mum.
Alvin. It’s Everywhere You Wanna Be.
It’s the Bright One, it’s the Right One, that’s Alvin.
Have You Had Your Alvin Today?
Exceedingly Good Alvin.
You Need An Alvin.
All Because The Lady Loves Alvin.
The Alvin That Refreshes.
Say It With Alvin.

So ya... hope all my friends n i can do well 4 block test!!!
Intensive dance rehearsal next week!!! Jiayou~! =)
My dad's birthday tml!!! =)

2007-03-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

Friday.
Was still down wif flu today... so woke up late in the noon... In the end i missed the bball outing wif friends... =.=... I spent the whole afternoon at home... my routine was eating medicines... then rest on bed... then watch tv... den eat medicines after 3hrs again... vicious cycle continued...

Was feeling very bored... so when central bought some herbal drinks... Received a call from gerald... n found tt there was dance training!!! =.=...
At tt instance i was like... "Ya hor... siao liao... forgotten sia..."

I chiong-ed home n wanted 2 go dance... but my mum insisted tt i should stay at home... Tried 2 persuade my mum 2 let me go by saying i go there take attendance only... but my attempt was futile...

My mum said i was really not in the condition 2 do vigorous activities... n it may aggravate my condition... she said i really need rest... n she used her finishing move by telling me 2 let her talk 2 mrs koh n explain things 2 her... So bo bian lor... my mum outtalked me in the end... n i ponned dance 4 the 1st time! Very paiseh la... =X

Saturday.
Slightly overslept... cos past few days woke up too late... then body still not adjusted 2 waking up early yet... Chiong-ed 2 school immediately... n managed 2 reach there on time... but stomach was stirring... so went 2 'lose weight'... Met gerald n aloy in the toilet la!!! Wa... they oso stomach-ache... Lolz...

Was late 4 dance... n was questioned by mrs koh... but given the benefit of doubts... she trusted us... Aiya... actually is we always so honest de... tts y she trusts us... hahaha... =P... Anw... tc was even later then us la!

No barwork... n we started wif floorwork instead... After tt there was tis new part where we had 2 run in a contemporary manner diagonally across the hall... then we had 2 do fast 'animal crawl' i would say... across the width of the hall... n lastly... we had 2 roll sideway quickly across the length of the hall...

1st run... everything was smooth until the rolling part... where i rolled towards the side of the hall until i almost hit the wall la! The world around me was spinning when i stood up... i could hardly balance myself...

2nd run... abit tired... but still quite alright... then again... the rolling part... but tis time round when i rolled halfway... i suddenly feel like vomiting... then i quickly headed towards the toilet n vomit everything out... After tt... i vomit... then diarrhoea... then vomit... then diarrhoea... then vomit again... I guess tts wat we call 排除 ba...

Feeling better after resting 4 quite some time... then continue wif the training again... Had quite a few runs (as in the actual dance rehearsal)... n it was then i realised tt i was really at my limit le... I was very shagged n was running out of energy... which was unusual of me... Haizzz... muz be all the vomiting n diarrhoea tt caused me 2 be so weak ba... I tink i really lost quite alot of weight sia! =X

Nevertheless... i still endure towards the end! Hahaha... luckily i was feeling much better after having lunch n break... guess i regained some energy after eating ba...

Dance on stage was very cramped... but still managed 2 put through i guess... hahaha... Me n aloy tio 'targeted' by danny on quite a few occasions... but aloy was the joke of the day la! =P

Giddiness gone by the time dance ended... so played some ball games... There was one time where tc accidentally hit sharon wif a vball n she cried! Ehh... hope it's not tt pain ar...

Shortly after tt... we guys together wif lao da went 2 Cathay... Lao da treating we guys movie cos he got voucher i tink... hahaha... Anw... eric joined us awhile later! Wanted 2 watch Stomp The Yard... but the timing was too late... then me n tc cannot make it... So in the end we watched Pathfinder (NC16)! =X

At the start of the show... i dun really understand wat tis show is abt... so felt abit sleepy... i tink the other guys felt the same way too! hahaha... As the show continues... i gradually start 2 understand the show le... n beginning paying more attention to the show...

Overall the show was ok... quite violent though... the storyline is abt one sinister, sadistic n inhumane tribe called "dragon" annihilating villages... n there was one hero who stood up in their path 2 end their killing spree... It somewat reminded me of the older-version of Rambo... But the graphics n scenes were quite bad during some parts of the show... especially during the fighting scenes... Hmm... 3/5 stars?

After tt... was feeling very exhausted after a long day... so me n tc went home 1st... while the rest still continue going somewhere n slack... On the way gong wei as usual... got alot of catching-ups 2 do after i've been MIA for the past few days... hahaha... Gotta say tt most of the mysteries around me are resolved... Woot~!!! =)

Life is never easy when it comes to JC...
The topics taught in JC may be totally unrelated to what we've learnt during sec schools...
It is no surprise we find it hard to cope wif studies in JC...
For examples...

In physics... phase angle or angular velocity is something new to us...
Sometimes we got mixed up n even apply the wrong fomula...
However... as long as we are willing to study hard enough n try to understand it...
We can be still in time to find the right study method n score well during 'A' levels...

In chemistry... organic chem like arenes or halogen derivatives is new to us...
Benzene n its reaction mechanism are something which we are not familiar wif...
We only found out what is nucleophilic substitutions after studying the topic...
And it is only then tt we realised benzene contains carbons joined together in a closed circle...
Due to its high electron density... it tends to repel away any nucleophiles...

In maths... mathematical induction or maclaurin's series is new to us...
In most cases...we are able to prove tt P1 n Pk are true...
But sometimes... we may derive the equations wrongly...
In the end we may work out to realise tt P1 n Pk are not true...
However... in some strange cases... Pk+1 is true despite P1 n Pk are not true!
That's why maths is not easy in JC as it may be so unpredictable...

Economics is a subject totally new to us...
We are totally clueless about it n struggle at first...
However as time goes by... we slowly understand this subject better...
Although there are many concepts behind...
As long as we dun give up on it n put in efforts to study...
I believe we are able to achieve good grade for economics during 'A' level...

2007-03-22T19:02:00.000+08:00

Sick...
Supposed 2 meet ys at serangoon mrt station at 8.45am... but was feeling unwell the moment i woke up... My head was spinning... n i had a bad sore throat too... i guess all these symptoms are due 2 the flu which i'm suffering from since last night ba... =(

Ate medicine n continue resting... hope tt i can recover in time n join the class later at sentosa... But once i slept... the next thing i noe when i opened my eyes... it was 3pm!!! =X... Oh shit... i didn't noe tt i slept more than 14hrs sia! Haizzz... i really hate the feeling of being sick... Somemore of all time fell sick when i'm going 2 sentosa... This really sux!

Woke up le... but drowsiness still overwhelmed me... i guess should be the side effect of the flu medicine ba... Took medicine again... tink i feel better... so wanted 2 join the class 4 dinner or something... But juz nice my mum rang me up n asked me go out 4 dinner...

So ya... went out wif my mum n sis 4 dinner instead... At 1st quite hungry... but after eating the food... suddenly no appetite 2 eat... cos all the food were insipid... Haizzz... again... i hate the feeling of being sick!

Reached home... ate medicine again... dunno why... my block nose is recovering... but my giddiness is worsening... maybe i ate too much medicine le ba... =X

Here i am blogging... feeling bored n giddy... got nothing else better 2 do other than blogging 2 while away time... hopefully blogging can help 2 ease my giddiness ba...

Haizzz... so ya... feeling very guilty 4 pangseh-ing the class again n again... tot i can make up 4 all my past pangseh-ing by going 2 sentosa today... but in the end... added up 2 the total tally instead... =(

SORRY 0619... for not able 2 join u all... hope u all have a great time at sentosa... do play hard after block test ya?

Flu sux!!!

2007-03-21T22:25:00.000+08:00

Over!!!
Woot~!!! The blog test is finally over le... hahaha... i must commend tt overall tis block test is quite simple... perhaps it's mend 2 let students pass ba... Had physics today... the test was simple... so i'm aiming 4 at least a B for tis test ba... Yup!!! =)

Hmm... i completed tis test within an amazing 1hr 45 min la! I still hav 1hr 15min left to check the whole paper... which is kinda unexpected... hahaha... actually is i chiong-ed right from the start of the paper cos i tot i'll definitely hav no time 2 finish... In the end i realised i did too fast le!!! So ya... won't say i will get A... but i hope can get at least a B lor...

Anw... after the test n celebration of marvin n clarbear's birthday... it's gonna be bball time!!! Woohoo~... my hands are kinda itchy after not playing 4 quite some time... So... it's time 2 alleviate my itch!!! =P

Tc was MIA for bball for the 1st time sia... cos he went 2 play squash wif hongsiang... So left the usual bball clique... Today... some J1s challenged us... So??? Juz bring it on man!!! At the start... we tio owed... cos me n ys both were very full after a heavy lunch... so didn't ran much...

After a while... we started running... n tts where we began 2 score more... As usual... the decents penetrated through the defence n made some wonderful assists again... hahaha...

In the end... anti-climax... pe teachers happened 2 walk past... so confiscated the ball... =.=... Then ys zhiyi n nicholas wore full-u... so they were asked 2 surrender their EZlinks 2 the teachers n collect them after 2.30pm! Sway sia!!! =X

Anw... after the pe teacher zao-ed... we still heck care n resume wif our games!!! Anw block test is over... so who cares!!! =P... So ya... me ys nicholas zi jie n clarbear went 2 play soccer after tt! Played until very tired... then joined lincoln again 2 play bball!

Wa... i muz say i had a tiring day today... i'm draining both physically n mentally... Oh ya... forgetten tt i overslept today... i was late 4 school 4 the 1st time... but luckily there was no assembly today... hahaha...

Ok... dun sidetrack alrd... i've been sleeping at 3am for the past few days... didn't hav good sleep lately... So went home n took a nap... When i woke up... tio serious flu! =(... Wa... sian sia... i wanna go sentosa tml one leh... but the condition i'm in now ar... i dun tink i can go out la... I'm feeling kinda terrible now... My mum asked me not 2 go out tml la...

Haizzz... hope i can recover tml ba... i dun wanna pangseh the class again sia... haizzz...

*Arrrrrchhiiiuuuu...*

2007-03-20T18:12:00.000+08:00

4 Down... 1 To Go!!!

Monday.
Extremely exhausted... cos i slept at 3am the previous night... =X
...which means tt i only barely slept 4 abt 3hrs! *yawns*
Dragged my heavy feet 2 school in the morning... n had 2 fight hard against inertia throughout the whole day juz 2 keep my eyes open! =X

1st paper... GP.
Spent abt 30min brainstorming... which is much longer then wat i usually do... Rack my brain hard... but juz couldn't come up wif any more points 2 write... Haizzz... i guess my brain cells were still sleeping at tt time ba... And in the end i only managed 2 write 2 main points!

The most dreadful part was yet 2 come... Juz as i was abt 2 end off my essay... i realised tt i was 100 words short of word count!!! At tt time i was only left wif around 5min... So my mission? 100 words conclusion in 5min time! It was mission impossible... cos i had 2 race against time... In the end... "pens down... stop writing..."

... ... ...

... Mission Report
" Word count: 460...
...Mission: ... ... ... Failed"

Paper 2 was rather simple i would say... cos i can comprehend the passage quite well... So ya... hopefully this paper can help 2 pull the overall grade 2 the range of [E,B) ba... hahaha...

The decent trio went central macs 2 study during the break... With distraction all around us... we slack more then slog! =X

Maths paper in the afternoon... Dunno why... i was brimming wif confidence when i entered the hall... i tink tt i've finally gotten back the 'feel' le... The 'feel' i once used 2 have back then in st. gabs... i guess my form is back 4 maths le!!! =)... Anw... the paper was quite simple... tink i should be able 2 get at least 70/100 tis time round ba...

Tuesday.
Even more tiring today... cos last night i slept at 3am again!!! Aiyo... i tink i'm still trying hard 2 adjust my biological clock after it has been distorted during the holiday... Well... both my eyes were super swollen when i woke up... Couldn't open my eyes... had 2 'feel' my way 2 the toilet 2 brush my teeth... Walked 2 bus stop wif half-wide eyes... n was finally able 2 gain full vision when reaching school...

1st paper... Chemistry.
Overall the paper was quite ok... it's simpler than what i expect... i won't say it's easy... but at least i got 10min 2 check at the paper! Hmm... tink i would score B realistically ba... hahaha... Didn't touch econs... so i went 2 clear off the layer of dust on the econs notes during the break!!! =P

I sway sway got mental block during break... so what comes in oso comes out... Wasted my break resting n slacking in classroom... Well... heck care... still went ahead 2 the hall 2 take econs...

Once again... the case study was easier than what i tot 2 be... i was able 2 answer the 1st half of the paper confidently... but the rest of the papers i juz anyhow bullshit my way through... and of course... my crap makes sense too... even i was convinced tt what i wrote really sounds logical! Sometimes i really enjoy doing econs paper... not bcos it's interesting... but bcos i juz enjoy crapping~!!! =P... Well... i guess a grade of [E,B] would be reasonable 4 tis paper ba... Yup!!! =)

Physics tml!!! After attempting all the mcqs in TYS as well as consulting my SS teacher... i'm more or less prepared 4 it le... so ya... tink i juz need 2 flip through n recall everything ba... Hmm... i'm aiming for A for physics!!! hahaha...

Jiayou everyone... GoGoGo!!! It's the last test le!
Bball tml...
Thurs sentosa outing...
Fri probably 300(M18) movie outing!!! (not 4 children ar...=P)
Cheers~~~!!! =)

2007-03-16T20:00:00.000+08:00

Girl I'll Never Understand

This is a story of how is it

Lovin' every morning

Good lovin' every night

That is what i gave you

And you were so satisfied

Dinner on the table

There were flowers in the bed

Anything you asked for

Was it all real or just in my head

Think now, of what it should've been

Our love, all it couldn't been

If you were ever wondering...

I'm doing fine, but in my mind

I could never believe, never understand

How you could do this to me

Enough is enough, done all i can

Now you're gonna lose me

Throwing away our yesterdays

Everything we planned

Cause you're a girl, i'll never understand

How you feeling now?

Are you happy now?

I'm just doing fine

Covered you in diamond

Gave you summer in the sun

And at that moment

I had only just began

Got you the designers

From every magazine

Baby if i know then

All this pain inside would never be

Girl, you are a mystery

So glad, that we're history

Guess we were never meant to be

And i'm doing fine, but in my mind

I could never believe, never understand

How you could do this to me

Enough is enough, done all i can

Now you're gonna lose me

Throwing away our yesterdays

Everything we planned

Cause you're a girl, i'll never understand

Are you happy now baby?

That we're history

Yeah, yeah

Think now, of what it should've been

Our love, all it couldn't been

If you were ever wondering...

I'm doing fine, but in my mind

I'm just throwing away our yesterdays

Giving it up on the plans we made

Enough is enough, done all i can

This girl i'll never understand

I could never believe, never understand

How you could do this to me

Enough is enough, done all i can

Now you're gonna lose me

Throwing away our yesterdays

Everything we planned

Cause you're a girl, i'll never understand

Was randomly listening 2 songs...

Then tis song is still as nice as ever...

Well...

I've been mugging 4 d past few days...

Finished maths revision on monday

Finished physics revision n did physics TYS by wednesday

Slack on thursday...only revised 3 topics 4 chemistry

Today? Physics consultation in afternoon...

Den slack throughout... hav yet 2 start revision...

So ya... think i gotta go study now le!!! =P

Block test is drawing nearer n nearer...

Jiayou everyone~!!! =)

2007-03-10T19:57:00.000+08:00

March Holiday!!!
When i was in primary or secondary school... i would surely open champagne n call 4 a celebration during tis time...
But now in JC... there's nth 2 celebrate...
Now... March holiday = Study period...
So ya... during tis period of time...
NO playing of com or slacking...
It's gonna be mugging time!!! =X

Ever since i've sorted out my thinking recently...
I am finally back 2 my old self le!
I've finally gotten back d study form i used 2 have...
Previously... i've failed my physics... chem... n maths test terribly...
Now in d most recent tests... i've past these 3 subjects well!

I shall continue wif d momentum tt i'm building now...
Hopefully i can do very well 4 tis upcoming block test...
Hmm... i've completed all my tutorials now le...
So i shall give myself a break over d weekend ba...
I'll start mugging next week! =X

Actually many things r happening now...
Block test... SYF... Sciesta... ... ...
All seem 2 be approaching at d same time...
If not prepared... i may feel damn stress...
In d worst scenario... i may even break down...

But fret not... i've already anticipated all these problems le...
I've learnt 2 juggle all these things at d same time le!
Truth be told... i dun even feel d slightest stress at tis moment in time!
Hahaha... i guess most probably is i well prepared le ba...

Well... 4 those who feels very stress at tis point in time...
I believe it's cos u all dint plan enough...
So ya... it's time 2 work out ur time management le...
If u dunno how 2... den it's d more tt u muz start learning now!!!
It's still not too late though!!! =)

So ya... although there r some other "stuffs" which r constantly troubling me...
I'm feeling much much better now after sorting out my thinking...
I guess sometimes self-reflection n meditation do magic!

Plan...
10-11 March... Relax
12-18 March... Revision 4 block test
19- 21 March... Block test
~~~Time 2 settle those "stuffs"
April... SYF
~~~ ~~~ ~~~
June... Sciesta

Hmm... so far tis is my plan ba...
So ya... tink i will blog again after block test ba...
All d best 2 ur block test too!!!
Mug hard ba~!!!

In a game of chess...
A move made is made...
There's no turning back...
Any attempts 2 reverse the move are forbidden...

Every move is very important...
1 brilliant move is what it takes 2 finish off the game...
Conversely... 1 reckless move is sufficient 2 make u lose the whole game...
Moral of story???
Those who fail to plan, plan 2 fail...

Being well-planned... u are able 2 control the whole game...
Your opponent may be having his/her own strategies...
But he/she may have already fall into your trap unknowingly...
Therefore in a game of chess...
It's either u control your opponent's movement...
Or u get manipulated by your opponent...

It all boils down to one thing...
That is how well-planned u are...

In life... sometimes u may think that u are in total control...
But in actual fact u may be the one being controlled...

Sometimes u think that u understand your opponent very well...
But in actual fact u don't...
U are misled...

Sometimes things are not what it seems to be...
It may appear tt ur opponent checkmates u...
U anticipated the move and attempted 2 defend it...
But actually it's only part of your opponent's strategy 2 finish the game off...
U fell for it...

In a game of chess...
U can always try 2 play n win in the next game...
In reality...
There's no second chance...
Sometimes in life... there's only one chance...

However... making a wrong move doesn't mean losing everything...
We must understand that to err is human...
We do make mistakes...
We lost not because we made mistakes...
We lost only if we think we lost...
Only we are able 2 beat ourselves in this world...

Once a wrong move is taken...
We should plan our next move...
Plan how 2 recover and reduce the damages done to the minimum...
This is the mentality that we should always have...
By acquiring this mentality... we can go far in life...

However... we must not forget that in chess...
There's a limited amount of time allowed for us to make our move...
Therefore... after making a wrong move...
We are only left with a limited amount of time 2 make the next move...
Time is ticking away...
We have to make the best move in the limited time we have...

2007-03-06T22:41:00.000+08:00

18th!!!
In a blink of an eye i turned 18 today le...
Tinking back... i muz say time really flies sia...

When i was...
Born... i was very weak... suffered from irregular heartbeats... had a weak lungs too...

1... i was superrr chubby... all d ppl... n even strangers... simply juz couldn't resist d temptation 2 squeeze my cheeks! Had a cute sister... n juz learnt how 2 walk! =X

2-4... i was somewhere in my dreamland... enjoying childhood...

5... Cried on my 1st day in K1... cos very introvert... too reliant on mum... n not used 2 seeing so many unfamiliar faces...

6... K2... an innocent child studying ABC...

7... P1 in Ai Tong... Cried on 1st day again... cos after school lost my mum... =X... very timid n introvert... dunno even noe how 2 buy food from canteen...

8... P2... Very popular among gals... rmbed got 7 gals liked me! (can't rmb whether they were joking or it was 4 real...)... Anw... i was too innocent 2 noe anything abt BGR at tt time...

9... P3... Less introvert... was quite naughty too... got blacklisted by a few teachers...

10... P4... parted ways wif all my best friends after streaming... got into EM2... Participated in a Cinderella performance n got a trophy! Finally noe how 2 buy food from canteen!

11... P5... Knew quite alot of new friends... life in school was fun... enjoy being in school... had a crush on a gal...

12... P6... Everyday in school was pure fun... d gal i fancy likes me... but i was again too innocent 2 noe wat is love relationship... i only noe i muz study 4 PSLE... in d end got 221 for PSLE...

Somehow broke off contacts wif all my pri sch friends...

13... Sec 1... got into St. Gabriel's Secondary School... dint like d school at 1st... cos too 'ang mo' 4 me... not a single friend there... But gradually grew 2 like d school... especially knowing a bunch of good friends... 2nd runner-up in chinese essay writing...

14... Sec 2... accidentally mixed wif bad company in class... got corrupted n started picking up vulgarities... but managed 2 change 4 d better juz before Streaming... In the end got into d 2nd best class in d whole level...

15... Sec 3... Got enlightened... maths suddenly became very zai... sciences oso doin quite well... Got 2 noe a new bunch of nice ppl too... d class was very united... n ys became my buddy...

16... Sec 4... chiong-ed 4 'O' level... from ranking 100+ in whole level in Sec 1 to top 10 during Sec 4... I was d top 10 in whole level for A/E maths, POA n chinese... Nominated 4 Lee Kuan Yew's Edusave Award... Got 10 for L1R5 during 'O' level...

No girl de friends for 4 years... maybe tts y can study better ba!

17... J1... 1st 3 months went 2 CJ... life was fun... but very different from sec sch life... had a 1 week crush on my OGL... but realised tt ppl there r quite flirt... not suitable 2 study... so went 2 NY after 1st 3 months... got into same class as ys again!!! Know a bunch of new friends... got a new buddy-tc... Joined a cca i can't imagine i would join-dance! But it's really great n fun 2 noe them too!

18... J2... today... i've finally grown up le... looking back... i've become more mature may it be physically or mentally... i realised tt i've accomplished quite alot of things in d past... so ya... i shld start making plans 4 my future le... like d life i want... n d type of job i wanna take...

4 now... my main goal is scoring well 4 'A' levels... tink i shall put relationship aside... most prob consider finding one after entering university ba...

So ya... i'm really really happy today... i tink i will never forget such a memorable day...

6th March 2007
12.05am... teik was d 1st 2 wish me happy bday...
1.37am... gwen wished my happy bday...
7.20am... reached school...
7.25am... kaiying followed by sharon wished me happy bday...
8-9am... realised my chem results r inproving... sth 2 be happy abt...
9-10am... gp vocab test... got 14/20 despite not studying...
10-10.30am... gong wei wif d guys... jackie wished me happy bday...
10.30-11.30am... did well 4 physics quiz... very encouraging 4 upcoming block test...
11.30-12.30pm... ct held in hall... helped fold dance n SS flyers... tio sabo-ed by guys during skit... but it was quite fun...
12.30-2.00pm... mrs tay on mc... so free period... discuss abt dinner n dance as well as class outing @ sentosa after block test... great bonding between d class!
2.00-3.00pm... class celebrated my bday in canteen... sang me a bday song... gave me bday card n a black shirt... love them! Tc smashed cake on my face... tis was d 1st time in my life 2 tio smashed by cake! 'Fun' experience though!
3.00-4.00pm... had lunch wif tc... saw kaiying n xianmin... xianmin wished me happy bday...
4.00-5.00pm... helped gwen n peu tie dance banners... fun ga jiao-ing them... =P
5.00-5.45pm... helped tc fold flyers again... nice gong wei-ing wif d guys...
5.45-7.45pm... dance rehearsal 4 cca bazaar... it's always fun dancing hip-hop together wif d guys... d gals sang me bday song after rehearsal... had 2 make do wif unlighted candle... aloy put on 'make-up' on my face wif cream... although dirty... it's once a yr... so feeling kinda fun too! D guys n kaiying gave me a present- d shirt i fancy!
7.45-9pm... had a B-rank mission... was damn exhausted after d mission... but it was worthwhile in d end... continued rehearsing d dance wif d guys... One word- enjoying!
9-11pm... reached home... family wished me happy bday... sang me a bday song... had cake 4 supper... mum gave me an ang bao... said i've grown up... greater responsibility in d future... hope everything goes smoothly 4 me in d future...
11-12am... recalling wat had happened today... i am really deliriously happy... so here i am blogging... feeling d urge 2 share my happiness wif u all! I muz really say out loud tt... I will never forget this special day- my 18th birthday!!!

2007-03-04T00:24:00.000+08:00

I'm back bloggin after 1 week le!!! Yea!!! Anw... i got STM... so forgive me if i miss out anything 4 d past 1 week k???

Saturday.
Met up wif d guys @ amk seoul garden at evening...
Aloy owed us a treat... so he treat us $10 each! =)
But in d end each of us had 2 pay $10+ more... cos weekday more ex... =X
Tio food poisoning a few days back...
But still ga ga 吃个痛快!!! =P

We chiong-ed 4 meats... cos all r meat lovers!!!
I love beefs... so i took a very large scoop of beefs n finished them all!
D rest chiong-ed 4 chicken meats... prawns... n many more!!!
After we felt d food at d brim of our thoats...
Lao da gerald n aloy played SMACK THAT!!!
They took turns 2 put scallops into d soup...
D one who makes d soup spill over d bowl will get smack!

Up next... it's ice-cream time!!!
Each of us were 'appointed' 2 eat many scoops of ice-cream...
In descending order of whoeva has 2 eat d most scoops...
Aloy... me... tc n lao da... gerald... ys...
In d end... in descending order of whoeva ate d most scoops...
Gerald... lao da... ys... aloy... me... tc!!!
WA!!! I was really at my limit le... couldn't eat anymore...
One more scoop of ice-cream is enough 2 make me PUKE le!!! =X

After d meal... all of us slowly walked 2 my hse...
We juz slacked there n watched tv...
D guys were rather captivated by... Polar Express!!!
Tio suan-ed by d guys again when watching tis movie... =.=
Haizzz... i tink tis is a norm le ba...

We played a game @ seoul garden n lao da won...
Result??? We all had 2 get smack by him!!! =X
So ya... no public humiliation... d punishment was held in my room!!!
One after one went 2 receive their death sentence...
When it was my turn...
Executioner: "How hard u want it 2 be?"
Me: " Do as u deem fit!" (sounded steady... but inside shivering! =X)

PAAAAAAAA!!!!!! (reverberation...)
... ... n i felt my ass burning!!!
Woohoo~!!! Pain sia...
Anw... tc was next!!!
He wrestled wif lao da n accidentally injured lao da's nose...
So we dun expect lao da 2 手下留情!!!
So ya... lao da concentrated all his chakra at his hand before giving tc a good smack!!! =P

Sunday.
Ehh??? Wat happened on sunday ar???
How come i dun rmb anything???
Hahaha... paiseh ar... go on 2 monday ba...

Monday.
Dexter's birthday celebration after school.
Tc n hong siang smashed d cake on dexter's face! =P
He went around chasing ppl n tried 2 smashed ppl wif cake as well!
One by one tio d cake...
2 play safe... i stood quite a distance from him...

Juz as i let my guard down... cos i tot he was tired n stopped playin le...
He pointed at me n said... " alvin... U!!!"... n chased after me straightaway!
I was like... wth man...
But no time 2 tink... i juz ran as fast as i can...
In d end i managed 2 shake him off!
HU~~~... heng ar...
Pray hard tt i wont get smashed by cake on my bday next week!!! =X

Tuesday.
Early release today.
Rushed 2 amk kbox immediately wif decent trio! =)
Kickstart wif quite many JJ lin's songs as usual...
Dunno y tc was not in d mood 2 sing... quite unexpected of him...
So ya... me n ys sang quite alot of songs...
I sang until i really lost my voice again... =X
Observed 'something'... tink we'll go there sing again ar??? =P

Wednesday.
Sex education during assembly...
It was quite enriching...
I understood more abt how 2 prevent STI as well as some of d problems faced by young ppl in today's society...
Anw... we were being shown a few videos... which i find it rather hilarious! =P
Bottomline... or shld i say my stand is... NO premarital sex!

SS meeting after tt...
Did an experiment which dint turn out 2 be successful... =(
Dismissed early at 5pm... n went 2 dance after tt...
As usual... we refined our movements 4 d syf dance...
I accidentally twisted my left knee... =(
After tt had 2 rush home...
But had 2 wait so long 4 d bus until wanteng came...
After awhile saw d guys kaiying n huichun standing behind... =.=
They alighted earlier 2 go prata hse... while me n wanteng alighted after 2 bus stops ...
Took bus 159 n went home...

Thursday.
Went 2 library n did some work before d guys went 2 danny's cny celebration...
Reached tanjong pagar mrt station... n aloy led d way...
In d end he was too distracted n we got lost...
Nevertheless we still managed 2 find our way there...

Upon reaching there... i was quite taken aback 2 c tt d building was pretty old...
We walked up 2 d 4th storey n finally saw danny's company...
Before we went in... we peered in n saw many gals! =X
Omg man... all of them wore very nicely... while we juz wore school uniform!
Sooo malu la!!! =X

We really felt very paiseh when stepping into d place...
We realised it's really ALL gals except danny n his assistance la!!!
Danny welcomed us... n we juz made it in time 2 'lao yu sheng'...
After tt... we all were famished...
So we heck care liao... juz took as many food as we can!!! =P
We sat down at a corner 2 eat n chit chat...

We went 4 a few more rounds of food until we were really quite full le...
We were somehow feeling weird...
Maybe there's too many unfamiliar faces n gals were all around us!
Anw... danny introduced some of his gals students from other sec schools 2 us! =X
I guess we'll get 2 noe them in d near future ba... as wat danny has said...

Stayed back awhile n watched some of his works...
After tt he brought us 2 his office n studio...
Finally get 2 大开眼界 le!!!
Saw some of his trophies n achievements...
His office is really quite conducive 2 work...
D ambience is nice too!

Chatted awhile wif him before we went off...
Haizzz... we were 30min late sia...
If not things may be different now... hahaha... =P
Anw... we went 2 serangoon station...
Exchanged many pointers... before i went home... =)

Friday.
Release of 'A' Level results...
NY did very well tis time round!!! Hooray!!!
Congrats Lao da 4 getting 4 A's!!! He's sooo zai la...
Congrats Eric 4 getting 2 A's n 1 B... so close in goin up d stage!
Congrats all those who got 3A's n more de...
For those who dint do tt well... still hope u can get into d course u desire!

Release of Chinese 'A' level result...
I got B...
I can't believe it...
I was too stunned 2 say anything...
Never in my life did i get B 4 my most confident subject-chinese...
Never a time i scored lower den 70 for chinese...
I'm totally lost 4 words...
I simply juz couldn't take it...

When i called my mum n told her my result...
She couldn't believe it... n told me not 2 joke...
I really dunno wat 2 say...
Cos even i oso can't believe it...
It's... ... juz a massive blow 4 me...

Come 2 tink of it... i'm very worried of my other subjects...
I was 99.9% sure of getting A for chinese after doin d paper...
But in d end... ... ... ...
If i can't even get A for my most confident subject...
Wat abt d rest of d subjects???

Haizzz... i've finally felt how tough JC life n standard is le...
Well... no point brooding over tis setback...
I muz pick myself up n STUDY!!!
I muz really start mugging hard le!!!
For my aim now... it's STUDY STUDY n STUDY!!!

D motivation 2 study comes from within myself...
I will work extremely hard from now on le...
I'll mug twice as hard le...
Tis is my challenge 2 myself...
I will go up 2 d stage n receive d cert from mr kwek next yr de...
N i'm confident i can do it de!!!

Dance training after tt...
Not in d mood 2 dance...
Cos tio affected by bad 'A' level result... n was feeling unwell...
Was feeling alright initially...
But midway thru doin barwork...
I suddenly felt my legs were shaky n wobbly...
I tink it's most probably i dint take my medicines today...
So my food poisoning effects start 2 发作 le... =X
Sux sia... i still haven't fully recover from it... =(

Anw... d condition of my left knee aggravated...
I was limping throughout d whole training...
I guess i did well tis time round by not showing it obviously...
Halfway thru... my food poisoning effects became more jailut...
I started 2 feel very giddy...
But nvm... i still perservere...
Mind over body!!!

Managed 2 endure after d training!!! Yea!!! =)
Went wif d guys kaiying n huichun 2 amk mos after training...
We sat at 2 tables... 1 table guys talk... 1 table gals talk...
After a short while... aloy went off 1st 2 settle some stuff...
Den d gals went off cos it was quite late le...
Me tc n gerald gong wei while walking 2 d bus stop...
D guys talk was nice!!! =)
Went home after tt...

Saturday.
Woke up at 1pm today!!!
Wa... i slept for 12 hrs sia...
I tink i was really too tired 4 d past few days le ba...
Cos i only slept 4 an average of 4hrs per day!

Attempted a few tutorial qns n went 2 cut hair in d evening...
After tt went out wif mum n sis 2 causeway point 4 dinner...
Went 2 J8 later...
My sis bought me my birthday present in advanced!!! =)
Went home n slacked throughout...
Watched liverppol vs man utd...
Result??? man utd won 1-0!!!
Yea... aloy n gerald dun feel sad k??? =P

So ya... i muz start 2 gear up 4 d upcoming block test le!!!
Alvin... it's time 2 study!!! Dun slack anymore le!!!

One stone kills 2 birds...
That's wat u generally call a well-plan move...
When a well-plan move is executed...
U would expect a success...

In a battlefield... things are different...
Terms like "well-plan move"..."success" would not be used...
"兵不厌诈"..."victory" would be used instead...

In a battlefield... victory is the most important...
To win... some resort 2 despicable means n hypocrisy while some won by earning others' respect...
Usually...the former would win... but not 4 long...
The subjects would be able 2 differentiate good from evil at the end of the day...
In the end it's still good triumph over evil...
Ultimately the latter will win...

Sometimes... when a war has started...
There are bounded 2 have some casualties...
The sinister leader would bend on gaining victory regardless of the amount of blood shed...
The good leader would would want 2 minimise the amount of bloodshed...
The subjects is able 2 differentiate between the good n sinister leader easliy...

However... sometimes when a war is declared...
Only the 2 leaders n their soldiers are prepared n have put on guard...
The subjects are still innocent n oblivious...
Plannings n strategies are already in the pipeline... ready to be carried out anytime...
The sinister leader would resort 2 any underhand means to win...
Even at the expense of taking away innocent lives...
Or attacking the closed ones of the good leader...

The good leader would not want 2 see a war if there is other way out...
But there is no other alternatives left...
The sinister leader has already made his move...
The closed ones of the good leader are already being targetted...
The good leader can't bear 2 see anyone being landed into the hands of the evil...
He must do something 2 stop this from happening...

To win this war without sacrifices made n lives being taken away...
The good leader has 2 sway the mindset of the subjects of the sinister leader into believing tt their leader is evil...
He has 2 make the subjects turn against the sinister leader n gain their support...

However... he knows it is an uphill task...
Cos the sinister leader has been treating his subjects well...
Under his control... taxes were low n incomes were high...
But never did his subjects realised how ambitious n crafty their leader is...
They continued 2 give him their full support...
It is almost impossible 2 expose how evil their leader is...
Until the day the sinister leader execute his plan...

But when tt day ever comes... it'll be too late...
So the good leader is trying very hard 2 preempt this n stop this from happening...
But will he make it time 2 stop the sinister leader from executing his plan???
Will the subjects come 2 realise it sooner themselves???
Will good ever truimph over evil???
Will light eat away the darkness???

2007-02-24T13:07:00.000+08:00

Wednesday.
Feeling sick...but still went 2 school...
I was last min been informed tt dance training was cancelled... =.=
So ya...after school stayed back 4 SS meeting until 6.30pm...
Realised tt many things are needed 2 be ironed out...
Many things are still left undone 4 Sciesta...

Once again...i find myself not doin a good job as d game ic...
Only 5 out of 12 games are approved...
So how? Hav 2 come up wif 7 more games by hook or by crook by next meeting...

CCA bazaar... 2 weeks from now...
Hav 2 make preparation 4 SS as well as dance...
Block test... 3 weeks from now...
Hav 2 start revision le...
SYF... April...
Hav 2 practise n train harder 2 achieve gold...
Sciesta... June...
Hav 2 be in charged of d games...
Once screw up... school reputation will be affected...
SS may hav 2 close down too...

There are simply juz too many important things tt are needed 2 be done...
But i'll still persevere n fight on...
I shall face all d challenges posed 2 me bravely...
I believe i can do it... n i will treat all tis challenges as catalyst 2 my success in life!!! =)

This shall be d 1st step tt i'm taking towards my success in life...

Thursday.
Slept at 8pm ytd!!!
I tink i was really too tired le...
Woke up at 6.15am n i realised tt i dint touch my chem tutorial! =X
Worst still... today got chem ionic equilibria test!!!
Siao liao... dint study...

Chiong-ed 2 school n study before assembly started...
Skipped break n managed 2 study finished juz in time...
I tink i scanned through instead of study ba...=X
Anw... d chem test wasn't easy though...
But i tink i shld be able 2 pass tis time round! =)

After school... we guys including lao da went my hse again...
We played a little bit of mahjong!
Aiyo... tc plays very slow sia...
Hahaha... can't blame him... cos he juz learnt how 2 play!

After tt ys went home 4 dinner 1st...
While we guys played dai di...
We bet money... table 50 cents... each card 10 cents...
I tink tis is d market rate ba... which is quite xiong...
As in u can either win alot or lose big time! =X

So ya... lao da watched us play as he claims tt he quit gambling...=.=
At 1st... i lost quite jialut... aloy won d most...
After 1hr... lady luck started 2 look 4 yandao le...
So ya... i managed 2 recover my losses n started winning!!!
Tc won a few dollars... den had 2 go home...
WA! Luckily he played wif us... if not he'll sure get seh when playing wif ousiders de!

After tc left...lao da said tt he wanted 2 help aloy recover his losses...
So he took over tc n play...
Aiya...lao da... i noe actually is ur hands very itchy rit??? hahaha =P
Anw...lao da gave all his winnings 2 aloy...
But aloy overall still lost! =X

Well... actually all d guys dint lose...
Cos they got d ang bao money from my mum 2 recover alrd lor!
Haizzz... i've failed my mum...
Although i've won... i still dint manage 2 win their ang bao money back!

"Smack That" game.
Feeling bored... we guys tried playing some lame games using poker cards...
Noe wat???We came up wif a new Smack That game!!! =P
The one who picked 2 smallest card will be smacked 3 times!
The second smallest being smacked twice...
The person wif d largest card gets 2 smack all d ppl!

*Ding ding ding*
1st 10 rounds... SMACK hands...
We wanted 2 play relax... not until lao da smack us man...
I can tell u ar... lao da's smack will really make u feel like Woohoo~!
So ya... we guys started playing more n more hiong le...
We really exert lots of strength when smacking!
In d end our hands were all red n swollen!!! =X

Next round... SMACK ears...
Again... we were very scared of lao da...
Wheneva he got hold of d biggest card...
I was tinking "God bless me"... "菩萨保佑"... "(malay words)"... " (curly curly handwriting... if u get wat i mean...=P)"
I juz any pray 2 all d gods since i'm a free thinker! =P

Last round... SMACK That!
In chinese... 打屁屁! =P
We were all prayin 2 get d biggest card...
Once again... d lady luck was on yandao's side...
N i got d biggest card! 谢天谢地 man!!! =P
Lao da got d 2nd biggest card...
So ya... i said my last word 2 aloy n gerald!!! hahaha =P

I used 80% of my strength 2 smack d 3 of them...
They were alrd like WooHoo~~~!
Up next...更不用说了... lao da is d man...
I tink he used twice d amount of strength 2 smack them la!!!
"OHHH... poor aloy n gerald... tt got 2 hurt!"
Well... his smack still not too hard la...
Only can hear d impact of his smack reverberate in my room nia... HAHAHA... =P
Anw... we guys gong wei wif my mum abit until abt 11.30pm before they went home...

Friday.
Was pissed wif tc... cos he anyhow drew "things" on my file as well as my lect note... =.=
Haizzz... well... cannot be angry wif a kid...
小孩子不懂事就要教... hahaha...=P
So ya...as usual... i forgive him... =)

Dance training.
Danny made quite alot of changes 2 d syf piece...
D changes were generally alright...
Except tt d part where me n aloy hav 2 do a baby freeze after carrying d gals...
We had 2 lift our legs up within 2 beats... which is very fast la!
In the end... our right ears were very painful due 2 d impact of balancing our bodies wif our heads within 1 beat!

D usual clique went 4 supper @ central macs after training...
Tc treated d gals sia...
I caught a glimpse of charlie at tt moment... =P
Anw after eating it was very late le...
So we went home...

Some ppl are juz too good at taking advantage of d situation...
I can't believe how can a person be so 'zai' tt he/she can even take advantage in a mkb place...
He/she has alrd been taken advantage of n yet dun noe tt he/she is being taken advantaged...
No matter he/she is oblivious anot...
The person sure is some professional ar???
Or maybe the person specialised in this area???
Is it possible 2 advice tis kind of person 2 change his/her specialised field of area???

2007-02-19T22:56:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

除夕
Went 2 paternal grandfather hse in d morning 2 bai nian...
Received quite a few ang bao... =)
No mood 2 gamble...so juz sat together wif my sis at d whole...
Dun wanna waste my time listening 2 mp3...
I decided 2 spend my time more wisely...
That is doin homework!!!

Omg man... i can't imagine myself doin hw on tis day la...
Tis was my 1st time ever sia... =X
Anw... managed 2 complete maths tutorial 13b despite all d noise pollution generated by d mahjong game!

Later... walked 2 d nearby hougang point wif my family 2 walk walk abit...
I saw where gerald lives... n wanted 2 pay him a visit...
But i need 2 rush 2 my maternal grandfather's hse...
So ya... dint go in the end... =(
Haizzz... missed a chance... 2 receive ang baos! =P

Went 2 maternal grandfather hse after tt...
Norm... received some ang bao n well wishes!
Played dai di wif my adult relatives...
Noe wat???
I won 40 over dollars la!!! Happy happy... =)
I broke my last yr's record of winning $30!!! =)
Hehehe... i tink i 靠 dai di 混口饭吃 ba! =P

After tt... i continued doin maths homework!
I watched soccer matches while doin hw...
So i tink i spent my time quite wisefully ar? =P
Managed 2 finished my maclaurin's series holiday assignment!
*smile smile*
I'm sooo satisfied wif myself la...
I seriously tink my level of discipline has gone up le!!! =)

初一
Being forced 2 wake up early in d morning...
1st thing when i opened my eyes... my parents gave me a look...
I juz said happy new year...
Den i got a $100 ang bao...
Hahaha... i tink tts my family's culture ba... =P

Wore my new clothes today...
I muz say i looked really COOL la!!!
A pity i can't show my photo here...
If not u all sure 被迷死 de!!! =P

Went paternal grandfather's hse 1st...
Received more ang bao... =)
Played reversi n some other games wif my sis 2 while away time...
Was feeling very bored later...
My sis went 2 sleep... while i attempted doin a few maths qns! =X

Went 2 my maternal grandfather's hse next...
Ate dinner there... den my sis suggested playing bball!
But my cousins n relatives all playing mahjong...
So my dad came up wif another suggestion...
That is 2 go KBox!!!

Oh yea... tts an even better idea 2 while away time man...
So ya... KBox @ hougang plaza from 6 to 9pm!
I sang so many songs tt i lost count...
I sang many new songs!
林俊杰“一千年以后”，　“原来”，　“忘记”， “Sarang Heyo”
周杰伦“枫”，　“龙卷风”，　“白色风车”，　“她的睫毛”，“困兽之斗”
王力宏　“心中的日月”，　“你不在”
蔡冥佑　“我可以”，　“反不完的夏天”，　“我想要说”
翼势力　“Shalala"
五月天　“超人”，　“听不到”，　“天使”
Tank “专属天使”，　“我们小时候”，　“三国恋”　
信乐团　“一了百了”
石康军　“火光”
Songs tt i really really like alot! =)
Songs tt are really really challenging! =X
　
I tink tts all ba... hahaha... =)
My sis n dad sang quite many songs too!
My sis can sing quite well...
So she chose 张韶涵，梁静如，杨丞琳 & S.H.E. songs ba!　
At d end of d day i lost my voice again! =X

初二
Did nth today... cos finished bai nian liao!
Yea!!! No need go grandparents hse le...
Seriously ar... it's really rather sian 2 go there la...
I always feel quite restricted during CNY de...
So ya... happy happy! =)

Went out wif my mum n sis 2 Vivocity... while dad went 2 his mum hse 2 play dai di...
Had Superdog 4 lunch... n d fries is Superrr nice la!!!
Many shops were not opened...
Yet there was very crowded...
Headed down 2 PS 4 dinner instead...
Gong wei n gossiped on my way home... =X

Planned 2 do some work... but i was really tired...
So i decided 2 take one day leave off from work!
Juz take it as 奖励奖励 myself ba! =)
So ya... watched Hitch & Wars Of The World on HBO at night...
So here i am bloggin... feeling very happy cos i felt tt i've really spent my time well during CNY!!! =)
Kk... gonna go watch d “就是俊杰演唱会” which i've taped down in d afternoon!
Before i go... 4 those reading my blog now...
I wish u all 恭喜发财... and 红包拿来!!! =P

2007-02-16T23:01:00.000+08:00

I was really too busy recently sia... n had no time 2 use com...
Well... guess i'll blog once every week le... no choice...
Sorry 4 any inconvenience caused!!! =X

Monday.
Stayed back after sch 4 dance 'rehearsal'...
Difficult 2 dance... cos d ground is really too rough!
Crapped wif d guys most of d time during d 'rehearsal'...
Again... we were reminded of words we loathe... =.=
Wanteng was feeling unwell n went home...
Danced till 7.30pm before i went home 4 dinner...

Tuesday.
Actual day of dance performance in front of whole school! =X
Woke up superrr early at 5.45am to make preparations...
Me aloy n gerald were like deadman walking...
We were simply juz too exhausted...
I slept 4 barely 3 hrs last night!!! =X
Tc was late...

We were afraid of light 4 d 1st time in our lives...
Cos we were wearing tights...
N ppl can see us clearer when d sky grew brighter!
It was sooo malu la!!! =X

Assembly started... n we were d 1st to perform...
Siao liao... i kept smiling ar... cannot control... hahaha...
Showed floorwork n abit of SYF dance...
Feedbacks? We were rather messy... maybe not enough pratices ba...
Will jiayou next time de!!! =)

Went out wif d guys after school 2 buy Valentine's gifts...
We went Tanglin Mall 1st... bought some chocs...
Later went J8 to buy more gifts...
I got quite alot of 'shou huo'... =X
Well... wat i spent was within my budget!!! =)

Next stop- Amk Hub.
Bought more stuffs there...
After tt... d guys need some advices...
So they wisely went my hse 2 seek consultation from my mum!!!
They gained alot of insights at d end of d day...
Clearer of d path tt they shld be taking in d future le...
Guess d advices really do help them 2 sort out their tinking! =)
Tc was still adamant n chose not 2 heed my mum's advice... =.=
Prepared gifts 4 dansez-le till 1+am before i turn in 2 sleep... zzz...

Wednesday.
Happy Valentine's Day!!! =)
Overslept... Chiong-ed 2 school 2 meet lao da...
Passed all d gifts tt i've prepared 2 him before school...
Again... i slept during GP lesson... =P
The guys ponned lessons after 1st break n went lao da's hse...
As usual... me n ys r serious abt studies n stayed in school...

Went lao da's hse after reading programme...
After settling some stuffs... i went 4 SS meeting...
I was quite late... n quickly find d teachers n discussed wif them abt my tasks...
Haizzz... caught in d middle between dance n SS...
Both sides seem 2 be unhappy wif me... =(

Had a serious talk... before d teachers finally allowed me 2 go at 5pm...
But not before i gave my presentation...
In d end my presentation was not well done...
Teacher was very angry wif our performance...
Badly reprimanded by him...
I was pissed tis time round... cos i really got do my work...
Yet he felt tt i dint do enough... =.=

Once again... late 4 dance...
Dint do proper warm-up... so movements were not good...
Haizzzz... very disappointed wif myself...
Somehow felt tt my poor performances affected d gals...
Really sorry abt it if tts d case ppl...

Anw... many gals were very emo n cried...
Hope they can cheer up...
Dun feel so stress k... we r together!!!

Was pissed abt sth... so trashed things out wif michelle later...
Understand how she felt...
Next time got anything juz tell me straight in d face...

After training... had a very serious talk wif mrs koh for 1hr...
Told her abt d problems i'm facing right now...
Basically... d problems are 四面楚歌...
Family... Studies... Dance... SS...
I was really glad tt she understands my situation...
She really helped me analyse my situation well...
Gave me loads of advices... n dared me 2 take up all d challenges i'm facing now...
Said she'll support n defend me all d way...
Said tt i will go far... treat tis as a chance 2 'mo lian' my time management...
I was somewat clearer of d path i shld be taking le...
Although it's really tough... i'll try...
I respect her 4 she is really very zai...
Thanks mrs koh! =)

Teik's birthday celebration in advanced after dance...
Had macs for celebration...
Had lots of fun 'gong-wei' using codes! =P
Created some chances... dun really noe how thing goes...
Took same bus wif wanteng home...
So engrossed in toking until i dunno i've reached my stop! =X

Thursday.
Dint do any hw last night...
Was totally not prepared 4 lessons today...
Slept awhile during chem lect... =X
Folded paper cranes during common lunch break...
Supposed 2 be d whole class... but in d end only 5-6 guys folding nia...
Being a kind soul... i folded d paper cranes despite my butt was numbed! hahaha... =P

After school met up wif d guys n gong wei again...
Again... they went my hse...
Tis time round ys really need advice... so he went my hse too!
He n aloy were enlightened... while tc still chose 2 live in denial... =.=
Hope he can wake up from his dreamland one day...
My mum cooked maggie mee 4 them...
Played some fortune telling game again...
Tis time round i was more satisfied wif d outcome...
Although still got gay fantasy... at least it was not as gay as last time! =)
Consultation till arnd 11pm before they went home...
Feeling rather hopeful~! =)

Friday.
Maths lecture w/o lecture note today...
Relived d old era... =.=
Bball 4 PE... played 2 my heart's content! =)
Clarbear dislocated his left arm again...
Know tt he cannot be involved in any vigorous activities le...
Hope his arm can fully recover!

CNY celebration in d hall after tt...
One word- Disappointing!!!
D whole performance was sooo disorganised n unprepared...
Supposed 2 be a happy occasion...
Yet mr kwek kept bio-ing we guys... waiting 4 a chance 2 catch us toking...
In d end we can't even chit chat properly sia... =.=

We guys went 2 marina square 2 catch Ghost Rider after much delay...
Sneeked BK meals inside d cinema!!! =P
D show was not as nice as wat i expect...
D buildup was nice... but d climax was abit disappointing...
D fighting scenes were too short le...
Actually it wasn't even a fight... it was simply pure ownage man!
Well... tis show is not boring... juz tt it did not meet my expectation...
Rating? 3-4 /5 stars ba... hahaha...

Met up wif my mum n sis 4 dinner at J8...
Gong wei wif them...
Went home after tt...

Tml is CNY's eve le...
Reunion dinner tml~!!!
Hereby wishing u all a very happy Chinese New Year!!! =)
Hope u all can receive alots of 'ang bao' n best of luck 4 ur future endeavour in gambling!!! =P

心想事成，万事如意！
新年快乐！！！
＝）

2007-02-11T15:28:00.000+08:00

Enlightened!!!

There r simply juz too many unpleasant things tts happening recently...
So many tt i was feeling very emo lately...
But thankfully during this period of time i had a group of ppl who is always there 2 cheer me up!
So ya... i've gained enlightenment during d past few days...
Emo post no more!!! =)
(U shall c more of tis smily face in my future post le!)

Tuesday.
Sch ended early... so d decent trio had a gift outing...
1st... we went orchard...
After tt... we went J8...
Tc bought a gift... while me n ys were hesitant...
But at d end of d day it was still fruitful!!! =)

Wednesday.
SS meeting before dance training...
Tio reprimanded by my SS teacher like shit 4 not doin anything 4 Sciesta...
Somemore i'm d game IC sia...
So ya... feeling very irresponsible... cos i noe tired n busy r not excuses...

Flu + Kena scolding = Extreme Emo.
Tried very hard 2 hide my unhappiness...
But d feeling was juz too immense...
So ya... no matter how hard i tried 2 focus...
It was apparent 2 all tt i was not in any mood 2 dance...
Paiseh again... dansez-le...

Thursday.
Me, tc, aloy n gerald went 2 amk after sch n wanted 2 buy tights...
But we juz couldn't find one...
In d end we managed 2 buy a present 4 ys!
After dinner... they went my hse 2 'study'... =.=

I really want 2 study de... but wif them arnd ar... Haizzz...
Tc insisted watching Saw 2... while aloy wanted 'Smack That'!
In d end only watched 1st disc of Saw 2... n watch abit of 'Smack That'...
So it was still fair i supposed... hahaha... =P

Surprisingly... i managed 2 study finished maths lecture test despite all d noises! =X
We 'gong wei' until 11pm before they went home...
Nice 'gong wei-ing' ar... hahaha... =P

Friday.
HaPPy bIRthDay YS!!!
I was kinda surprised when d class bought him a condom n boxes! =X
Anw... d guys n kaiying bought him a blue water bottle...
His face got smashed wif cakes...
Hope 1 month later i won't tio man... =X

After sch... sth happened 2 my sis...
I was so worried tt i almost rush down 2 her sch...
On my way there mum told me she was safely back home...
So ya... was very relieved 2 hear tt...
But was still worried 4 her...

Dance training.
Finally did barwork after being late for 3 consecutive trainings...
Luckily flexibility still there... hahaha...
Anw... while doin stretching on floor... d gals helped we guys 2 stretch...
N there was "CTE" n "God bless me" goin on everywhere la!!! lolz... =)

After training... went wif d guys, kaiying, huichun, teikling, peu n surprisingly wanteng... 2 a coffeeshop near central 4 supper...
Had 2 go home 2 check on my sis... so i went off earlier wif tc, kaiying, huichun n wanteng...
On d way 2 bus stop... kaiying was like a timebomb! =X
Lets c who's d middleman ar??? hahaha... =P

I took same bus wif kaiying n huichun home... while tc n wanteng took d other bus home...
On d bus we discussed some case studies...
N i really gained alot of insights from it!
I finally understand abt how gals tink n d way 2 go abt jio-ing gals le!
Aiyo... i realised tt everything was too late le... =X
In any way... i had a nice chat! =)

Saturday.
Went out wif mum 2 Vivocity 2 buy things...
Joined d guys at TP 2 buy tights after tt...
We finally managed 2 buy tights at d end of d day!
Actually it was damn ex de... but luckily gerald worked there previously...
So we got special discount! =)

Tc had 2 rush back 2 celebrate his neighbour's birthday...
So tt left me, aloy, gerald n lao da at amk macs...
Again... we 'gong wei'...
I seriously enjoyed d 'gong wei' process... n i tink we spent 2 hrs 'gong wei'!!! =X

I gained more insights yet again le... n started 2 understand more theories le... hahaha...

1st... "Fish" theory.
There r many types of fishes...
Some fishes play dead... (wa... i'll rmb tis gerald...)
Some r edible... like groupers n abalones...
Some r inedible... like piranhas n stone fish...
D edible fishes make ur day...
While d inedible fishes dampen ur mood...

Some r edible but risky 2 eat...
Eg 1. It's either u eat d shark's fin or u get eaten by d sharks...
Eg 2. It's either u get d pearl in d clam or ur hand get clamped by it...
U may not know d result until u try...
But are u willing 2 take d risk?

2nd... "Soccer Analysis".
Tis theory really causes alot of emotions sia...

1st scenario... Singapore vs Laos.
Sometimes once d match is over... it cannot be salvaged...
There's no more 2nd leg... d result is final... 1 team suffered a major defeat...

2nd scenario... Unexpected lost.
Imagine ur team is playing against a team of strength on par wif Laos in d 1st half... n ur team is having a comfortable lead...
Suddenly... d opposite team made some substitutions n u realised tt they hav yet 2 field their main players...
All their players are of equal strength as Barcelona...
U got thrashed badly in d end...

Some r friendly matches...
Some matches r posponed...
Some matches r suspended...
Some matches r still on goin... results r still unknown... (nabei... i'll rmb tt man aloy...=P)
Some matches hav yet completed... there's still 2nd leg...
Some matches r only "rehearsals"...(aloy... does it rings a bell? =P)

Wateva it is... d result of d match remains unknown until d match ended...

3rd... Ladder theory.
Tis is a very interesting theory...
2 ladders- Friendship n love
There's a gap in between them...
To advance from friends 2 couple...
The guy muz jump from d friendship ladder 2 d love ladder...
However... if d guy did not grap d love ladder...
He will fall into abyss...

Sometimes... d guy is climbing up d friendship ladder until he reaches d top...
But he dunno if he shld make a jump 2 d love ladder...
D jump contains some element of risks...
It's either he managed 2 hold on 2 d love ladder...
Or he will fall into d abyss...
Shld he try???

Sometimes after he jumped...
He felt tt he has grapped onto a bar at d bottom of d ladder...
However... his mind went blank after he jumped...
He dunno which ladder he's holding on to now...
Friendship ladder- he has 2 start climbing all over again...
Love ladder- he has advance 2 d next stage...

Every gal has 2 ladders... but they varies from one 2 d other...
Some ladders r parallel...
Some ladders r 'V shaped'...
Tis means tt d better d guy knows d gal as friends... d harder it is 4 d gal 2 like him...
Some ladders r 'inverted V shaped'...
Tis means tt d gal will accept d guy if only they knows each other very well as friends...

For guys... there's only 1 ladder...
But i can't really rmb tis theory... hahaha... =X

I'm only explaining d main part of d Ladder theory...
There's even more types of ladders n explainations...
Juz tt if i were 2 explain everything... I dunno how long i'll take 2 finish tis post!

Anw... we met up wif tc after tt...
Finally managed 2 c his dad le... hahaha...
We went in amk hub n walk walk abit before tc joined his family...
While d rest went my hse 2 watch soccer...
We played d fortune telling game again le...
Wa~...i was damn suay sia...
D results always showed tt i gay wif aloy... eeewww... =X
We tried different methods... but all ended up were either gay or lesbian fantasy! =X
We had lots of laughters until 11.45pm before they left...

Sunday.
Went out wif mum in d morning 2 TP...
Attended mum's lecture on bus as well as at KouFu...
Wa... she really enlightened me sia...
She is really sooo zai in her analysis la...
Her "三十年之谈" is really very enlightening...

If there is a test on case study ar...
I tink she will undoubtedly get full marks...
Cos i only told her abit nia... den she can elaborate everything clearly...
Wat i admired d most is tt wat she predicted really happened la!!!
I'm really loss 4 words...

At d end of d day... she gave me her advice...
I finally noe d route i shld be taking from now on le...
4 now i'm enlightened...
Thanks alot mum...
U're indeed my best advisor!!! =)
HAHAHA!!!

Floorwork during d morning assembly on tuesday!!!
Wear tight tights in front of whole sch somemore!
So malu~~~ =X

2007-02-05T20:10:00.000+08:00

Thinking back... many things were different in d past...
All d things arnd us juz evolved so quickly...
Some were gone...
Some are new...
Some are still staying strong...
Some are still improving...

I wonder...

-A&W fast food restaurant
I rmb-ed tt i would always go there 4 breakfast w/o fail when i was in primary sch...
D food there was really great... d tot of it now makes me drool...
How i wish i can eat d food again...
But good things never last...
It was closed down quite a few years ago...
How i missed d waffle ice-cream n d breakfast!
Haizzz... no choice... had 2 settle 4 LJS or Burger King breakfast in d future...
But if given a choice... i still prefer A&W!
Does miracle happen?
Will A&W re-open again?
Maybe i shld stop dreaming...

-Yonex & Kawasaki rackets
I like playin badminton since sec 1...
Joined sch team... n eventually became 1 of d top players...
D rackets tt i like most were Yonex n Kawasaki rackets...
4 d inter-sch tournament... i bought a new Yonex racket...
However... Kawasaki no longer produced badminton rackets...
I felt tt they r no doubt my best weapons on court...
I can 'kill' anyone on court wif them...
They were really great!

Now... my weapons turned dusty... being dumped in my cupboard...
Although my Kawasaki racket is old... i believe it can shine one day when my skill is back...
Will my Yonex n Kawasaki rackets be able 2 shine one day?
That remains 2 be seen...

-NS
Haizzz... in d blink of an eye im goin 2 turn 18 in a few more months le...
Some maybe happy... cos they hav more freedom...
Like able 2 buy 4D n watching M18 movies...
But 4 me... or all d guys...
18 means tt i gotta go NS!

It's undoubtedly tt all guys hav 2 undergo NS...
But gals do not need 2...
I feel tt it's abit sian 2 waste our 2 impt years...

Dint really realise NS until now...
But i heard tt now NS is more relax le...
Cos many manual works were being replaced by new technology...
So will NS be continued?
Or will it be abolised in d future?

-GP
D subject im most worried abt is GP...
It's sth tts sooo new 2 me...
Initially when i entered jc... i dun even noe wat is GP...
Im totally new 2 tis subject...

However... after some time... im gradually more familiar wif it...
I'm currently coping well...
At least i've made some improvement from grade S to D...
So ya...
Will put in alot of efforts 2 improve my GP...
But i wonder if my GP grade can improve further...

-Amk & St. Gabriel's Secondary
Scored only 221 for PSLE...
Applied Amk sec d 1st choice n St.Gabriel's sec d 3rd choice...
In the end... i got into St. Gabriel's sec...
D cut-out point was 231 for St. Gabriel's sec...
So i really dint expect myself 2 enter tt sch!

Amk sec was only a stone's throw away from my hse...
Somemore it's my ideal sch...
So i was kinda disappointed when i dint enter d sch...

Was kinda reluctant 2 go St.Gabriel's initially...
But after some time... i realised it was quite good...
Maybe i started 2 understand n know more abt d sch le ba...
So ya... like d sch more n more...
I find tt St. Gabriel's sec is a good sch... not losing out 2 Amk sec...
Now... both d schools r doin quite fine...
Wonder if they can produced excellence result in d future...

2007-02-05T19:48:00.000+08:00

Breakfast wif d decents before sch starts...
Had a proper guys talk at long last...
I was feeling kinda down... which only d decents will know y...
Had pratas again...
N huichun joined us after tt...

Lecture Day...
Had quite a few lectures before chem lecture...
Received my chem test result...
As expected... i failed... =(
Now only hope tt i can pass physics le...

Maths tutorial after tt...
Scored 14/15 for d integration test...
Nth much 2 be happy abt cos it's a rather simple test...
Had a "fight" wif tc...
As usual... d kid used his pens n tried 2 poke me...
In d end we got caught by mrs lim... =X
Haizzz... tio sabo-ed sia... now mrs lim tinks im a naughty boy liao... =.=

Afternoon PE...
Had social dance... or shld i say... sissy dance...
Haizzz... all d guys regretted choosing social dance sia...
We tot it is quite fun de...
But it turned out 2 be sooo BORING la...
Especially dancing wif all guys...
One word - GAY! =X
We juz can't wait 4 d time 2 pass by quickly la!

Bball after PE...
All d bball courts were occupied...
We had 2 share half court wif some kids...
Played awhile before d PE classes ended at 5.30pm...

Decent trio n aloy formed 1 team...
Our group handicapped... n i oso no mood 2 play...
So we dint play well...
So ya... i tink we lost in d end...

Feeling very tired...
Not in d mood 2 do anything today...
Went home after tt...
On d bus... tot abt lots of stuffs tts weighing on my mind 4 d past few days...
Hope i can get over it soon... real soon...

Only know how 2 comfort n cheer others...
But when comes 2 cheering myself up...
I'm dunno how 2...

Only know how 2 hide things within myself...
In front of others i'm always alright... always wearing a smily face...
Which in fact deep down i'm feelin like shit...

Cheer up alvin cheer up...

2007-02-04T18:09:00.000+08:00

Wednesday

Physics test in d morning... tink i shld be able 2 pass...

Timing of dance training n ss meeting clashes again...
Had 2 turn up late 4 training yet again... very paiseh ar dansez-le...

Dance Training.
Mr. kwek n teachers were alrd there when i reached mpr...
Actually i would reach there even later if i dint say tt mr.kwek is having a talk 4 dance society...
My SS teacher-in-charged got no choice but 2 let me go when i said d magic word "Mr.Kwek"... =.=

Due 2 inadequate warm-ups... my body was not in d condition 2 dance...
As a result my movements n steps were all not ling huo...
Sorry if i hav affected d training in any ways...

Celebrated ck's birthday in canteen after training...
Ate cakes n pizzas...
Played scissors-paper-stone wif gerald...
Taught kaiying physics...
Sharon was feeling unwell n cried...
Hiphop danced wif d guys at d parade square... it was kinda fun n enjoying...
Took same bus wif wanteng home...
Reached home at 11.30pm n tio scolded by mum again...

Thursday

Science day... one word- BORING...

"The One" Qualifying Round.
Me, ys aloy n gerald went 2 d container n had 2 put up wif tc's singing before d competition starts...
Initially tc was nervous n had tots of qi quan...
In the end he went 2 d competition wif d guys backings n supports...
Applause 4 u dude... =)

Finally d competition started at 5.30pm sharp...
Recalled tt poh boon n gavin were one of d 1st few contestants who were d most impressive...
Wanteng joined d guys at abt 6pm after rushing there from home...
Kaiying n huichun joined us shortly after wanteng has reached...
The gals had a competition too... tt is 2 see who reaches there on time! =X
Maybe gals really do hav d prerogative 2 be late ba...
But their dai jia was 2 miss poh boon n gavin's singing!!! =P

One after another...
Got quite a few sang very well...
Finally... it was tc's turn...
D guys cheered loudly 4 him...
He sang quite well... his voice was quite stable... juz tt he stood too far behind d stage... n his face was expressionless...
I guess he was too nervous ba... but nevertheless he performed very well...
Good job dude!!!

We guys tried 2 cheer him up after tt...
Walked wif d guys 2 d bus stop n went home after tt...

Friday

Release of "The One" qualifying round result.
Tc dint managed 2 advance into d next round... which was kinda expected... =P
Actually i tink it's really very difficult 2 make it into d final...
Cos only 8 ppl is chosen...
But lincoln's group managed 2 make it 2 d final...
All d best man!

Dance training.
Late 4 training AGAIN due 2 SS exco meeting...
Wanted 2 pon meeting... but d teacher was there...
Somemore d meetin was very impt...
So if i dun go he'll reasons 2 kick me outta SS... =X

AGAIN... i got no mood 2 dance cos of SS stuffs...
No warm-up = cannot dance well...
My movements were sooo terri... terrible! =(
Sorry AGAIN dansez-le...

Tried very hard 2 hide it...
But danny still managed 2 spot tt my mind was somewhere else... =X
Tok 2 mrs koh regarding d clashing of both my ccas...
Hope she can help me settle d matter as she has promised...
Kaiying n huichun pang-sehed d guys 4 supper...
Ys met up wif us at central macs later on...
Had a very good guys talk there...
"Care to explain?"... HAHAHA...

Saturday

CIP @ Amk.
Had breakfast wif ys at amk S-11... tc pang-sehed us...
Met up wif classmates at amk bus interchange before setting off...
I was in d group wif d decents, nicholas n lincoln...
We were in charge of collecting old newspapers n clothes from blk 602, 611 n 607...

Blk 6o2... we went from door 2 door 2 collect...
In the end i tink our group owned d other group!
Later... tc n dexter stayed back 2 help 2 load d collected newspapers on d truck...

Blk 611... we were tired n chose not 2 use d door-2-door approach...
Den... heaven took pity on us... n there was an uncle who had lots of newspapers la!!!
His "yi dian dian" was alot la!!!
N we had 2 split it among d 4 of us 2 carry them back 2 d collection point! =X

Blk 607... d class bullied us... said our group all guys...
In the end we tio d blk tt is d furthest away lor... =(
We took quite some time juz 2 walk there...
N there was a friendly indian family who has lots of newspapers!
Even much more den d previous uncle la!

Tis time round she dint said "yi dian dian"(of course la... she can't speak chinese wat...=P)
She juz told us 2 go in her house...
Den we were like "ehh... siao liao... sure got alot sia..."
N there was really alot la...
But she was really very friendly... she even offered us d string 2 tie d newspapers!!!

PS: No more racist jokes from now on ar... =P

Went 2 amk KFC 2 hav lunch together...
Finally a class outing at long last!!!
Celebrated shujia's birthday in ny culture...
We sang an english n chinese birthday song 4 her...
Den all d ppl in KFC showed a weird look...
Well... understandable... only ny ppl dun find it weird!!! =X

Went off wif d decents 2 amk hub 2 slack...
We wasted lots of time in Fairprice cos of tc... who is always like a 17-months kid...
He was so fascinated wif toys... n was stuck in d children section 4 so long... =.=
In the end me n ys had 2 find him... like finding a lost child...
Grow up dude... =P

Had dinner wif family in d evening...
Watched abit of tv n slept at 9pm!
Can u believe it???
I guess i was really too tired these few days le...

Sunday

Bugis Village. A new place 2 go next time...
After breakfast-ed wif mum in d morning... she introduced me a trendy place...
Well... maybe only new 2 me ba... =X
There got sell lots of trendy shirts...
Somemore quite cheap la...
But there r many indecent ppl...
Many ah beng n ah lian... chi ko pei as well!
I even saw some hookers there la! Eeeewww... =X

I walked in front of my mum most of d time... lest she get taken advantage of!!!
I felt sooo MAN all of a sudden la!!! =)
Muz be careful when goin there next time... esp 4 gals!
Anw... we bought a shirt each in the end...

Haizzz...
I've been busy n unhappy at times these few days...
So not in blogging mood...
Well... still hav abit of uncompleted hw left...
Tink i muz start clearing them le...
Take care everyone~!
Cya~~~!!! =)

2007-01-30T01:31:00.000+08:00

I Wish...

I've been up to my neck wif studies n ccas 4 d past few weeks... so preoccupied tt i almost couldn't breathe...

I've been sleeping 4 less den 5hrs each day... n my energy level is really waning le... i really dunno how much i can hold on...

How i wish tt life was as simple as last time... when i was as innocent as a primary sch kid back den in Ai Tong... where i can find real joy n friends everyday...

How i wish i can live in a place w/o worries n frustration... how i wish i can be as free as when i was in St. Gabs... where nth seems 2 be able 2 trouble me...

But i guess tts all in d past... n there's no way tt i can turn back d time... haizzz... so wat? Look forward lor...

Haizzz... since d very 1st day tt i stepped into ny... which was on my birthday... life is no longer d same...

Last time... when ppl ask me 2 describe my life... i would say fulfilling... fun... trouble-free...

Now... i would use words like stress... busy n so on...

How i wish i can turn back time... so tt i can remake my choice... if tts d case... many things would hav been different... i may not be in ny...

I was in cj 1st 3 months... n wanted 2 stay there cos life was free n fun... But i guess heaven was playin tricks on me again... I taiko-ly got 10 pts 4 my 'O' level... n tt gave me tots of joining a better cj... cos i felt tt 10pts go cj abit lang fei...

After much deliberation... i ended up choosing ny... partly cos of my parents... n partly cos my best buddy is goin into ny...

In any case... no pt whining abt it... i shld be looking forward since im alrd in ny for abt 1 yr le...

In ny... life was much much more stressful... I'm used 2 being 1 of d tops in St.Gabs... but now i feel tt im so insignificant...

When i scored 80... ppl score 90... n when i score 90... ppl score 100...

I believe tt i can score much better den them... if only i hav more motivation n time 2 study...

Well... looking at things now... i tink it's not possible...

1st... during 1st 3 months cj taught very slow... n i've problems catchin up ny's pace... so... my foundation was weak 2 start wif...

2nd... im still not used 2 d lecture system... i feel tt most of d time i cannot 100% understand d whole lecture... at most is 90% only... so... i hav many doubts in each topic 4 every subject...

3rd... sch ended much later in jc n in sec sch... n somemore wif cca... schedule is more packed... which means less study time...

So ya... d only way 2 do well is 2 start mugging hard everyday now... but im really dead beat... no strength 2 mug... somemore i got no motivation oso...

Anw... sidetrack from studies... i got 2 noe one good friend in ny... someone tt i can call bro... Now... i got 2 brothers le... n tt lead 2 d formation of d decent trio... Well... i guess tts only d thing tt makes me feel tt i'm making d right choice 2 stay in ny...

Apart from tt... my class is not very bonded... there r distinct cliques... which i tink is due 2 wat had happened during d 1st 3 months n d recent blog war...

Cca-wise... i felt tt i've made d right choice in choosing ss... although most of my friends suan me 4 choosing tis cca... i really dun regret it... i kinda enjoy staying there cos there i'm free 2 make choices...

As 4 dance... many implication arises since i joined dance...

1st... i joined dance cos of 'sgc'... dunno if i've made d right choice but i chose 2 join...

2nd... n most imptly... studies affected adversely... i tried very hard 2 manage my time well... n i somehow did... but den i much more tired den wat i've expected... in the end my daily routine changed... last time reach home i'll study... now reach home??? Sleep w/o fail...

3rd... spending less time wif my family...cos i always reach home late... n im oso askin 4 extra allowances... Now... my mum is pissed wif me...

4th... n of course... making a bunch of new friends... some of which i feel lucky 2 noe them... some of which i wish i do not noe them...

Knowing tis new group of friends => dansez-le... made me further feel tt i've made d right choice in choosing ny... i felt tt life was more fun in ny wif them arnd... thank you ppl...

On d other hand there r some who destroy my good impression 4 ny... So wat if they hav high IQ when their EQ is low!!!

Truth be told... i've known a few friends who i really hate them... n their presence really cause alot of unhappiness 4 me...

Haizzz... some r juz plain arrogant n always show d 'look-down-on-u' face...

Some really noe how 2 take advantage of d situation...

Some are hypocrites...

They can really act well... so well u tot they r somebody tt can be trusted...

They exposed ur secrets after gaining ur trust... n before u can react or do anything... u've learnt a good lesson of not 2 be too trusting...

They smile in front of u... den backstab u in ur back... tts d 'best offensive move' i'll say... cos there's no room or any signs of warning 2 defend urself against it...

These kind of ppl r d most difficult 2 deal wif... cos they can juz deceive whoeva they like wif their 'natural ability'...

They gain ppl trust easily wif their facade... toying their feelings...

Haizzz... well... i can only hav myself 2 blame 4 being too trusting... i tot all my friends r trustable but im wrong... i tink maybe my mentally is still stuck in primary sch...

Now... d decent trio has got a taste of it... so i only hope we'll be d last 'victim'... n tt there'll be no more 'victims' from now on...

My advice... take a good look at d ppl arnd u... u may well be d next target unknowingly...

Haizzz... toking so much abt how much i hate hypocrite n ppl who resort 2 backstabbing... here i am bloggin w/o mentioning their names... n i tink there's oso no difference from backstabbing ba... maybe it's call 'indirect backstabbing'???

Den again... maybe im a hypocrite too... cos no one can tell how i feel...

When im angry... i kept in within myself... dun show it 2 others... sometimes even my brothers oso dunno...

When im sad... i bottle up my feelings... dun show it 2 others... lest affect their feelings/moods...

When im happy... i'll show it... cos i like d feeling of bringing joy 2 d ppl arnd me...

Sometimes even when im sad or angry... i'll still smile n crack jokes... i look so normal tt no one can tell im not happy...

So ya... i look d same most of d times... n most of d times i look happy... no one can really tell whether im feeling sad, angry or happy at tis moment... so i tink im fake in a way too...

Hu~~~ feeling better after pouring everything now... hey brothers... i tink i've nv told u all these rit... actually sometimes i hide things from u all... really very sorry ar...

And i tink there may be less outing next time le... cos i wanna spend more time wif my family... now they r pissed wif me... n im oso feelin bad... cos i've changed... somemore i noe tt im really not showing them any result... n all i do is go home late n sleep... so ya... hope u can understand...

Anw... i've been tinking of all these stuffs lately... n always ended up sleeping late... so here i am bloggin at 3am... couldn't sleep well... juz feel d sudden urge 2 pour out d feelings i've bottled up so long...

2007-01-27T21:34:00.000+08:00

The Realisation

Episode 7

1 week later...

While Alan, Terence, Jonathan, Alex and Glenn were still trying to expose Charlie,
Charlie moved on to Katherine.
They were really very put off by his behaviour.

They had many discussions,
Just to find a solution to this as fast as possible.
They really don't want to see more and more girls falling for his facade,
Lest the girls really like him and got deceived by him.

Day after day, they were slowly making some progress.
Will their persistence ever paid off at the end of the day???
Or will Charlie's true self be concealed forever???

The saga goes on...

2007-01-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

The Realisation

Episode 6

Terence continued to try every means to know that girl even better.
Not long after, he managed to get closer to her with the help of Alan and Jonathan.
He was feeling very happy.

Just at this moment, Charlie came into the picture again.
He behaved closely with that girl again,
Leaving Terence with not many chances to know her better.
Terence was feeling very very pissed.
He was feeling what Alan was going through last time.

Since then, both Alan and Terence hate Charlie to the core.
How they wish they can expose Charlie's facade in front of all the girls,
So that they take a good look at the girls' shocking reaction.
Of course, they wish they can really tear down his mask and show the world how ugly he really look like.

However, they know that it is very difficult.
No matter how hard Alan, Terence, Jonathan, Alex and Glenn racked their witty brains,
There is nothing much they can do to unmask him.

Charlie has gained all the girls trust as well as admiration.
It is extremely difficult to expose his true self as long as he do not show it in front of the girls.
Any reckless attempts to expose him will only made the girls lose trust in them.
Worst still, the girls' trust in him will grow more.

"Haizzz..." is the thing that is going through their minds whatever they think of how incompetent they were in exposing Charlie's true self.

Looking at how Charlie moves on from one girl to another,
they were really feeling very angry,
and helpless...

2007-01-27T20:55:00.000+08:00

The Realisation

Episode 5

1 month later...

Alan, Jonathan and Terence have sorted out their thinkings.
They have finally totally gave up on the ones they like.
Now, studies is their main priority.

Just at the moment when they have made this choice,
Heaven is playing tricks on them again.
The 3 of them realised that they found a girl who is quite good.
They all considered seriously about that girl.

In the end, Alan and Jonathan were unsure of their feelings.
So Terence decided to made a move to chase the girl.
They made a pact among themselves.
That is not to snatch the girl each fancies away from each other.

However, Terence was very clouded by love.
He changed and gradually forsaked Alan and Jonathan.
He was drifting away from them...
Slowly, yet unknowingly...

2007-01-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

The Realisation

Episode 4

Terence, Alex and Glenn's hearts went out to Alan.
They felt that Charlie is a bastard.
They slowly put on their guards against him.

However, Charlie's good acting skills earned every girl's admiration.
In the eyes of the girls, he is very impressive.
In the eyes of the guys, he is nothing but a faker.

In front of the girls, he is refined.
He is always humorous and brings joys to the girls.
An aura of charm is palpable.

In front of the guys, he is very crude.
Vulgarities were seen on his teeth once he opened his mouth.
He pang-sehed them for girls without fail whenever they went out for an outing together.
The aura of hypocrisy sent wave signals to their nervous systems,
Creating an uncontrollable force to imprint their fist marks on his face.

Meanwhile, the feelings of Alan, Jonathan and Terence for the ones they like were waning...

2007-01-27T19:58:00.000+08:00

The Realisation

Episode 3

Life goes on.
Their bonds remain strong. Unshaken in the event of troubles.
However, they still can't quite give up on the ones they like.

One day, Terence and Alan got to know Alex and Glenn in their cca.
And they realised that they shared many things in common.
They soon became close to each other...

They had lots of fun together.
They went for clique outings and even camp.
And then they got to know Charlie and Sebastian at the same time.

Soon, they shared their secrets with one another and got to know each other better.
The bonds between them soon strengthened...

However, despite knowing who Alan likes, Charlie chose to behave intimately with Wednesday.
He even exposed Alan's deep secret.
Alan was totally put off and was very angry with Charlie.
He felt very betrayed and think that his trust was misplaced.

At the same time, Jonathan faced the same situation.
His friend Lebron, who knows his secret, actually behaved quite closely with Katherine.
He was feeling down.
He was feeling betrayed.

Since then, Alan and Jonathan have learnt their lessons...

Lesson Learnt:
"知人知面不知心，劝你交友要小心。如果你不听，以后别伤心。"

2007-01-27T19:42:00.000+08:00

The Realisation

Episode 2

The 3 of them decided to pursue the girls they like.
As Terence happened to know Wednesday and Katherine, he decided to help Alan and Jonathan.
And indeed, his help did catalyst the progress between Alan and Wednesday as well as Jonathan and Katherine.
But poor Terence, he realised that Geraldine actually has a stead.
He was feeling devastated...

At the same time, Alan and Jonathan were still trying hard 2 know the girls they like better.
However, for some reasons, both their secrets were leaked out.
Feeling that it was the right time, Jonathan made his feelings known to Katherine.
The response was unclear, and since then they slowly drifted further and further away.

Then, Alan felt that it was unfair to let Wednesday be the last person to know about his feelings.
So, he made his confession to her.
In the end, she only wanna be friends with him.

The 3 of them suffered a massive blow.
They felt that they were failures.
Feeling very depressed, they made a choice.
That is to slowly give up on the ones they like...

2007-01-27T19:02:00.000+08:00

The Realisation

Episode 1

Alan is an all-time hardworking student.
He is the role model of his secondary school,
And he has a good pal call Jonathan whom he has known since secondary 1.
One day, his effort was finally paid off when he entered a junior college.
He was deliriously happy upon knowing that Jonathan was in the same class as him in the junior college.

He felt that life in junior college was about the same as secondary school with Jonathan around.
They continued 2 study, play and hang out together.
Not long after, they got to know Terence, who shares the similar thinking with them.
Since then, the 3 of them become good buddies, and little did they know that the formation of their friendship brought about drastic changes in their lives...

They are like triplets, as they would always walk around the school together.
Nothing in this world seems to be able to separate them, or overcome the strong bonds between them.

One day, Terence shared with Alan and Jonathan that he has a major crush on Geraldine, a girl whom he do not know.
Ever since then, he tried very hard to chase her.
He even went to a far extent to get her hp no as well as her msn address.

At the same time, Alan feel that he has taken a liking on Wednesday, while Jonathan feel that he has grew fond of Katherine.
The 3 of them found the girls they each desire at the same time.
However, they faced the same difficulty.
That is they did not really know the girl whom they like.

2007-01-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

Sunday
Went out wif my mum n sis in d morning 4 breakfast as usual...
After tt i headed 2 d yck cc at 4.30pm to receive d merit bursary award...
Not bad though... i received a $300 cheque as well as a free kfc meal there!

Hmm... i saw someone familiar there... dint really noe who until her name was announced when she was goin up d stage... it's none other den my bro's ex-flame!!! hahaha... =P

Monday
Vague memory of wat happened... only can recall tt i flopped my maclaurin's test... n had social dance 4 afternoon pe!!! =X

Tuesday
Sch ended earlier at 12.30pm as i shifted d econs tutorial 1hr earlier! Hooray!!! hahaha...

Anw... d decent trio went 2 J8 2 hav lunch as well as studyin in d library there... as expected... we spent more time walking arnd J8 den studying in d library...

Wanted 2 go watch death note 2 again... but tc was pressing 4 time as he was eager 2 rush back 2 sch 4 night study... hahaha... y suddenly so enthu in study ar??? =P

We crapped alot in d library instead of studyin... IN THE END... we only did a few tutorial qns 4 abt 2hrs... =.=

After tt... tc bought dinner 4 kaiying n huichun before goin off 4 night study in sch... Wa... u good la... pang-sehed ur buddies once again 4 gals... haizzz... nvm la... we still forgive u... =P

Wednesday
Dance training from 4.30-7.30pm...

Noe wat??? We guys finally "梦寐以求" n got 2 wear tights!!! =X
Eheeewww... so gao wei la... n we guys were really put off by d tights lor... cos it is so tight-fitting tt our ahem is abit obvious la... den we were really feelin very 不自在...

So ya... we kept adjusting our tights when doin barwork... =X

Anw... during d "最后一次" dance... i went all out cos it was d last time tt we would be dancing in d day le... or shld i say in d night! =X

Den... there was one part of d dance where d dsa gal (paiseh... can't rmb her name) accidentally kicked my left hand... n i sprained my index finger IN THE END... Wa... damn pain sia... but i endured all d way until d whole dance was over...

Woot~~ I tink d most painful part was when i lift michelle up wif my sprained finger!!! =X

Couldn't bend my finger 4 d whole night... so asked my dad help me rub... IN THE END... it did help alot... but d swell was still very big... =(

Thursday
Chem lecture test... n i was very unprepared cos i was really very exhausted... both mentally n physically...

Somemore... i could hardly write cos of my left index finger... n it hurts alot when i was doin d test la... So ya... i was doin quite slowly n dint really manage 2 finish d paper... But one thing is 4 sure... i'm finished!!! =X... I've no confidence of passing tis test man... Haizzz...

Friday
My finger still havent recover yet... but was feelin much better... not so painful... except tt there is blood clot in my finger... =.=

PE in d morning... dint do pull-ups n dint really play bball cos of my injured finger... i dun wanna d condition of my finger 2 worsen...

Econs test in d afternoon... n it was rather simple... hmm... i tink i shld be able 2 do well 4 tis test ba... hopefully la... hahaha... =P

Maths re-test after sch outside LT4... i scored only 4.5 in d previous maclaurin's test... so tis time round muz do well... IN THE END... d paper was so much more easy la... i tink i can even can full mark man... hahaha...

Dance training from 5.30-8.30pm...

A.S.S. members were all late 4 dance... tc was late cos of The One audition... while me aloy n gerald were pretty suay 2 meet a siao za bo at d central... n we had 2 settle d matter in d police station... =.=

Today's training focused more on refining all our steps n movements... n i seriously tink tt tis time round d guys did improve in d group work... i tink we were more familiar wif d timings now le! Yup!!! =)

Teik got injured again during training... but tis time round quite serious... cos i tink she sort of momentarily losing conciousness... So ya... dansez-le... 拼归拼... but dun over-exert urselves ok... u all muz rmb tt health is more impt den any thing else~!!! Do take care of urselves! Jia You!!! =)

So ya... after all d liftings... d condition of my finger aggravated again le... After training we guys played abit of ball game... n tc accidentally slipped his hand n hit my left leg wif his metal water bottle...

Wa... it was damn pain sia...

After tt d A.S.S. members together wif d 2 seniors, kaiying n huichun went 4 supper at central macs...

Chatted awhile until abt 11.15pm before we all went home! =X

2007-01-21T00:01:00.000+08:00

Day At The Zoo
Today... i went out wif d members of A.S.S., kaiying, huichun, lao da n chee kian 2 Zoo!!! Oh yea man... i tink tis was d 1st time i went Zoo since sec 1 ba... hahaha... =) So ya... i was pretty much looking forward 2 it!

Anw... we all met at amk mos burger 1st before setting off 2 Zoo... we were supposed 2 meet at 12pm de... but due 2 RAIN... we had 2 delay abit n ended up setting off at 2pm!!! Wa!!! Siao liao... d Zoo close at 6pm... n we reached there at arnd 3pm la! Wasted sia... =.=

Btw... d founders of A.S.S. members (me, tc, aloy n gerald) all wear black shirt la!!! WA... i tink there r really telepathy between us man... maybe it's bcos we all share d same ideals ba... hahaha... =P

Upon reaching there... many things looked very different compared 2 d last time i went there... well... i guess i was abit sua-gu ar... hahaha... =X... Anw... i realised tt d ticket costs $15 la!!! Wa!!! So ex sia... i tot only at most $12 nia... N after approaching d customer services... we realised tt d ticket would cost only $7.50 if we hav a sch letter... =.=

WA... we all really felt very cheated la... If only we knew earlier we would hav ask mr. kwek 2 give us a letter alrd lor... Haizzz... no choice grumbling here... we still bought d ticket at $15 lor... got ripped... =(... So ya... ppl... next time muz rmb 2 bring a sch letter wif u 2 buy d ticket at student price hor!!!

After taking some photos... we finally enter d Zoo... Due 2 time constraint... d A.S.S. members stepped up our pace a little... n in d end we were separated from d 4 of them...

Fun!!!
As usual... d A.S.S. members nv fail 2 carry out hilarious acts!!! I tink maybe tts wat u can expect when 5 humourous ppl stick together ba! hahaha... =P...

1st... we took random photos... n all our poses were either very diao... cool... or funny de!!! hahaha... but it's a pity tt i can't show u all d pictures taken here cos i need more time 2 upload them... so ya... will show u all d much anticipated pics next time de... 敬请期待!!! =P

After awhile... we finally gather together as a group again le! We walked together 2 see kangaroos... Oh ya... we caught them eating n shitting at d same time in action la!!! Eheeew... disgusting sia... =X

Kaiying said a small kid anyhow hold her hand... it reminded me of sth n den i said d wrong thing! Almost kena seh by her!!! hahaha... paiseh ar... juz a slip of my tongue! =P

Went 2 watch penguins after tt!!! Oh yea man... penguin is my fave animal man... Woot~ i love penguin! It's such a cute n obedient animal!!! Wa... abit high ar... hahaha... Anw... i took some solo photos wif penguins!!! =)

Next... we rested awhile... n d A.S.S. members took some very nice pictures sia! We took 4 official photos in total...

1st... we posed "U" (pointing at d camera)
2nd... we posed "Touch" (squessing sth... looked abit sick... =P)
3rd... we posed "We" (pointing at ourselves)
4th... needless 2 say... of course is "SEH" la! (showing punching fists!)

After tt... if i rmb correctly... we went 2 reptile park... We saw various kind of snakes as well as komodo dragons... n there is a python tt is extremely huge la! =X

Smart Move!
Well... here comes d funniest part of our journey...i dunno if it's a smart move or cheapskate move sia... hahaha... =P

In between d journey we find somewhere n rest... n wheneva we saw d vending machines... we will hav sth up our sleeves! hahaha...

At 1st... we went 2 a air-con pavilion a rest awhile... n there is a vending machine... den tc, aloy n gerald said they can got 3 bottles of drinks by paying d amt of a bottle of drink!

At 1st i was lost... dunno how they did it... so being curious... i observed... when no one was around in d pavilion... they inserted $2.90 coins into d vending machine... den press a code no. of d drink...

Next... d drink dropped onto a latch n roll out... Juz den... tc stuck his hand in d hole (where d drink is supposed 2 come out) n stopped d drink from coming out... den... it really landed on d latch... n d machine refunded us back d money!!! lolz!!! hahaha... they continued doin tis for 3 consecutive times n IN THE END... they got 3 bottles 4 juz $2.90!!!

WA... we tried tis on 3 occasions la... 1st n 2nd time was quite a success... d 3rd one was a complete failure la!!! hahaha... cos aloy pressed d code no. where d drink was sold out!!! WA... he dint c den juz anyhow press a no... IN THE END he really paid $2.90 4 one drink la!!! N after tt he really felt very heart pain... HAHAHA...

Aloy... dun be sad... juz treat tis as a lesson learnt man... "Failure is the mother of success... u shld pick urself up from where u fall... n most imptly... never try 2 outwit a vending machine!!!" HAHAHA... =P

So ya... during our 2nd try a few foreigners were arnd... n i tink tt we've exposed d ugly side of Singaporeans 2 them le! =X

Time flies n it was 6pm le!!! While making our way back... we wanted 2 watch d polar bears... cos it kinda resembles aloy ma... hahaha... =P... Anw he oso admited himself lor... n we say d feeding time is at 5pm... so muz go feed him... But IN THE END we were late... n d polar bears were all shifted 2 Night Safari le... Sux sia... =.=

In any case... i still got gave him some biscuits at arnd 5pm la... so still consider got feed him! Juz tt i nv pay him d $5 for d feeding fees!!! hahaha... =P

So ya... we walked all d way back until we finally reached d souvenir shop le... As expected... d items sold there were very nice... so is d price... hahaha... I like d soft penguin toy there la... but d price was ahem... u all noe la...

Anw... we walked arnd d shop... n started playin wif some items n toys...

After tt... kaiying had 2 go off 1st 2 celebrate her bro birthday... while d rest went off 2 take bus 138 to amk central 2 hav KFC 4 dinner... Me n ys ga jiao huichun a little bit... n she was so shy tt her face turned red... hahaha...=P

D decent trio n huichun sat together at 1 table... so we had a good chat... n understand more abt each others' friends as well as our individual situations... hahaha...

Soccer Time!
So ya... we lost track of d time until i realised tt it was 8.45pm le! Ohh... siao liao la... d match between Liverpool n Chelsea started le!!! So me, aloy n gerald being d ardent soccer fans... can't afford 2 miss d clash of titans between d 2 giants man...

IN THE END... they went 2 my hse 2 watch cos my hse is only a 5min walk away from amk central... So ya... we watched n bullshit at d same time... it was very fun sia... During d break... we had abit of guys talk...

Finally... d match ended wif Liverpool winning 2-0... n aloy made d right prediction n won money la!!! Hey congrats man... n rmb Seoul Garden... steady ar!!! hahaha...

Had a little abit more of guys talk until abt 11.30pm... n they went home le...

So ya... i'm feeling very tired now le after goin out 4 one whole day... i tink i gtg slp early today le... cos i hav yet 2 complete my chem n maths tutorials... as well as revising 4 d math lecture test on monday! Wa... somemore i tml still need 2 go 2 d yck cc n collect d merit bursary award la... i doubt i'll hav time 2 complete my hw alrd sia... I muz really chiong my hw tml le... so cya ba~!!! =)

2007-01-20T00:13:00.000+08:00

Friday

PE...
Had bball during pe in d morning... n d decent trio was so 'lucky' tt we played against ass's team!

WA!!! D tot of it made my blood boils sia... actually our team can thrashed ass's team de... but cos our team only we 3 can play well... so IN THE END we drew wif them... =.=

During d game ass was damn gay... ppl pushed him abit den he kept shouting "wtf man... foul la foul la..."... Actually it wasn't a foul lor... but nvm la... guys muz handicap gals wat... muz be more gentleman... so we juz considered it as a foul lor... =.=

Nth much happened during d remaining lessons of d day... juz tt i was feeling extremely tired towards d last few lessons n i nearly felt asleep again... =X

Dance Training
Bought some breads n biscuits juz before dance cos i was really famished... n i bought some 4 d founders of A.S.S. too!!!

Anw... as usual... barwork--> stretching --> choreography

Me n aloy saw RAINbow when doin barwork... but we see see den dun really care le... But dunno y when d gals see they were like so fascinated la... like it's a 1st time they c RAINbow in their lives! hahaha... =P

Now comes d choreography part... n it's time tt d A.S.S. carried out their 1st ever mission le... tt is 2 prevent 'accidents' from happening...

Initially everything was fine... until our client complained 2 us sth... n at tt moment we had 2 uphold our motto... but we were held back by her... cos she wanna drop d case... Wa!!! Count tt person lucky man... if not we seh him alrd le...

So ya... 1 of our founders n 1 of d honourable members tried 2 settle it in a peaceful manner... but IN THE END d person denied everything... well... i guess A.S.S. really got no choice but 2 really uphold our motto next time le!

Btw... dance training was abit hiong though... n i accidently injured my left knee! WA!!! Last time was shoulder... den hipbone... den wrist... den now knee... i wonder which part of d body will i injured next sia... =X

After dance d members of A.S.S. together wif kaiying n huichun went 2 amk mos burger 4 supper... As usual... we chatted quite alot... n tc showed a 'magic glance'!!! hahaha... =P

Anw... had a little bit of guys talk wif aloy n gerald after eating... n it was really nice man... hope there'll be more of tis talk in d future man... hahaha...

PS: Hey aloy... dun tink so much le... n cheer up ya??? U hav d support of RAINASS dun forget!!! hahaha... =P

RAINASS Rocks man!!! =)

2007-01-18T23:31:00.001+08:00

A.S.S.

A.S.S. was founded on 1st december 2006
Our founders--> Tyson, Aloysius, Alvin & Gerald
Honourable members--> Yong Shun & Lao Da
Members--> Some other ppl
Clients--> Confidential
How to join--> Those who have the same ideals as us

Motto
"You Touch, We SEH"

Our Pledge
We, the members of A.S.S.
Pledge 2 seh any person
Who tries 2 create accidents
For his own benefits
On purpose
We will not tolerate any excuses
And nonsense from this person
Cause he is a stupid pimp
We will follow the path of light
And will always be right

Sponsors
Rain Productions

Affiliations
Rain Productions

Dear members of A.S.S... pls learn d pledge as well as d motto of our organisation... Interested parties pls feel free 2 approach any of our founders... =)

2007-01-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

Long Day...
Haizzz... thursday again... sian sia... n once again... all d chem n phy practicals as well as tutorials in a day... Hmm... anw...i reached sch early at 6.45am...

1st period was phy lecture... n i really dun understand d topic on oscillation la... i tink tt tis is perhaps d 1st time tt i'm so lost in a lecture lor... =X

After phy practical was chem lecture... well... still can comprehend d lecture... so not too bad... I was feeling very sleepy today... n i almost felt asleep on some of d occasions... but luckily i've got some sweets 2 sustain me throughout d lectures!

Anw... some guys from 0617 challenged me, tc, ys, aloy n gerald... d A.S.S. members... 2 a bball game after chem lect... n of course... we took up d challenge! IN THE END... we thrashed them man... as expected... hahaha... =P

Chem practical next... n as usual... 2 hrs juz passed away quickly...

After econs tutorial... my class stayed back awhile 2 discuss abt d class jersey... n as expected... we couldn't really come 2 a conclusion on which design we want... =.=

Met up wif aloy, gerald, lao da, kaiying n huichun... d other members of A.S.S. after tt... hahaha... WA!!! A.S.S. is growing now sia... n i tink tt A.S.S. will definitely be a great force 2 be reckon wif in d future man... HAHAHA... =P

So ya... aloy n kaiying were doin their gp essays... while d rest were chattin...

Many hilarious things happened at tt time...

1st... aloy said a 'magic word' which made me laugh like mad la... HAHAHA... =P... Nice one la aloy...

2nd... lao da took his phone n tried 2 do a 'last ride' position... i dunno y oso leh... =P... but it was damn funny la! HAHAHA...

3rd... tc n lao da tried gaying wif each other... i oso dunno y leh... i tink they wanna do sth ar... hahaha... =P

Next... tis was d nice part... cos me, aloy n gerald were too bored... n we decided 2 do sth 4 A.S.S.!!!

We tot of d motto... d pledge n everything 4 A.S.S. le!!! hahaha... it was really damn funny la... we even tot of making a jersey 4 tis organisation! =P

FYI...

A.S.S. is a legally established organisation tt prevents 'accidents' from happening... It aims 2 provide necessary assistance 4 those who need help... n will take severe actions against anyone who attempts 2 create these 'accidents' intentionally...

Note: Anyone caught shall face dire consequences... n d organisation is not held responsible shld any untowards happened 2 d person...

2007-01-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

Due 2 time constraint... i shall make my blog short n sweet...

Sunday

I've juz been noticed tt i've been awarded d Merit Bursary Award! hahaha... really can't believe tt i'm d top 25% in NY despite not doin well 4 my promos! Maybe tts wat u call taiko ba... =X

Anw... as im in a good mood... i decided 2 give my mum n sis a treat! So IN THE END... i treated them Carl's Jr. @ PS! hahaha... so now im *chi-ching*... not much money left wif me... But im gonna receive d award next sunday... so next week i'll hav extra allowances le! Yea!!! =)

Monday

Met up wif d decents, aloy, gerald, kaiying n huichun 4 breakfast at d usual coffeeshop... Prata 4 me as usual... hahaha...

Lessons as per normal... n nth funny particular happened... except tt tc wore his own brown pants 2 sch! hahaha... i tink tt was d joke of d day ba... it was so obvious sia... n he got caught by a teacher... =P

Tuesday

A short day 4 me... cos d sch ends at 12.30pm 4 my class... Yea!!! Anw... d decent trio... together wif lincoln, nicholas n dexter... went 2 textile centre somewhere near lavender 2 make our class jersey! Wa... a class jersey at long last man!

IN THE END... we decided 2 choose a jersey wif collar zip de! It was really very cool la... I tink our class will definitely stand out from d rest of d classes de! hehehe... =P

Cheng went 2 national library... so we joined her shortly after tt... n tc was very caring sia... bought sth nice 4 her... sooo warm~~~!!! =P... cheeky ar tc... nv see u treat d decents before leh... =P

Cheng need 2 return back 2 sch 4 soccer... so as members of rangers... we accompanied her 2 sch... On d way... dunno y tc n her always walked together sia... n me n ys always lost track of them... hahaha... =P

IN THE END... they reached sch 1st w/o us la... n poor us had 2 jog all d way 2 sch 2 catch up wif them... WA! tc... u good la... pang-sehed us... but nvm la... being understanding... n d fact tt we r brothers... we forgive u in d end... hahaha...=P

Wednesday

Reached sch at 6.50am... had abit of guys talk in d canteen...

Lessons were boring... n i fell asleep during GP tutorial! Well... failed my gp compre... n maybe tts my retribution 4 sleeping ba... =X

After sch... rushed 2 SS meeting at 3pm... being part of d exco... i feel a sense of responsibility towards tis CCA... so i decided 2 help SS-ians out in d J1 orientation...

IN THE END... i tio-ed scolded n suan-ed by my SS teacher-in-charge... WA!!! I was damn pissed la... i've alrd told d president tt i joined dance on d very day tt i've decided 2 join dance... n i tot she got tell d teachers la...

Now... d teachers tink i am very irresponsible... tink i had d intention 2 hide it from them... tink i wanna quit tis CCA... =.=... I was really very very disappointed when he said tt... Worst still... he said i shld hav 分寸... said i shldn't join dance when d training dates clash wif d SS meeting...

HU~~~ actually there r no clashes one lor... but cos of d longer training time it clashes wif d meeting... Haizzz... nvm... i shall prove him wrong... i shall let him noe tt even though i only attend d meeting 4 a short while... i'll still do sth 2 contribute 2 tis CCA de... i'll play my part as promised de!!!

So ya... i'll really hav 2 work out on my time management well le... cos i tink it's seriously not easy 2 cope wif both ccas n my studies well at d same time... I can do it de!!! Jia you alvin!!!

Dance training after sch...

Danny has made some changes 2 d part where d 2 guys r supposed 2 lift d gal... so ya... now me, aloy n gerald feel tt d syf dance was more hiong le... =X

Anw... it was really tiring lifting d gals so many times... n cos of tt... sth bad happened... which i dun wanna elaborate here... lest those victims dun feel well...

I only can say tt it is understandable or unavoidable tt there may be some 'accidents' happening when dancing... but i feel tt too much 'accidents' is no longer accidentally... it's deliberately...

So ya... i hope those who understand wat i mean can be more careful in d future trainings... muz voice out if u really feel uncomfortable... cos i really tink tt tis kind of thing cannot take it lightly... even i oso feel very uncomfortable seeing 'accidents' happening on my friends...

So ya... i really feel d need 2 do sth d prevent 'accidents' from happening again... Feel free 2 approach d A.S.S. members 4 help n support! hahaha...

*A.S.S. is proudly sponsored by RAIN Production... founded by... d RAIN Production of course la... hahaha... =P

Anw... my energy is really waning 4 d past few weeks... i tink i really need ample of rest now le... *Yawns*... I muz start making plans le... i muz do well both in my studies n ccas!!! So ya... i shall kick start wif reading my lect notes now... Cya ba~!!! =)

2007-01-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

Sometimes...

Hoping for

Is to be optimistic

Holding on

Is never a solution

Giving up

Is the easiest way out

Sometimes

It's best to let go

I'm kinda preoccupied recently wif tonnes of schoolworks as well as CCAs... So ya... I'll blog less often in d future le... Gonna spend more time studying instead of bloggin now le... hahaha... =)

想通了。。。